August 14, 2021 Saturday
Last day of July 2021, 19:03pm in the evening. My boyfriend was at work and we were chatting, I was asking for a picture of him but he said he was just chatting secretly because they were in briefing, then I didn't reply after I read his ladt message. It's been a few hours and days until now (I'm still waiting for his message or maybe he's waiting for me to message).
Is he angry or are we going to break up? (I ask myself). I opened his account and I read that he can roam with his close friends and he can do what he wants without even telling me. Maybe it's time for us to let go of each other no matter how much we love each other.
I have a lot to stories and tell you. Why are we like this? We were just happy then our relationship suddenly changed. Where am I lacking and I have also lost my job since last year 3rd week of March 2020 then we are like this and I am just at home, there is nothing to do but thinking of you, while you have a job that you are busy and close friends that you can be with but I can't to be with friends, I miss them too, the day I was with them even though they were tired, the fun continued..
I want to cry, I'm just holding back because I can endure if I let go of my emotions like before, I might go crazy because I'm so tired because my heart needs to understand everything that's happening to us.
As long as I know myself, I love him so much, I just don't know why he's like that, even if it hurts but I've given you a lot of chances. I did fool around and fool around and had no last chance.
Me:
I don't know if I angry with him or not?.
Who will be the first to give-up me or you?.
I will wait a few months before I break up and whether he will message me or not,
Hopefully you realize this before you lost all that regret the most painful thing you can experience in a lifetime to lost is the one who truly loves you.
"If you left me without a REASON, Do not come back with an Excuse".
I understand the pain you are going through. I think that you should have a talk with your partner instead of overthinking about it, if you can't talk to your partner or she/he won't talk to you, I guess that is better for you to leave him/her, I know that what I am saying is hard, but please, don't hurt yourself anymore, we humans should live in peace and happiness. I hope that you get better.