I've strolled with the Lord for quite a long time, however he persistently challenges me in new manners!
One of the manners in which he showed himself to me was through my battle with gloom. Around three or four years prior, I experienced a period of extreme gloom that endured very nearly two years. I arrived at where I got myself not thinking about anything. I was totally emotionless about things I had once been ablaze for. I am exceptionally energetic about expressions of the human experience music specifically yet music not, at this point satisfied me the manner in which it used to.
About eighteen months in, I understood something. I was perched on the floor by my bed, and I understood I could murder myself. I could end it all. That idea scared me! I'd at no other time thought of killing myself, it was a misfortune that was unfamiliar to me. I was frightened that I may really end it all. I'd been so aloof about my life, imagine a scenario in which I no longer had my life.
I was shaking to and fro, imploring, shouting out to God, and I got my Bible. I discovered 2 Timothy 2:11-13, which says "On the off chance that we have kicked the bucket with him, we will likewise live with him; on the off chance that we suffer, we will likewise rule with him; in the event that we deny him, he will likewise deny us; in the event that we are irresolute, he stays loyal for he can't deny himself."
This section reformed my life! I understood that there was a highlight every one of my sufferings, and that sometime when I did, I could pass on with him and live with him in Heaven. I realized I needed to risk everything for him, I needed to give God everything. Also, I didn't need to be apprehensive. He has today, the present apprehensions and questions and torment, in his grasp, and he has tomorrow as well. I could confide in him.
