Lips Of An Angel

I have my first love whom I can't forget for so many years from now. Even I am happily married already, I still remember her and I still see her on my dreams. It's been 15 years that passed by but I can still remember Jessica. Her smile, her laughter and every single details from her I can still remember it.

I met Jessica when I was still a teen. I was in my 4th year high school during that time. Jessica is a very beautiful and smart girl when I first saw her. In fact, I am embarrass everytime I see her walk on the hallway because it seems my world stops whenever I see her. I'm just a normal guy and I am dumb. I suck in almost all the subjects in high school. There was a time where I need a tutor but nobody in the class wants to volunteer except to a one girl in the class..she is Jessica.

Jessica approached me and offered me a free tutorial. She said she will teach me how to perfectly write in English. During that time, I am very embarrassed because I don't want her to see how bad I am in writing essays. At the same time, I don't want to refuse the offer. Everytime we have a tutorial sessions, I can't help but to stare at Jessica for so many times. Not only she is smart and beautiful, she is also very down to earth. Because of that, I fell in love to her way deeper. How I wish we could have a tutorial forever.

One of the most unforgettable memories I have with Jessica is when we went into the sea side. We were on top of the hills watching the whole view. I touch her hair. I can't hide my real feelings anymore. It seems like it's killing me all the time. Jessica looked at me and she smiled sweetly. I don't know why it feels different but I am starting to think she also like me. I don't want to assume. I cannot stop my feelings anymore so I told her about what I truly felt and Jessica even smiled wider. I feel so cold and embarrassed. She looked into my eyes and I did not expect what she would say next. She told me that she also feel the same way. She told me I am very kind and I am the prettiest guy she have ever met. She also told me that I am good in writing English essays as I have improved and I am not difficult to teach. During that time, I want to jump into the hills..not because I want to die but because I can't believe that's it's real and I want to make sure it's not only a dream.

Those are the beautiful memories I can remember with Jessica as the tears from my eyes are slowly falling. I am now happily married. I found a loving and caring wife by my side. We are already for ten years but I still can't forget Jessica. It is not that I am unfaithful to my wife but it is still that I still have something left for Jessica. We did not end up together because Jessica died in an accident. I thought I wouldn't be able to move on from that and that was the day of my life where I also felt that I had died.

But God is so good that he have given me my wife. Because of her I have slowly move on and forgotten Jessica. But God knows I still love her even my wife is already closer to perfections. I don't want to tell my wife about it because I don't want to hurt her.

Yes, I love my wife. But the love I felt for Jessica will always be different. It's a feeling that you only feel once in your lifetime. Our first love never dies in our minds, they stay in our hearts forever. It's sad to say that the person who gave you the best memories also becomes a memory.

Author's note: This story is inspired by the song of Hinder "Lips of An Angel." I am so inspired to write a story because of the song. I didn't expect this story would turn so sad. Even me I am hurt while writing this. As much as I want to write it in a happy ending, the song is very sad and painful.

June 13, 2022

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