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I EXIST

A friend of mine introduce this platform read.cash months ago but I am hesitate to participate with or even visit. You know. I was thinking “its not true” and I will just way my time and effort make one. But @JustMaryel always encourage and upgrade me with her progress until yesterday night I am fully convince. Let me share with you a glimpse of who I am. A woman who are willing to do everything just to make the dream come true. A woman who can sacrifice things just to make her love ones happy. A woman who prioritize the sake of others than herself. A woman who look like tough but as soft as the cotton. A woman whose pulling herself out from her misery. A woman who are suffering silently and a woman who gave everything and got crumble right after because there’s nothing left for herself. That woman is me. Yes! I exist. I grow in a family that was surrounded with love and care. We are not rich nor poor, we can eat thrice a day and could have a snack during afternoon. I used to go to the public school and would never dream to be in private. I am happily contented of my life, things are just enough for us. But life really want us to experienced happiness and pain. Secrets exploded and happiness turns into nightmare. My dad change a lot, he used to get drunk that led him to hurt my mom physically. What can I do to stop him, when I am only 8 years old. As I grow older I understand that things are not constant it can instantly change with just a blink of an eye. That’s why I keep on wishing that this could just be a dream and would rather to wake up but reality slaps me. This is it and have to deal with it. But I never forget to enjoy things even in difficult times. I love playing badminton games as well as reading books. I would say I am an introvert, who love to be alone and would rather stay invisible. I am not that shy but it’s better to be a listener and would rather to keep quiet. I don’t even know what my talent is, yes! I can dance and sing but I did not consider them as my talent since I’m not into it. I am also a school journalist who love to write sports article. I also used to be in competition event, either math-sci or essay type contest. During high school I am even more competent than I was, who only wants to be on top. I thought when I get adult, I can have what I want. Got a good job and could spoiled myself and my family, but I was mistaken. I was trying to push things to happen as I think it could be, just as how I saw in the movie. Sadly, things we’re far different, I even don’t have the job, and would only depend on the scholarship so that I can continue with my studies. I don’t even have the accomplishments that I was wishing I had. I’m 21 years old yet don’t have any to be proud of. The mindset that I already change, I might don’t have what others have, but I have my family who love and cares for me. I may not spoiled them but I know someday somehow I can. I might don’t have the stable job but I know after this year I can. This is @Probinsyana taking up Bachelor of Science and Business Administration. In God’s perfect time I can have what I don’t have!. Happy to see you in my sponsor block❣️

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