I know you're surrounded by clouds of regret
I know you're covered by gross darkness.
I know how it feels to be confused and helpless. I really do!
But have you read the book of Psalms 34:5?
It says, "They looked unto him, and were lightened: and their faces were not ashamed."
NLT puts it this way: 'Those who look unto Him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces.
No matter how thick the darkness is, there is always a light in maximum proportion to look unto. The greater the darkness, the brighter the light.
So life isn't over. Do not settle in depression, fear and discouragement. Do not let your soul live for long or even forever in terrible and dark regions of captivity.
Look unto the light and the darkness will be subdued and confused.
Look unto the Lord Jesus Christ! He is The Light.
There can be other options but He is the Truth. Every other option is falsehood and darkness that appears like light.
Let Him be the source of your solution and you will find rest for your soul.