“no person is sent to you by accident” and i am so grateful because the people that god sends for me are the best to surround with. i wouldn't be the person who deserve all the good things in this universe if they failed to showered me the love, support, kindness, and understanding. i do really love my few friends, the people who are always there and let me experience the feeling of being seen, heard, understood, and valued. in a world of billions, i found my different versions. happy national best friend day! u guys should greet your friends, hug them and don't be afraid to show how you love them! lovelots, everyone ><
to be who you are, after all you have been through at the hands of this world, is beautiful.
something beautiful that i learned from my book is that, closure doesn't actually serve us. if you can't move on from someone because you're waiting for the words, the reasons, the explanation—the closure, STOP IT. it won't heal you or bandage your heart. it just a way for us to not let go and just keep holding on. it won't dissolve the pain because the truth is— it will just add a reason for us to heal and move on. the ache will just hurt differently but nonetheless, we still have to heal by our own. something beautiful is—“no closure is a closure. half-ending is still an ending.”
almost 2 years have passed since I stopped writing, looking back at my notes is beyond heartbreaking. I don't know how to write again.
and how can i go back if i lose the drive to pursue the things that i love?
Life has a different twist, each of us has a twist that we have to deal with. As a dreamer and a warrior, i must survive the rough road, the roaring thunderstorms and strong hurricanes, the darkness that i may encounter. I should be wise, confident and brave enough to overcome the long tiring journey. Life can be in the dark phase, and no one could say how universe will challenge us in every moment. I honestly afraid in the thought “Will you succeed?”. What if after of all the sacrifices and hardships, i'm still in the place that i used to dreamed of. It made me scared for everything. But then, looking at my big and little achievements made me realize that i have become so far. I just need to look and do backwards to the old version of myself. In the tough and hard times that made me vulnerable, to those silent battles that i survived and managed to get through with bravery, and NO, i will never give up. I have to learn how to step my footprints on the staircase, how i will focus to achieve my dreams even it will be a thousand steps. I won't stop until i proud of myself, until i leave the same ground and became the most satisfied old person.
idk but God gave me the best people to surround with, that became my reason why i’m not wanting a boyfriend that could save me or listen to me at 1 am in the morning. i have a best friend who's my safest place, my circle of friends who showered me the love, support and understanding that i deserve. even my classmates and friends in junior high school that always checking up on me knowing the fact we're not in the same school anymore. now i am asking God, how genuine am i to be loved by these people? or do i deserve to be loved by them? aaaaa, i am literally lucky and i will be forever grateful because i experience one of the beautiful things in this universe—to be loved, to be seen, and to be heard.
i'mmmm so happpyyyy for real!!! my feed in both Instagram and Facebook is full of awareness about Palestine! i lovee itt because i used my platform, specifically my account to spread the awareness about this issue. one more thing is i have been influenced my friends, classmates and even my family through sharing about this matter and posting the awareness!! i am sooo happy and fulfilled, i can't donate and help them but at least i could spread the awareness. i can't take the videos and photos that were taken, it's beyond heartbreaking. i see human but no humanity. none of this is fair to them. they do not deserve it that's why we have to put an end to this. wake up, my homies! we should not support the genocide. we should be aware how Palestinians are being burned alive to death. I am praying that they will get the freedom they definetely deserve! mabuhay ang pakikibaka, mula pilipinas hanggang palestina! 🇵🇸🍉
tomorrow is the first day of june here in the Philippines. i am praying for the better things, may the universe will give the best for us. more blessings, love, happiness, peace, and achievements. i hope we will heal from the pain that we didn't speak of, from the heartaches, breakdowns, and suffering that we had to endure this year. hopefully, we can have the courage to forgive the people that we never expect to betray or hurt our souls. and also, may we forgive ourselves too after all we went though. a warmest, tight and long hug with consent for those people who suffer in silence, those who voiceless and for those who always trying their best to be better. everything's will be worth it at the end. just move forward, strive and trust yourself because God will do the rest!
to love is to be known; i want to be define by the things that i love.
it's creepy that i have experienced having a doppel ganger, it was happened earlier. one of my friend saw me at the front of my best friend's house around 8 pm even i'm already at my house since 6 pm. they're neighbors and she said that i was just standing while the door is closed. she's hesitant to call me that's why she continue to walk and just ignore me. i was with my best friend the whole day and we decided to bond while we're not still busy in school. creepy. i also had experience about this when i was a kid. this will be a second time?
and when the word is crumbling, hug can just temporary fix everything.
i am firmly believer that the things meant for us will eventually be ours. as what i've read in my book, “if it's for you, then trust that it will find you.”
at the end of the day, it's always been my best friend who saw all the version of myself and will always be there when clouds are getting heavier.
guys, how do you want to be remembered when you're gone? i'll gonna share mine, so share urs!
my fear of being unsuccessful is bigger than my fear of dying.
holding it all together, cause they always see me as the energetic, oa, pabebe and smiley friend but behind those things is just a girl who wants to hug someone and cry it all out.
i miss—i do really miss my crybaby
did u guys know the p-pop group 'Bini'? i'm sooo obsessed with them, i love those girlies and they make me feel the happiest girl in the world when i'm listening to their songs. it's soo comforting, specially the “huwag muna tayong umuwi” and “buhay ay di karera”. Bini deserves the hype and all the things that they have achieved. I hope those 8 girlies will shine more as the stars, i wanna see the best of they can. will be forever blooms and will always rooting for them. i'm proud for what they have! >.<
it's so cute having this platform where u can freely share whatever pops up in your mind, or whatever happened to your life even worst or best memories you had. i really love this platform, it makes me feel secured, seen and understood by people around here. the fact that i am comfortable and safe to share everything here, the more i don't want to leave. :))
AAAAAHHHH THE RECOGNITION IS FAST APPROACHING, I'M NOT EXPECTING ANYMORE TO BE WITH HIGH HONOR BUT ONE THING'S FOR SURE NAMAN IS MY NAME WILL BE PART OF HONORS LIST. MY GRADES ARE STABLE SINCE FIRST QUARTER AND I'M ALREADY SATISFIED FOR THAT. I DID MY BEST AND THAT'S ENOUGH. I'M EXCITED TO SEE MY MOM'S WIDE SMILE!!!
i can't help falling inlove with this one. i'm nbsb and i'm so confused if it's infatuation or love (TT)
goodluck for me, i'll take may exam this day and until tomorrow. i hope i can ace it!
hello, it's been a while. how was y'all? are u guys working well?? what happened to your journey? i'll share mine and u guys should share yours. let's exchange, i'll be glad to read your stories!
Life is really unfair. Hell, we are at the lowest point again. My mom is unemployed for almost 3 weeks. I even don't know how my family will survive and I can't imagine how my family survived almost 3 weeks without a provider. It's just a fight to survive. My mom is a single mother and I have 3 siblings, i'm the youngest one. It's hard, it's really hard to survive when you're poor. I'm always asking God, until when or how longer it will be? Are we born just to suffer?
It's sooo alarming, the DepEd declared that monday and tuesday will be asynchronous again. god, the heat index here in my city is 50° and we're not actually safe here. What the hell is happening in the world?!?! maybe, our mother earth was so disgusted.
I can't believe how unbothered I am. I have a contest in journalism on monday and i'm still not reviewing my papers knowing i need to study a lot of sports because I am a sports writer and it was a Regional contest where I'll represent my city. Hell no, I don't knowww what would happened in this journey (TT)
it's already 4 am and i'm still awake. my body clock is sooo frustrating, it's hard to continue my healthy routine ಥ‿ಥ
it's been a week, kumusta? how was ur life? are you okay physically and mentally? are u guys doing well? i hope so, but can you share what something happened to you this week? i mean, we all need someone who's always willing to listen in our everyday lives, so let's check each other. i wanna read the story of y'all!
With High Honor
I got my card from my adviser today, and I'm so happy because I made it again to be part of the honor students. Actually, it's not a surprise for me because I am consistent honor student since elementary. Last year, I graduated as grade 10 with a specific award in Science and with the title of “With High Honor” student. It's not my intent to brag or dragged anyone, people who only know my achievements are actually my family and circle of friends, even in socmed I never posted or myday what I have and achieve that's why this is just my safe place to share. I am just so proud to myself for achieving lots of academic achievement and keep pursuing my goals and wants. Now, I'm happy because my average increased to 94, compared to the last quarter that only 93 average. However, part of being a student is a bit disappointment for being “**almost**.” I know, I should be proud and happy but at the same time, bear with me because **almost will never be enough.** I just only need 1 point to become With High Honor, and it's one of the most painful things that students can ever be experience. To be 2nd in any competition, or almost to the end in every particular goal. It sucks because the fact that you can go to the finish line or just a little bit to make it, then at the end of the day, you didn't make it for the best. **But I'm forcing myself to believe that I did my best. Perhaps because this time, it wasn't meant for me and there are much better things to come.**
**This is my card, and still, I'm really really so proud for being the only one who got a 94 average. It's not the end. In his name, and if it's meant for me, this last quarter, I will step on the stage again with “High Honor” in my name**
This photo is edited by me. The lead image is from unsplash.com
omg, napabayaan ko nanaman ang aking home. huhu, i cannot the hectic sched. puro asynchronous ang classes and it was hard to adjust. just one day for face-to-face class? hell nooo, i'm missing my classmates so much 🥺🥺
@TAHANAN