Pain-you are allowed to feel it
As of this moment, you are still in the process of healing.
People may say "move on", "it's alright" it may be easier said than done, right? If only we could. If only we could skip the steps -- the process but the truth is, there's no skipping these.
It's either you let yourself drown a bit from the pain, or you learn to forgive and slowly heal on your own. It isn't an easy process, but it has always been a part of loving someone who promised you forever and eventually broke your heart.
I guess in this.
What's important is that, we learn.
We learn to give ourself the time and love it deserves (self love) being able to keep ourself sane and keeping oneself sober from the drunken thoughts.
Continue to love unconditionally, but learn to leave some for yourself. ❤️ In that way, in every endings, you would not regret any of it or put the blame on anyone. Because at some point, you were happy being in those moments.
Let the pain be felt because it will not be permanent. As long you learn from it.
I wish people would not force us to just be okay when we're not. It's like somehow, we are being deprived to free ourselves from the thron that the pain have left us. Anyway, thanks for your article @worm. ❤️