Gratefulness in the midst of betrayal

Have you ever felt betrayed by your friends, family and work? If you are, then you must have been in such pain that you were unable to fully live your life or do your work effectively. However, the gravity of pain differs from person to person, the journey of the person and the reason of the action.

I have been in one of those time when I felt I have been betrayed by my friends. Those so called friends whom I trusted for many years. I have shared to them my highlights and lowlights in life. But little did I know that those victories and defeats were the source of their talks. When I found out from someone about their actions, I was speechless. Honestly, I don’t know how to react. I was angry and hurt. Extremely hurt. I was thinking of distancing myself from them by studying or working outside the country. I was apply for international scholarship and work abroad. I was desperate. But after days of waiting and thinking, God made me realize that He allows things to happen simply because He has a reason. My thoughts revolved around that inspiration and I came to the conclusion that I am whom God created I am. I knew that those decisions that I have made were affirmed by God. So I don’t have to defend it to others but trust Him who is faithful. I have forgiven them but I still feel hurt whenever I remember those painful words. Another lesson I have learned that the best and worst part of our body is our tongue. It can, at the same time, utter a blessing and a curse. So I have to be mindful of what I say and how to say it.

However, another trial came that made me see betrayal at a different angle. This time, I was the one who betrayed God’s trust. I personally believed that God is faithful in providing for my needs. But not until recently. I was anxious of the thought of not being able to pay the bills on time so I took this matter on my own hands. I joined one online platform, borrowed money, and invested it in that platform. In my mind, “Yes, I’m gonna be rich!”. But after 6 days, I was scammed. I was scammed! I thought that I would never be one of those people who were scammed but I did! I cried. Every time that I think about it, I would cry.

Oh dear self! How foolish of you!

Frustrated by myself, I went to ask God for help. I went knowing that I don’t deserve His mercy, comfort and help. And God made me realized through His Word that I was unable to trust Him in this matter. But you see, God is truly loving and merciful. He is our Abba Father who disciplines His children. I never like disciplines but as long it glorifies God, so be it. I acknowledged my mistake before God and faced the consequences of my actions and payed my debt.

Life Lesson

• Our tongue is the best and worst part of our body.

• Forgiveness doesn’t mean that we have to forget what they have done but through time we will be able to process it, be healed from it and fully forget about it.

• We can be forgiven from our mistakes but we are not free to face the consequences.

• In all things acknowledged God’s sovereign Will.

It was not an easy journey but I was grateful to God because He help me realized my mistakes and learn from it.

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