At the start it was them who had plans and high expectations,
I guess it's a thing that's passed down through generations,
As my folks told me their parents did the very same thing,
So a weght feels it's on my shoulders
as this is happening.
The more they force me down a path the less I want to go,
The greater the anticipation the more my anxiety starts to show,
I begin to form my own wants and wishes based on this,
Keep exerting myself in some parts or others I gladly miss.
Their plan hardly fluctuates but mine is starting to form,
I've created my own fluctuating mind map like I terraform
What's there to something far more habitable to my spirit,
Then wade right into the depths to navigate each bit.
It's a mind map of confusion and now it's taking shape,
I'm leaving some parts behind as they stand alarmingly agape
Wondering what's got into me, why am I acting differently?
But those things were never who I am they just aren't me.
As I grow older I keep adding new items and removing old,
Mapping a path to a future that seems less frightening and cold,
Reshaped and redesigned to fit my emerging personality,
I'm still tempted to think big as we all deserve expectancy.
Then I'm older still working towards some of those goals,
I thought the plan would get smaller full of bigger holes
As I crossed things off a list thinking new ones come less,
But I'm wrong in that assumption as I grow in my awareness.
I want more than ever to try new things or experiences,
To gain a better understanding satiate my demanding senses,
Be more, see more, get more these
demands on oneself grow,
I'm never happy sitting idle if there are new seeds I could sow.
Life goes on and I tried not to map out my own child's path,
Sure I want the best for them but I want to see them laugh,
I encourage them to build their own map to forge ahead,
Show me where their heading and help work on that instead.
When they're grown I'm still working towards my aspirations,
I love tying up the loose ends and tackling new variations,
Now more than ever I seem to have the time to choose,
I have more clarity and determination less able to confuse.
I'm on my path mapped out in my mind and it ever changes,
But I'm dogged in my approach no matter if it rearranges,
And I love trying new concepts or honing skills in others,
I guess my spirit cries out too for learning from my brothers.
There is never a time you should feel you have it all mapped,
For many times you'll add parts or others may get scrapped,
Life is a constant movement and the soul demands fulfillment,
In ever hard effort to better ourselves precious time will be spent.
Keep drawing or mapping fresh ideas and be encouraged too,
It's what those who want to succeed and stay driven will do,
We grow and learn from others but our own roads are unique,
Keep your mind map in focus and find ways to get all you seek.