This is something that you have to understand, no matter how painful, no matter how unfair, no matter how much it would kill you. You can’t keep lying to yourself that it will get better because it won't, you can’t convince yourself that he will change, because he won’t, not for you.
You can’t cry yourself to sleep every night hoping that tomorrow you’ll wake up with his soft kisses, or a loving hug, or a whisper of love and apology because he will never do that, he’s probably on a deep slumber of negligence while you are slowly breaking beside him. He’s probably inside the comfort of “IDGAF”
You can’t keep asking yourself why you were never good enough, because you are more than enough, he is just too fucking blunt to see that, he is so full of himself he thinks he’s out of your league, he thinks that you can never find someone better than him, but you will, you have to believe that he is not the one for you, he is just a conceited son of a — who likes to use your feelings to his advantage. He is an absolute prick who needs to be rattled out of his glorified ego.
You have to get out of his prison, You have to break away from his mendacious abuse because you don’t deserve any of that. You are a beautiful creation, you can’t see yourself as a woman who can’t live without him in your life, he sees you as a worthless and expendable possession because you let him think of you that way, but you are not.
The lies, the deceits, the manipulations; it’s going to happen over and over and over again, until your heart runs out of love to give, until every piece of you screams hate and regret until, there is nothing more to live for, don’t ever let that happen. Don’t ever let this lying-inconsiderate-jerk take your life, destroy it and throw it away. I don’t want you to wake up one day feeling sorry for yourself, because you wasted your entire life loving the wrong person, and you can never take it back, you are going to be so empty because you gave him everything you have and it’s not going to be easy to start over and move on with all the loathing and remorse restrained for so long.
This is going to hurt like hell. It’s not going to be facile. It’s going to take a lot of valor to get through something like this. But you have to try, you have to learn how to quit something that will never ever work, like ever.
Look at yourself in the mirror, C’mon, do it. What do you see? What do you really see? Are you happy? Can you really smile without faking it? Can you really live like this for the rest of your life? If you can lie to yourself and endure this screwed-up romance, then you have to live with your choice, you have to be stronger, love harder and maybe, in the most compelling possibility, he’ll definitely learn how to change and see you as the wonderful woman that you truly are.
But if you cannot put up with it anymore, look at yourself again, and remember this; You are worth it. You’ve always been.