new year nowhere

A year has gone by again

So many expectations —

undulations of time — cresting, crashing, then

receding

without much sound or ceremony

back to that blackening, primal sea —

But what delights the seasons

gave us!

Cherry blossoms wet and pink

promising summer treasures

And summer’s fading reminded us

about fall's blazing leaves, and winter's cheerful nostalgia

So much looking forward,

eyes opening only now, to look back…

Stupefied, forsaken and laid to rest —

renewed and dead —

by the cardboard cutout gods we

were supposed to trust

Shipwrecked on that dark shore

aborted trajectories of heart and mind

In hindsight, each moment was

itself

an

eternity

reflecting and searching

in the face of an

impossible

magnificence — insignificance

Projected from somewhere

Not here

Not there