Killing my fiance was not intentional

I didn't know that it will kill him. killing John, my fiance was not intentional. I worked as a receptionist. I met John during the course of my work. I was doing my work when he walked up to my table and asked for my name. I was a bit surprised but I didn't show it. I answered him by telling him my name and he told me that he loved the way I have been dutifully doing my work any time he comes here. I was only doing my work without knowing that someone was watching. I was dazed to see him in church the next service. I've never noticed him due to the large congregation. Since then, I have been watching him. I usually notice when he comes to church and leaves because he sits in the front seat.

He became my regular client at work. And in one of his visits, he requested for my contact. He would call every two days and my love for him grew. After 2 months of knowing each other, he asked if I would marry him. I was surprised because I didn't see it coming. I thought our friendship was basically platonic. I never knew he would take it to another level.

John asked to visit my parents but I told him not to bother. But when he insisted, I agreed reluctantly. I gave him my address and he visited on a weekend. I didn't tell my parents that anyone would be visiting but my mum usually prepare food in case of unexpected visitors. When he arrived, I only told my parents that he was one of my clients at work. My mum took it the other way round. She treated John like he was my husband while John winked at me smiling.

I was not happy with the turn of events when my mother asked if John had proposed to me after he left. I nodded and my mum told me to say yes to him.

It isn't that I am not of marriageable age or I don't have feelings for him. I do but there are some things I don't like about him. He smokes and drinks. I discussed it with him but he said he can't do without smoking in a day. I was checking my mum's phone one day when I saw a credit alert from John. He transferred the sum of 500,000 naira to my mum and since then she has been disturbing me that she wants to carry her grandchildren. John too has been calling and visiting.

A month after he told me to marry him, my pastor told me to see him after service. He said John has just secured a job for me in a big firm and I was to pick up my letter in john's house. I knew it was a death trap but when my pastor said there was nothing that would happen, I agreed to go that evening. When I got to his house, he was wearing a white t-shirt over a black trousers. He served me a cup of non-alcoholic wine. I didn't drink it as I only wanted to collect my letter and go. As I received the letter, I thanked him and stood up to leave.

He said he thought I had agreed to his proposal and that was why I came to his house. He said he loves me and he tried to kiss me but I slapped him. He got annoyed and he went to the door, locked it and threw the key towards the dining room. I began to shake where I was standing. I begged him that I was sorry but all my pleas fell on deaf ears. He held my hands and threw me on the cushion chair. I covered my face with a pillow as I dreaded what was about to happen. He removed the pillow and when I opened my eyes, he was only in his short.

I could not scream as the house was fenced. As he was about removing my clothes, I got hold of the bottle of wine on the stool and landed it on his head. He shouted and fell to the ground. I ran out immediately after searching for the key. On my way out, I met two of his friends who were coming to visit him. They were the ones who reported to the police and I'm arrested. I have no one to defend me now. Noone believes that it was an attempt to defend myself from rape that led to his death.

_____________________ I'm sorry I've not been very active in writing here. We have not had electricity for the past three days and my two batteries were low. I'll try to make up for all I've missed. Thanks for your understanding 🤠.