@Yelenab 15 September 2021

These days the days walk by quickly. I don't know why. Maybe it's me who has become distracted by life. Sometimes it happens that you deliberately put a part of your consciousness to sleep just to not feel pain, but then you get used to it and continue. So you anesthetize yourself, as a defense. First your knees full of bruises, then your heart, and then, when you just can't take it anymore, you get to drug your soul. You are tired. Your pile of bones is heavy and dragging it has become a burden. You often remain silent. No one ever notices, because no one ever really looks at you, it becomes pointless to explain that there is so much wrong. You simply don't say it, you leave it in the background, that it's not needed. Nobody wants it. Loneliness remains the only safe place, the only welcoming home where, paradoxically, there is no lack of smiles, authentic smiles. To others you dedicate the forced one, the one without explanation, the one they want. It doesn't matter how you feel. They won't ask you how you are. You always lie so well that everyone always believes it. ©Yelena b. Time - Pink Floyd https://youtu.be/JwYX52BP2Sk #asongforyou by @Yelenab