Relax, Rethink & Re-strategize

I had so much on my hands and head while I was looking for a document, I had to pay attention as well to what was on fire. I was trying to heat the food from last night and while I was so focused on locating this piece of paper that had important information my food began to burn.

With anger and disappointment, I quickly rushed to turn it off. I had other things to heat up but I decided to keep searching. I turned my whole room upside down that day. Searched in my books yet couldn't find it, searched my bags still nothing was there.

I heard a knock on the door and I hesitated in knowing who it was until I heard the third knock. I quickly pulled my curtain to look through my window. There he was standing, my neighbor who always love to come around and give me some gist. I wasn't just in the mood because what I was searching for was more important than any gist I could get, so I didn't open up then he left. I ran through the books again yet nothing. I was pressed and was supposed to ease myself but I preferred to continue the search until I find what I was looking for.

A few minutes later, I got a call from an old friend and the conversation was short and straight to the point. We used to have longer conversations where most times we talk about past experiences, people we both know, how life has been treating us so far, what plans we've already started achieving, and many more. She asked me if I was ok because she could tell from my voice that I wasn't okay. I told her I was fine and that I was busy so I would call her back later so we could talk better.

I was already on the verge of breaking down in tears. I prayed that the document just comes out from its hiding place so I can see it. That didn't solve the case either. My stomach began to rumble. I haven't eaten anything good since yesterday so at least today, this morning, I am meant to eat something especially because I'm going out today but I didn't care because I was too focused on finding the document. My room was already in a mess.

This isn't just the first time. I've had cases where I search for something only for that thing to be staring me in the eyes. It's right in my face but I just didn't realize. Would only realize after I'm done turning the room upside down. Sometimes I could go back to those places I've searched before then I find it. I was wishing that this was one of the cases but it wasn't. This one was different and what made it different was the fact that I didn't give myself some time. Like, to stop looking, relax, take some break and then come back and look again.

I was already running late to the meeting and I was going to submit that paper at the meeting so I just needed to find it. It started to become frustrating. I was already sweating from the whole stress. I had just 30 mins left to be done so I can start leaving for my meeting as I was almost ready.

As I saw that time was no longer on my side, I decided to sit and think. What I should have done since, which would have given me enough time to eat. I began to ask myself where I last placed the document. I remembered placing it in my bag after it was stamped and signed on. But it was still not in my bag. I decided to rethink again.

This time around, I tried to remember every event that occurred from the beginning of that day. I talked myself into calming down. I remembered going to get the document. I remembered submitting it during the meeting. I remembered my name being called after it was signed and stamped on. I placed it in my bag, which I remember vividly and after that, I went blank. I tried again and then I remembered that I escorted my friends to make a copy of theirs and I remembered giving my friend mine to help me photocopy alongside hers. But I don't remember taking that document including the photocopy. Boom!!!  That was it...

I quickly called my friend and she confirmed she was with the original and photocopy and that I left before she was done helping me out with the photocopy. So I pleaded that she bring them along with her while coming for the meeting. I was too occupied that day I gave her my document to photocopy for me. I totally forgot that I didn't bring it home. I thought I brought it home like I do every other day when I collect the document.

Sometimes nothing can be achieved in the heat of the moment. Sometimes what we need to do is take a chill pill, relax and calm our nerves. Do something else to distract you and then come back again to continue the search or you relax and have a rethink to know what exactly is missing. Sometimes if we keep getting the same result by doing the same thing, following the same method, we may not really get what we're looking for. All we have to do is restrategize. This is how life works.

Thank you for reading my post today. Have a wonderful day.

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