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I Have Never Been In A Relationship and I Don't Want To

I am going to turn 20 next month on February and I am proud to say I have never been in a relationship. I still call myself young and even when I will be close to my 30s, I still don't want to imagine myself entering a relationship. My peers are already in a serious relationship today and I have told myself that I don't see anything special and something to celebrate about it. They say I am the kind of person who have a very high standards in selecting a person but I am not. They have wonder if has anyone already courted me and the answer is none. Nobody have ever tried to court me once and I think they are scared of me because some said I'm too smart to please. I am not smart, just a person who loves wide ideas and has big fascinations about different things. Maybe that sounds like I'm unfit for someone who is simple minded but no matter what, I don't see anything special towards entering relationships. Almost all my cousins are in a long time relationship today while here I am the long time single one. I have imagine myself to be an **old maiden** someday or maybe a **rich aunt** or a **sugar mommy**. That sounds funny to think all the time. I don't feel the longing to be inside the relationship and I don't think that is where we can find happiness because some said it's very happy. Yes I know that having someone who you can lean on is such a best feeling but does it only happen when you are inside a relationship status? No, it's not. Different happiness can be found in this world. I don't like to invest time on someone, the world is very uncertain and a lot of things are temporary. At this age of mine, I am fighting to have a **financial stability** one day and that is my biggest aim. I want to invest in something where one day my old self will be very thankful to my young self. I am not killing my youth either. I'm just being time-smart and that is why I don't want to be in a relationship because I want to focus to other things in life. There is more to life than committing to a relationship. If one day, a guy will proved to me that he is worth of my time, I will always give a opportunity. But now I see no one and that's a good thing because I don't have the energy to pay attention to someone's affection. This is just who I am. A person who loves to explore life, a person who have many dreams that seems unreachable, a person who wants to make the best out of this world. Even though I don't want to be in a relationship, I am very open for friendships. It is wonderful to make friends in this world, regardless your gender or life beliefs as long as you are not harming me, we can be good friends even for a long time. My own perspectives in life is **"live your life the way you want it"** and the way I am living my life is different from the others because I love to create beautiful memories with my family, friends, peers and even to trusted strangers. You see it's not about being in a relationship where you can create beautiful memories. If you go think beyond the box, you'll see that there's more you can experience and feel in this life. Let's learn to live and love. Being a single by choice is not bad and that doesn't make you feel less worthy of a person. You have to know that you don't find love by just committing into relationship, take the time to find beautiful things around you that can make you happy and feel loved in this world. So, telling people that I have never been in a relationship is such a thing I am proud to say because my standards in life is not about looking for someone to appreciate my existence. I don't need someone to tell me how worthy I am as a person because I know that by myself and the real people who loves me knows that too. **January 8, 2022**

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