“Your head is too big”
“Your teeth are messed up”
“You have an ugly smile”
“Your nose is too flat”
“Your skin is too dark”
I grow up with people often telling me these so often that I once lost all my confidence.
I used to hate being photographed because I felt ugly. (This is a reason why I don’t have many pictures of myself when I was younger)
I hate seeing myself in a picture and watching myself in a video.
Even things get better since I grow more confident now but watching myself in a video is still very cringe for me.
It affects me a lot since I just started my YouTube channel and I’m forced to watch it.
I felt so jealous of people who have the physical appearance that fits the beauty standards.
I was jealous that they could live, laugh, and smile so freely.
They get to wear clothes they want, the same clothes I also want to wear but I wasn’t confident enough.
I was always wishing to become as pretty as them to live that lives until I came to realize that I would have to wait forever because I will never fit their standard of being pretty.
I don’t want to wait to wear the clothes I want.
I don’t want to keep my hair long when the weather is so hot so I can cover half of my face underneath it.
I no longer want to hide my smile....
I just want to live.
“And if I don't fit other people’s beauty standards, I'll become a new, different standard and just live my happiest live.”
If you’re reading this!!!
You’re very beautiful!!!!! You’re super duper cuteee!!! You’re pretty!!!!!!!
Can you read it?
YOU! Are! Pretty! Too!!!!