@SerayahSnow

@SerayahSnow 2 November 2021

"An Open Letter for my late Father " **Good evening dear reader's since today is all souls day I'm inspired to write a letter for my late father as a tribute to him...** *My dearest Father,* *How I wish your still here.. It's been 12 years since you left us.I remember those days how much I shed tears longing for you. I wish your here so that I can hug you and kissed you.Oh how I wish your here now and telling you how much I love you* *Not a day goes by when I don’t imagine what life would be like had you not died.*  *where you’re present and sharing in the happy moments with us.I know your proud of my achievements in life. And feels sad whenever I had my tough times in life. I wanted to cry in your arms and tell you all my struggles and my frustration in life.* *Ohh how I really wish your here sitting beside me and talking about life.I know your trying to extend more patience to us whenever we are hard headed and I am really sorry for that.* *Ohh how I really wish that you were there in my wedding day.I always think how it feel's like dancing with you in my special day.But I know your happy now seeing me having my own family.* *Oh how I wish your here to play with your grandson and your granddaughter. They brought so much happiness to us since the day they came in our life.When they grew up I will tell them how a good father you are to us and share with them all of our good memories with you.* *Thank you so much dad for being a good father to us.Thank you for all of your hardship and sacrifices to give us shelter and food to eat...I know how much you love us. I know you've been wanting to give us a good life you've been wanting to earn a lot of money to support our education and our needs.* *Whenever I saw you in my dream it's seems that your so a live.I'm happy seeing you in my dream at the same time I felt sad knowing that it's just only a dream.* *We know were ever you are now you are proud of us. I still cry sometimes, but it’s easier to now laugh and smile at the memories that we had.* *I know time will come that we will be reunited again.I've always have hope to see you again in the next life.I thank God for having you as my biological father.* *Lovingly yours*, *Your Daughter* **Our life here on earth is just a temporary we may come and go. Always show your love to your parents,they might not be perfect in different aspects,but I know they've always wanted to give us a good life.** Thank you for reading and happy all souls day!!!

@SerayahSnow 1 November 2021

"When Laziness strikes" Hello dear reader's today I want to discuss about my laziness.I got this idea when I read @JonicaBradley articles about prompt.. And if you haven't read about her prompt ideas just click it here. **Photo source:Unsplash** *Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired.* Jules Renard https://www.brainyquote.com/authors/jules-renard-quotes I know some of us would agree that no matter how hardworking we are, we are tempt to get lazy sounds funny right? LOL!!!.Or is it embarrassing? But what's behind of our laziness? When I was in my childhood I often hear this word from my eldest siblings your so lazy.. or even coming from my mother murmuring to my siblings including me.. "Mga tapulan jud mo"in Cebuano dialect...some of the reason why my mother called us lazy is when... She used to ask me to buy something in the store and I refuse to obey it because the store is very far away from our house you need to take a long walk before you arrive to the store.I think it's 1 and half kilometer going to the store and you have to walk it back and forth. We live in the province and before there's no near store in our house and that's also the main reason why my mother made a small sari-sari store in our house. Before when she ask me to buy something... I often pass it to my younger sibling in return of giving them 1 peso haha.. **Photo source:Unsplash** During my childhood in my elementary day's I always skip taking a bath..if you're wondering why?.Its because we don't have a faucet in our house so we need to go to the spring in order to freshen up.And we also have to go there to pitch some water for us to drink and it's very far from our house.We need to go down going there and go up when we went home... so I guess you can imagine our place..when I say going down and going up? **Photo source:Unsplash** I used to be lazy in doing assignments specifically in math subject during my highschool days.I really hate numbers and memorizing some equation in Math.And as a result of that laziness I need to get up early just to go to school very early to copy assignment from our dear generous and brilliant classmates in math..Take note I'm not the only one doing it haha.. most of my classmates were doing it. I remember when I was in my 4th grade in highschool..every tuesday our teacher has to give as an assignment to be passed on thursday..Because we have this schedule of TTH in our math subject and we have to drop our assignment in the assignment box before our flag ceremony. I graduated in a public school Dr.Cecilio Putong National Highschool in our city. Because of many students studying there they have to scheduled our flag ceremony.. Monday is for 1st year, Tuesday is for 2nd year, Wednesday is for 3rd year,Thursday is for 4th year and Friday is for the girls scouts and boy scouts.And that was the arrangement of our flag ceremony...I was a girls scout before so I had to attend 2 flag ceremony in a week.. But despite of hating math subject I still love computing numbers like,addition,substraction and multiplication and analyzing some problems in math..thats why I take financial management in college, I just don't like those X and Y's..haha.. **Photo source:Unsplash** I felt lazy when some of my friends called me for a Window shopping... I don't like going to a mall roaming around and just have a window shopping.. I'm not into that.. If others are having fun with that...well for me it's a just a waste of time. **Photo source:Unsplash** I like washing clothes but I don't like hanging clothes specially putting clothes in the hanger... I felt tired doing on it.. Instead..my husband does it for me when he is in a good mood. **Photo source:Unsplash** Sometimes I got lazy in Cleaning and doing household chores.Speacially now that I have to take care of my 2 kids a toddler and a baby.. I got lazy when I'm tired taking care of them and I don't have enough time to do the household chores..because when they sleep that's the only time to give my me time.. having a relaxing moment.But most of the time when they are at sleep that's the only time for me to do some household chores.. **Photo source:Unsplash** There's so many ways that we can say that we are lazy! How about you what are your lazy moments? Comment it down This has been a PromptlyJonica writing prompt. If you would like to join, *****the rules***** are simple: Write anything about **laziness** Write **100% original** content **Join and submit** your story to **PromptlyJonica** https://read.cash/@JonicaBradley/writing-prompt-20-food-46d50a1e#bad-link **Tag** me: @JonicaBradley https://read.cash/@JonicaBradley **Have fun!** Thank you for reading God Bless!!!

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@SerayahSnow 30 October 2021

"The Heart says what it wants "Part 2 Here's the part 2 of "The Hearts says what it wants " Enjoy reading!!! "Umuwi ako sa atin at pinuntahan kita sa bahay nyo at nag tanong tanong ako tungkol sayo.. I even ask your number sa kapatid mo.I tried my best to contact you using those number na binigay ng kapatid mo...Pero hindi kita ma contact " There's a saying na "Love is sweeter the second time around" but in our case wala nang second chance malabo nang mangyari kasi sya yung unang nagbitaw sa pangako namin. Sabi nila pag mahal mo ang isang tao lahat gagawin mo para sa kanya.. LOL..Oo mahal ko sya pero ayaw ko nang magpakatanga. Well aaminin ko that I feel the unbearable pain that time na nakita ko na kinasal sila ulit ng wife nya. My heart burst out..I cried and cried..and I just let my emotions goes that way to ease that pain in my heart.Almost 5 years na kaming naghiwalay that time but it seems like its just happened yesterday.How come He could easily forgot our 3 years,our relationship may not perfect just like the others but we are happy and we have a lot of memories that I could not easily forget.But seeing him not affected much about our past really hurts me. Naalala ko yung sinabi ng Tita ko na...*kahit gaano pa kayo ka tagal ng boyfriend mo..kahit masasabi mo na kampanti na kayo sa isat isa dadating at dadating yung panahon na mapapagod kayong mahalin ang isat-isa at darating sa puntong maghihiwalay din kayo unless pinaglalaban nyo ang isat-isa magiging kayo parin. Kami nga ng ex ko 10 yrs na naging kami pero hindi parin kami nagkatuluyan dahil pareho kaming bumitaw at napapagod mahalin ang isat-isa.* Ipinaglaban ko naman yung pagmamahal ko sa kanya noon.. Ilang beses akong umasa sa sinabi nya sa akin na uuwi sya sa amin at pag uusapan namin yung tungkol sa relasyon namin.Sinabi nya pang darating sya sa birthday ko.. and that was way back 2013 before I decided to block him in my facebook and messenger.We didn't have a formal break up and a closure. At dahil nga gusto ko na syang makalimutan.I enter into a relationship without feelings parang ginamit ko lang yung naging boyfriend ko nung time na yun para makalimutan sya. I pretended to be happy with my new but deep inside I'm still hurt. One time nagkayayaan kami ng workmate ko na girl na mag inuman.May buwanang dalaw kasi sya nun at gusto nyang makalabas ng maayos yung dalaw nya para hindi na sumasakit yung puson nya.Bumili sya ng Isang Red horse na malaki.Pero ang ending ako lang din ang mag isang nag ubos nun,Dahil niyaya sya ng date ng boyfriend nya.Ang daya Daya talaga sabi nya hintayin ko daw sya...at dahil hindi na ako makapag antay sa kanya inubos ko na yung isang bote.Sa boarding house lang din kasi kami namin nun kaya kampanti ako na ubusin yung red horse ganun ako ka desperadang makalimot sa sakit na nararamdaman ko.Pero nagkamali ako.. tumawag yung boyfriend ko that time at doon ko binuhos lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman ko sa ex ko. I decided to break up my new boyfriend just to find myself.Napaka unfair din naman sa kanya kung seryoso sya sa akin at ako hindi. Months had passed nasasabi ko na medyo ok na ulit ako.I meet a guy who caught my heart his not that really good looking at but what I like him most is his God-fearing plus point na din yung talents nya sa music and arts he played a guitar very well and it caught my attention to him.. We became best friends until dumating yung time na nanligaw nga sya sa akin. Naging kami and our relationship goes well.But of course we've been through a lot of challenges and still we overcome it. Until we decided to get married in year 2019.But before we've got engaged.I decided to have a closure to my ex boyfriend. It doesn't matter if we don't have a formal break up,what matters to me that time is to have a closure with him and to let go of my past,wait what? Yes a closure! I just want to confirm my feelings to him before committing into a serious decision to get married with my boy friend. One time I had a facebook live and I caught my ex watching it and he even commented my live.So i had a chance to communicate him again.Nag message ako sa Kanya at nangamusta sa kanya.And our conversation went so well. Hanggang sa enopen nya yung past namin at nag sorry sya.. Habang nagrereply ako sa Kanya malakas na malakas ang kabog ng dib dib ko.. "Gash ito na siguro yung chance na magkaroon kami ng closure..I said it to myself na parang mangiyak ngiyak. Nagulat pa ako nung hiningi nya yung number ko at sabi nya gusto nyang mkipag usap sa akin sa personal.Kumabog na naman yung dib dib ko ang lakas talaga!... yung feeling na hindi mo maiintindihan.. Sabi ko' okay kailan mo gusto? Sabi naman nya "bukas magkita tayo sa...Sm gusto ko sana ngayon kaso andito pa ako sa burol ng tita ko." Laking gulat ko talaga nung sinabi nyang nakaburol yung tita nya Napalapit na din kasi sa akin yung tita nya doon kasi dati nakitira yung ex ko sa kanila at minsan dinadala nya ako sa bahay ng tita nya. Habang nakatingin ako sa salamin bakas sa mukha ko yung pag alala ko kung ano kayang isu-soot ko pag magkikita kami at kung anong magiging hitsura ko.Ofcourse gusto kung magmukhang maganda pagmakita nya ako.Agad kong inayos ang sarili ko..Halatang pinaghandaan yung pagkikita haha.. I wear crop top na pink with skirt na black sakto lang din sa hugis ng katawan ko.Naglagay ako ng kunting makeup at lipstick at syempre di mawawala yung kilay is life haha..at nka sandal na may kunting heel. Habang papasok ako dun sa sinabi nyang lugar kung Saan kami magkikita kinakabahan talaga ako. After 5 years magkikita na ulit kami.Kinalma ko muna ang sarili ko bago ko pinuntahan yung lugar na sinabi nya.Hindi kasi kami sa loob Ng Sm nagkita he change his mind baka daw Kasi may makakita sa amin na kakilala ng asawa nya malalagot sya sa bruha nyang asawa..Awh bruha? joke lang.. kaya yun dun kami ngkita kung Saan nag work ang ate nya...somewhere malapit lang din sa SM may lugar kasi doon na pwede kaming makapag usap ng maayos. Habang paakyat ako sa escalator nkatanggap ako ng tawag nya... Sinalubong nya agad ako ng isang napakalaking ngiti at ng shake hands sya sa akin. Looking awkward ganito pala yung feeling.!! "You look great mas lalo kang gumanda ngayon at di parin ng bago yung katawan mo at sexy parin"My heart melts pagkasabi nya nun sa akin..Sya din naman Gwapo parin pero malayong malayo na sa dating sya.. medyo tumaba na sya ngayon at desenti na rin sya manamit. Pero kahit ano naman isoot ng mokong nato bagay parin sa kanya."Of course maganda naman talaga ako at pinaghandaan ko talaga tong araw nato" sabi ko sa sarili ko na nakangiti.At nawawala na naman ako saglit sa sarili ko habang nakatitig sa kanya. Hindi ako yung tipo ng babae na maputi na kinagigiliwan ng mga kalalakihan morena ang skin ko,may matangos na ilong at may mahaba at itim na buhok at medyo curly.Di rin ako gaanong matangkad 5'2 lng kasi ang height ko di yata ng mana sa father ko na may tangkad na 6 flat yung mga kapatid kung lalaki lahat sila matatangkad. At syempre yung ganda kong to ng mana sa papa at mama ko.. haha..well di naman sa kagandahan talaga yung sakto lang din na mapapasyal kahit saan haha.. Hindi ko na matandaan kung anong pangalan dun sa workplace ng ate nya.Pero isa syang private VideoK bar na may mga rooms kung gusto mong kumunta ng naka private room kayo.kumuha sya ng isang room para doon kami mag usap.Manager pala yung ate nya doon hindi kami masyadong close ng ate nya bihira lang kasi kami magkita ng ate nya nun.Yung bunsong kapatid lang kasi nya yung close sa akin. Pero nung makita ako ng ate nya narecognize nya agad ako at ngumiti sya sa akin at kinumusta nya ako. Alam na ng ate nya na mag uusap kami ng kapatid nya.. Nung nasa room na kami inalok pa ako ng ex ko na pakantahin nya ako gusto daw nya marinig ulit yung boses ko.Pero tinanggihan ko sabi ko mag usap muna kami.Pareho kaming halatang na awkward sa isat isa. And then suddenly we started our conversation. "I'm really sorry sa lahat nang nagawa ko sayo noon I've regret nong iniwan kita,pero huli na.. umuwi ako sa atin at pinuntahan kita sa bahay nyo at nagtanong tanong ako tungkol sayo..I even ask your number sa kapatid mo.I tried my best to contact you using those number na binigay ng kapatid mo.. Pero hindi kita ma contact ..Sinabi nya yun nang may namomoong luha sa mata na halatang pinipigilan nyang umiyak. All these years na a alala parin kita...Andy at sabik na makita ka kaya lang naunahan ako ng takot at kaba... twing nagbabakasyon ako sa amin lagi akong nagtatanong sa kapatid mo tungkol sayo. Mula noong bi na block mo ako sa facebook at messenger nawalan ako ng pag asang makausap ka ang bigat sa pakiramdam na hindi ko na ipaliwanag sayo kung bakit bigla nalang naging ganon ang nangyari sa atin.Pero kasalanan ko din kung bakit ang bilis kitang sinuku-an sa mga panahong yun.Pilit kitang kinalimutan pero kahit ganun paman lagi parin kitang na alala...Paliwanag nya habang umiiyak.. .....Nagulat ako nung binalita sa akin ng ate ko na kinasal kana Drew...I cried a lot I even want to end myself that time pero iniisip ko na lang yung family ko. Ang tagal din bago ko nasabing naka pag move on na ako sayo.. Pero kung kailan ulit nakapagmove on na ako at medyo ok na ako sa atin dun ka naman nagsimulang nagparamdam sa akin at nagsimula na naman akong balikan ang nakaraan natin na pilit kong binaon sa limot.Pero huli na din naman ang lahat dahil may asawa ka na. "Malumanay kong pagkasabi sa kanya na umiiyak na rin " Nagtatrabaho ako nun as an assistant chief sa restaurant sa Ayala at regular na customer namin yung asawa ko at pamilya nya.Naging malapit ako sa kanya at di nagtagal naging kami.. "Sagot nya sa akin na mayhalong pagmamalaki sa asawa nya....Ouchh medyo nasaktan ako sa part na yun.. Sinabi ko narin sa kanya na matagal ko na syang pinatawad pero hihintay ko talaga ang pagkakataon na to'para magkausap kami at magkaroon ng closure. Nabanggit ko na din sa kanya na my boyfriend na ako at matagal na kami at mayplano na ring magpakasal.. Masaya sya para sa akin. Marami pa kaming pinag uusapan at nagkapatawaran na kami..Pagkatapos ng usapan namin lumabas sya saglit pagbalik nya kasama nya ang ate at mga pinsan nya na di ko pa na meet noon at bibit ang isang case ng beer na maliliit... Nag usap kami saglit ng ate nya ng bigla kong narinig na kumunta sya..... One day I may find true love that will last forever and ever Till then I'll spend a lifetime wishing us together I never thought she'd say goodbye And I'll never understand the reason why Heart of mine How will you keep from dying Stop reministing Who is she kissing Heart of mine Oh what's the use in trying No one can mend you know Oh love plays cruel games I can't believe she'd found another to love her Does she miss me? Sometime I just can't help but wonder If I could stop the hands of time Then I'd know she'd always be forever mine Heart of Mine ang title ng kinanta nya by Bobby Caldwell.. Ito ang isa sa na mi miss ko sa kanya yung pagkahilig nya sa musika..lagi nya akong kinakantahan noon.. Subrang sakit ng lyrics ng kantang to tagos sa puso..nanadya yata tong mokong nato.. Pagkatapos nyang kumunta binigay nya sa akin ang microphone para ako naman kumanta...pero tinanggihan ko.. sabi ko hindi na.. aalis na rin naman ako dahil may pupuntahan pa ako..Sabi nya mag dinner muna kami kasama kapatid nya at mga pinsan nya.. Pero di nya talaga ako na kumbensi.I feel awkward kasi na makasama sya at mga pinsan nya na diko naman close..Kaya hinatid nya nalang ako sa labas ng VideOk bar at nagpaalam na kami sa isat isa. "I hope this is not the last time na magkita tayo.. I hope we can be friends despite sa mga nangyari"Sabi nya sa akin at tumango tango lang ako..habang nka ngiti sa kanya... Pagkatapos ng eksenang yun sa amin para akong nabunutan ng tinik sa dibdib na matagal ko ng kinikimkim..Sa wakas I can totally say na nakapag move on na talaga ako sa kanya..Hindi ko maintidihan ang sayang nararamdaman ko that time pagkatapos naming mag usap.. Totoo talaga ang sinabi nila na kapag napatawad mo na ang taong nanakit sayo at natoto kang magpatawad sa sarili mo..Yun ang totoong nakapagmove on!At doon muna mahanap ang tunay na kasiyahan sa puso mo.. Past may never be forgotten but it's serve as a reminder for us to be strong... to keep moving with faith and hope and without our past we can never be learn.. Moving on may takes time to fully healed our broken heart.. Don't enter into a relationship without forgiving your past it might cause you trouble.And don't compare your previous relationship to your current it might confused your feelings towards your current relationship. Hello dear readers that's the end of "The Heart says what it wants"Part 2 I hope you like it and learn a lesson as well. Thank you for reading!!!

@SerayahSnow 28 October 2021

"The Hearts says What it wants" Part 1 Nasa library ako nung biglang nag ring ang phone ko at pagtingin ko mukha nya agad ang bumungad sa akin. I was a little bit nervous that time at nagtatalo din ang isip ko kung sasagutin ko ba or hindi and then suddenly I ended up talking to him. It's been years since nawala yung communication namin ng ex boyfriend ko.. He ended our relationship without any explanation.. didn't I deserve an explanation?He just left me hanging..without saying anything.. It was year 2013 when I caught him cheating.As I remember anniversary namin nung time na yun 3rd anniversary.. I'm expecting a call or text coming from him that day pero wala.. Nag text ako sa Kanya ng Happy 3rd Anniversary pero walang reply galing sa kanya.. I called him pero out of coverage sya.. Until I found out that his profile pic in his facebook account was change yung dating kaming dalawa ang nasa profile pic nya pinalitan nya nang solo pic at pati status nya naging single na..from in a relationship to single.. Sunod kong tiningnan ang timeline nya and then I saw him with the other girl... at kung tutu usin mas maganda pa nga ako sa babaeng kasama nya.. Pero subrang sakit lang talaga yung ina akala mong sya na ang the one.. Ay nakahanap na ng iba ganun lang kadali para sa kanya yun.. LDR kami sa mga panahong yun kaya siguro bigla syang nanlamig sa akin pero ang unfair naman dahil wala man lang syang pasabi.. Dumating yung point na nag stalk ako sa account ng girl na kasama nya and I found out na may dalawa na palang anak yung babae.. I cried a lot..knowing the fact that he left me just because of that girl at may anak pa.. ano bang mayron sa kanya na wala sa akin.. Sa subrang pagmamahal ko sa kanya wala ng natira para sa sarili ko.. I block him on my facebook account..Para makapag move on ako sa kanya.but suddenly my sister ask kung alam ko na ba na ikinasal na yung ex ko.. I unblocked him para makita ko kung totoo nga ang sinabi ng sister ko.. And it was confirmed married na nga sya sa huwis.. Pero nagulat ako yung naging girl friend nya na pinalit nya sa akin ay hindi yung pinakasalan nya.. It was Dec. 2014 Nung kinasal sila ng wife nya.. Mukhang matanda pa sa kanya yung wife nya.. I was wondering kung bakit.. Ako naman yung pinapangakuhan nya dati ng kasal.. pero bakit sa iba sya nagpakasal. I tried my very best na makalimutan sya.. pero hindi ko magawa..Everytime I heard those favorite songs of him..naiisip ko sya at pilit kong binabalikan ang mga masasayang ala ala namin.. At kung kailan gusto ko nang mag move on sa kanya bigla na naman syang magpaparamdam sa akin.. I know it's impossible na maging kami ulit dahil kasal na sya. Hindi rin naman ako papayag na maging kabit nya.. Nasa libray ako nung biglang nag ring ang phone ko at pagtingin ko mukha nya agad yung bumungad sa akin.I was a little bit nervous that time at nagtatalo din ang isip ko kung sasagutin ko ba or hindi and then suddenly I ended up talking to him. Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman that time galit ba or kilig or should I ask him closure this time..wala kasi kaming closure nung time na nag break kami. Pero hindi ko magawa.. Instead I just look at his lovely face hindi parin sya nagbabago ang gwapo parin nya.. Yung killer smile nya walang kupas .Hindi ko na narinig kong anong sinabi nya that time nakatulala lang kasi ako sa kanya.At nang matauhan na ako sabi ko "Malalagot ka talaga sa asawa mo" at ang sabi nya.. Hindi naman nya malalaman.. And that was the start of our communication again.. Nagsisimula na naman syang mag comment at nangangamusta sa akin. Even though may communication na kami ulit wala parin kaming closure hindi namin napag uusapan ang tungkol sa nakaraan namin.. Alam din nya naman na may boyfriend na ako pero hindi nga lang seryoso gaya ng sa amin noon.. Pero ayaw ko parin saktan ang boyfriend ko dahil sya din naman ang naging dahilan kung bakit ko unti unting nakalimutan yung ex ko.. Pero yung feeling na gusto mong mag move on pero sa twing mag comment at mag message sya sa akin kinikilig ako.. I know hindi tama ang nararamdaman ko..kaya pilit kong dinidisiplina ang puso ko..Nakakainis yung ganito na e inlove ka sa maling tao pa.I admit all those years I still love him.. Nasasaktan ako sa twing nakikita ko na masaya silang magkasama ng wife nya.. Until I decided not to response whenever na mag message ulit sya sa akin.. I will never stalk him in social media.Months and year had pass pero di parin ako makapag move on sa kanya.. Wla na ulit kaming communication..until Year 2018 nakita ko yung my day ng kapatid nya na subrang close sa akin.. Nag my day lang naman sya sa araw ng kasal ulit ng kuya nya.. Yes...you read it right kinasal sya not just once but twice first sa huwis.. ngayon sa simbahan na.. I wanted to cry that time pero pinipigilan ko dahil kasama ko ang mga kaibigan ko.Nag comment pa nga ako sa post ng kapatid nya.. ng congrats.. I really need to move on na talaga.. I've always prayed na sana mawala na yung dating sugat na iniwan nya na sana tuluyan na itong maghilom. To be continued : Thank you for reading..I'd love to read your comments about this article I hope abangan nyo ang Part 2.