"If this guy doesn't know until now that you exist and he couldn't see how great woman you are, then maybe he doesn't deserve you at all."
She leaned back in Jen's car as she felt the softness and trembling of her knees. That was so close. So very close. It woud just be a few seconds before she revealed her feelings for him. It was just a matter of seconds and she would have bared her soul in front of him.
And he will definitely be very surprised because he did not expect what she would say because that is not the reason why he was surprised and stunned.
"Do you hear me, Aki" She stared at it.
"Are you okay?" he ask.
"You're pale."
"What ?"
"Are you okay?" its still a worrying question.
"I-I'm fine."
"It would be better if we got in the car," he said, then supported her into her car. He opened the door for her.
"Are you feeling bad? Why did you suddenly turn pale?" He fastened her seat belt.
"It's nothing ," she replied.
"Hop on."
"Are you sure you're okay?
Are you hungry?" he asked as he got into the car.
"No. Let's just go home."
"I'm serious, you know," he said while still not operating the vehicle.
"What?"
"About the guy we're talking about. Do you really love him?"
"Billy, just forget that ..."
"How come you didn't even mention me?" there was a touch in its questioning voice.
"Ahm, that's not that serious. Their family is about to migrate to the US. That French-kiss then, Jen was just kidding me that I would do that. That's all. "
"Do I know him?" he asked.
"No. Computer Engineering is also his course. You haven't seen him yet."
"I may have seen it. I often pick you up at your department, right?"
"You haven't seen him yet."
"And are you sad because you will never see him again?"
"Sort of." She prayed that the question and answer portion was over because she was already counted among the answers she was inventing.
"I want to see the guy."
"He's gone!" She suddenly felt panicked.
"What do you mean no more?"
"Migrated?"
I thought, just leaving? "
"What I mean is, he doesn't come in anymore because they are about to leave."
There was doubt in his eyes as he stared at her. He was obviously confused by the details she was saying.
"Billy, please, let's just forget about this."
"Are you determined to forget him?"
"Y-yes." "Good. I'll help you with that. There are more men who are superior to him. Someone who'll see the great woman in you. Someone you don't even need a French kiss to notice you. Believe me, I know, because I know you.
" She was touched by what he said ..
"Thank's. Let's go."
"Aki?"
"What?" she replied in shock.
"Can you at least give me his name?"
"Then, you will ask anyone." Just don't.
Let's forget about him."
"She's your first love." It has started the car engine. He did not know if he was just imagining or he really heard his voice sad when he said that.
BILLY knew Akiko was hurting. This is how it is when you are hurt, you try to change the subject.
Don't talk about the problem. Do not admit to riding it even though he already knows. And the worst example of it hurting is its constant avoidance.
When she asked who the man she loved was she saw the shock on her face. He knew she was about to tell him everything so she was suddenly stunned.
"I just woke up one morning feeling like this ...." he remembers its language. She was about to tell him about the guy she fell in love with but for some reason it did not specify that. She wanted to sulk here because it didn't even mention to him about that thing Yet they all speak to one another. All of the woman associated with him knew this.
He wondered who the guy was. He probably already saw that and Akiko just didn't want to tell him. That man is blind.
He was annoyed to think that the man had hurt her friend. But the important thing is that Akiko is ready to forget that man and they will never meet again. It will be easier for Akiko to forget.
Everyone who flirted with Akiko was criticized by the man she did not want to say the name. She felt an inexplicable jealousy of that man. His attention was always as focused on him so he did not notice that there was another man focusing on it.
What if the man became Akiko's boyfriend? Can a man accept the kind of closeness they have with a friend? Will he receive another friend's attention besides him?
But she realized that he should not be jealous of the man she secretly loved. When he finds out about the man, his chapter on the girl's life is over and Akiko is ready to forget it.
At that thought, he felt relieved. He could not explain why. Perhaps he was afraid of losing Akiko to him. Maybe he was not ready to see it with another man.
He was not ready for another man to know everything about it. All he wanted was that privilege. Exclusive only for him.
He would do anything to make Akiko forget that man easily. He will always cheer it up. They were happy when they were just the two of them.
Maybe in time, he will also receive her attention and turn to other men. But for now, he doesn't want to think about that. He is not yet ready to leave it to the man she will love next. He may be selfish but that is how he feels.
But his curiosity about the man Akiko loved still lingered. He wanted to know who it was, what he looked like.
But who could he ask about it?
Jen! This is all he can ask. He just wanted to know what kind of man Akiko loved.
"HI, JEN!" Billy greeted him warmly as he got out of his car. Coincidentally, he took something from his car so he saw it there. Ideally, he no longer has to think of a way to talk about it without Akiko.
"Hello, Billy," There seemed to be something strange about his gesture that she could not understand.
"Exactly," it said. "I really need to talk to you."
"Yeah, I know."
"What do you mean?" he asked in astonishment.
"You talked to Aki yesterday, right?" she said.
"Yeah. After you left."
"And she told you, right?"
"Well, yeah."
"Just give her time, Billy," she said, making her even more confused.
"That would hurt him too."
"Yeah, I know," he said simply.
"Can I know how you really feel for Aki after, you know, after she told you she's in love with you?"
"Well, surprised ..... What ?!" he could not believe his ejaculation. "What did you just say, Jen? Can you say it again? Aki is in love with me ?! I'm the man she was referring to?
To be continue......
