Regret may be present in the deepest heart, but at least we have tried to be the best

• Did today feel so tiring? Or is there a story that is hard to tell?

There's nothing wrong with holding it in; However, if it feels so stifling, let's share stories so that the feeling becomes more relieved. Yes, at least even if only temporarily, so that the feeling is not so crowded.

This is not the first post I've written; but it feels so awkward, maybe because I haven't written in a long time. Everyone has a story, a story and a way to share their story. either by hiding it, writing it down, or directly sharing it with someone he already trusts.

Not easy. Yes, not easy; I know it. Sometimes it takes time to be able to share it, it's not unbelievable, but it feels so stifling. There are times when it feels like there is no need to share it with someone.

Only sometimes, what we have done still feels lacking. The decision made feels wrong, until finally it makes feelings grow with regret, fear, and everything that feels so painful.

I know, I'm not very good at making decisions. Sometimes I think; whether the decision that I choose is right or wrong, what will it be like? Isn't there a regret that awaits in the future?

However, at that time I was so confident, as if the decision I made was the right one. however, I was wrong, in the end the decision I chose was wrong and they blamed me. As if that choice was so wrong. Yes, who will know the decision will be right or wrong. if I had known, then I would have chosen not to.

Actually what is seen from the right or wrong of a decision?

Is it from the results? then part of each process that we have run at that time? Didn't we fight very hard at that time, forcing ourselves not to give up. I don't understand, even I don't understand, what kind of decision is right. Isn't it from the beginning every choice we make, the decisions we take; there will be risks waiting.

Either a regret, misunderstanding, or whatever. That is my current thought. A valuable lesson that I can take from the decision I have chosen. The steps were so stifling, that it made me choose to stop.

Maybe I did make a decision that I didn't want. Listen and trust someone to choose it. There are many things that I realized after I made a decision. Yes, it may feel so stifling. I used to always think, was the decision I made the best one? Will I not regret every decision I will take?

Sometimes, I think maybe not regret, but such great fear. Every decision I make involves someone's feelings, and it makes me realize that it's not me. Trusting someone too much; without believing in yourself. Maybe that's the picture for me at that time.

Pathetic. Until finally choosing to blame others; even though I chose

Not committed; that's what I thought.

However; for now, just this time. I want to do what I want to do once in a lifetime; maybe this is no longer a matter of regret. but, facing the fear that I chose this time.

At least just this once.

It felt so hard, it felt so suffocating; but trying my best is the only thing i can do. that's the choice. not an option if it's not risky. Try your best, but the heart is not moved, it will only make it difficult for you. Simple. But it's the decision that defines you.

Let's try to accept ourselves; decide something you want to do without involving other people's feelings, but belief in yourself, a belief that this is what you do, that you choose. A decision without blaming yourself, others, and without regrets in the future.

Regret may be present, even though it may be present in the deepest heart; but, at least we've tried the best according to our own version. just a little trust, is what makes us able to survive this far, without stopping and giving up.

Thank you to myself, who has endured this far. Without giving up, even though it feels difficult, tight, and bears a heavy burden. Let's fight even harder to be the best version of ourselves.