A note for myself

Wow. Grabe, sa tagal ng lockdown andami mong oras para magisip. And I just realize how strong you are. Im kinda curious how long can you be strong? how long can you handle all those pain huh? All this time you felt so worthless, useless and unlovable yet you stand tall in front of those people who cause you so much pain. I mean just how? how can you hide that pain deep inside you for such a long time? how will you manage to keep it there? Until when? When you are broken enough? Why just don't end all your sufferings here. So you can take a rest too.