Every day that passes for me is one more day being far away from someone to whom I gave a big part of my life, that person that in spite of not being next to me I can feel the warmth of his body next to mine, My jhony even being far away I can feel him so close, with a long distance love I learned so many things that perhaps, having him close would not be so, we can be going through so many difficulties and we could not see even having him so close what you learn to see with other eyes at a distance.
With my great love so many kilometres away from me, I learnt to value even a message, a short and simple hello, or maybe even a good profit, even a I miss you, they have more meaning for me, it is not easy to be able to love someone that you see very few times a year or none, this is my story, one that despite so much time apart still lives, has the fire intact, my thirst of wanting to love him for life remains the same, today I write with my heart in my hand a love story that makes its way every day.
Most of my friends say that they love their husbands, although they prove the opposite, with the passing of time in my long distance relationship, I learned that any greeting is worth, any word has meaning and just listening to his voice can make me nervous, With the passing of time I also learned that love is more than just a feeling, it must be truly felt and also demonstrated every day, my jhony is there for me every day even though we only talk by mobile phone and I can see him through a video call, for me it has great meaning. When you really love, everything is worth to fight when everything seems impossible and for love nothing is impossible if two people love each other they can keep trying, trying to fight for what they feel, my long distance relationship made me mature, it made me see life in a different way, everything has been very different to my other relationships, despite being so far away, I can feel his love for me, I can feel his affection and above all I can feel that he really misses me without having said it.
I have been struggling with this distance for approximately 3 years, of which I have only seen my great love 5 times, it seems little but for me at least it is something, every day that passes I wake up thinking when will be the next time that I can see him, that I can touch and feel his skin, smell that perfume that he always uses and that I like so much, hear his voice close to my ear, I do not lose hope and every day it grows more although many do not believe it so. I hate to hear from people I know that maybe I'm wasting my time, I don't have an opinion in anyone's life, I don't know why they do it in mine either, what is certain is that my love is still intact waiting for that day to come when I can embrace my great love again.
John always says that my way of loving is quite poetic, to see me and laugh is very common in him especially when I start to be cheesy and dedicate poems and writings that I do for him, although he laughs he knows deep down that he likes it and that if I stop doing it part of what he loves about me maybe he would die. I must also say that I love the way he treats me, I always feel that I am his queen and he is my beautiful prince.
To love nowadays in this new society seems so superficial that we forget what really matters, to undress our senses only some people can do it, to feel that someone really causes a tingling sensation in you is good news, because it won't always be like that. I have a theory about love, I think that when you really love people must fight, search and persist, especially when you are at a distance it becomes a test of steel, to be away from someone really teaches you how much you can be without seeing them and still continue loving, how much we can trust that person even without knowing what they are doing and what I like most about love at a distance is the way in which we seek to keep alive the fire that unites both, maybe this sounds very poetic and overrated, but the reality is one, people easily forget how to fall in love again every day to the person they have by their side by the simple fact of having already conquered, with this long distance love I learned that love is demonstrated and not only to fall in love or to give to understand that you really are with that person because you love them, maybe if it is true that we stay where they treat us well but above all we must think that we are doing to continue sowing that great love and water it every day with acts and vows that solidify what is already written.
The month of december for me has great meaning, my great love has his birthday and it is also a month that brings a lot of joy and family unity, to share that day for me is something unique, as well as feeling loved by him, I remember that day as if it was yesterday, that day I wanted to make a surprise to my jhony so I decided to invite him to my house and prepare a surprise with balloons and lots of sweets, also a cake, I had to be quick because he would arrive in about 3 hours and I did not know exactly where to start, I must thank my sister in law who joined me and between the two of us we were able to make this surprise, what i can't get over is that jhony almost died of fright when he arrived home and saw me thinking that i would be at the university and not exactly at home, it was such a surprise that i had to look for something to calm him down because he got too excited and started to feel bad, what seemed to be a surprise for him ended up becoming a surprise for me, that's how everything happened, on the other hand to be able to spend the day of his birthday I liked it a lot, to have travelled from one country to another to be able to be with me that day was the biggest act of love that nobody had done for me, a big part of these acts are those that define his love for me, not everyone makes such a sacrifice and much less to travel from one country to another.
relationships always have conflicts and constant ups and downs, but our relationship does not work that way, it is based on conversation, being able to say everything and whenever something we do not like to comment it helped us to solidify our relationship, couples should look for strategies if they really want to live together in a positive way, that is why we always see how many relationships end up breaking up, although there is love it is not everything, we must have a greater commitment more with ourselves than anything else, because setting an example with actions is better than saying it with words that lack meaning and are often hollow.
being attentive and in particular is one of the things i like most about jhon, he always looks for a way even when he is far away, one of the most beautiful things about a long distance love is that you don't know what to expect until something happens, because we don't really know what that person is doing, it puts our sense alert and makes us happy.
this time it was me who was surprised, i didn't expect to receive this gift but jhon is a specialist in that, that day we were celebrating another month together, how i would have wanted him to be there in person to hug him and give him a big kiss. Despite being far away, jhon and my mum came up with the idea of a family lunch, my gift on the other hand was designed with my personalised name and as I like it with lots of balloons.
He knows how to undress my senses, it is not necessary for him to touch me much less to tell me anything, just by seeing him my heart beats stronger, just by listening to him my mind goes out of control, that is how strong is the power he has over me. The relationships in my family have not been like the family, to tell the truth I am the only one who fights every day to continue with someone I do not see much but I can say that even if he is far away I am loving him with my soul.
this photo also has great meaning, i remember that day jhony had told me that he had to look for some rules that he had sent, after waiting almost half a day they still didn't arrive and my time was starting to decrease because they were taking too long, the only good thing about all that was seeing that balloon and his writing. on the other hand, our relationship helped us both, because we both came from suffering a little in love, i wasn't sure i wanted to have something with him especially because he wasn't my type.
many times we don't like someone and when someone asks you if it's something of yours you end up shouting Noooooo! but we really know what we are saying because then that woman can fall madly in love with that person, that's how my story happened.
I didn't think about falling in love much less in someone who wasn't my type, it all started with a balloon, a red balloon that called my attention and that with the passing of time not only called my attention but my senses were already losing control after several months that stranger that I didn't like had become the one that today is my great partner.
"In the coldness of my heart there is only something that can cause me the opposite, it's called feeling, it happens that the coldness of my algae needs warmth to survive".
Challenges in the distance
While a couple has challenges, when you are at a distance these challenges become more complicated, but if there really is that love everything else will be worth it, in my case every day is strong not being able to see my partner and above all it is much stronger to have to see him only by video call and even worse not knowing when the day will be when I will find him again to be able to embrace him.
On the other hand there is also the time factor, time is often good but not so much, as many people lose half of their life trying to live a life that after many years does not have a happy ending is common to happen especially when there is no good vision of life within the relationship, I know and understand that if I want the best for my relationship I must look for my partner, so probably very soon I will go to live with him. Also time allows us to measure how much it is worth fighting for the relationship we love so much, I can love someone very much but if the relationship becomes monotonous, time will be the determining factor to determine when it will end.
relationships are on silk
I always say that in a moment we can be super good in our relationship but just as we are good in a second everything can change either because something that thought infinite ended up changing to a point and end, many times couples fail to channel their emotions and gather everything into one forming a kind of tornado that takes everything in its path and finally leaves nothing to pick up.
Just like silk, a relationship is sensitive and is exposed to any external agent that can break it and this is how it works, especially in love, almost always relationships end because of things that happen outside the relationship, for example, friendships, families, other people, the ideal as a couple is that we maintain a good relationship and that it is fluid with nothing to hide, probably this way we will be able to overcome everything.
with the years that i have been with my partner i can say, that we have had strong moments, of anguish and also of much joy, that as there are good things in a relationship there are also days that are the opposite, that if we really want to continue with that person we will do whatever is possible to always be with them, that if we really love we will fight every day to fall in love again with that person, a love does not fall, much less wither, a love is watered, a love is nourished by positive things and finally these two people end up forming a family as a sign that both have decided to prevail together.
Have a happy day, do not let your love relationships end, look for ways to fall in love again with your partner and keep the essence of love alive.
