What happens to an introvert? Can their qualities be changed? Oh no! I want to switch this personality. I don't want it again. Talking about an introvert - not social, lonely, quiet, reserved, introspective, less friends, shy, enjoy solitude etc. With all these, I am found in all of them but I think I am an ambivert because I love to be around friends who are funny and have sense of humor. Most times, I have mood swings. I may play too hard today and the next day, I want to be alone. I want to party today but I don't want tomorrow. Let's just say, I am an ambivert - introverted and extroverted.
Ever since I was born, I have never gone out and this is because of my low self esteem, what will people say about me? Am I beautiful? I don't think I look good on this, I don't want to be embarrassed. And then, I stay on my own so I can avoid all these. For years, I am always alone and will not go out because of all these aforementioned. It's killing me right. I don't know anywhere, no eatery, restaurant, beach etc this is because I don't go out.
My parents are very strict that they don't allow us go out. We are always locked inside all day except following my mom to her shop and at night, we go home together. She will never allow us walk on our own. So strict mehnπ
But after some years, on the 14th of February, 2020, I went out for the first time.
And because I didn't want to go alone because I was "Shy", I told them, "let's go out". We ate and went home. That was the end of that year. I didn't go out again.
When people ask me, "do you go out?" I am always ashamed to answer them no, but what does that mean, I just simply tell them "I don't go out". They will be like "why?" Always go out and see things for yourself. You can actually take yourself out and don't depend on any guy to do that. Yes, I should be going out but I just don't want to alone. I am always shy.
Then, I went out the second time on the 4th of July, 2021. I have always wanted to eat this common meat in Nigeria called "ASUN". It's is goat meat sauce. I don't go out, so I asked one of my male friend for any location in Ondo where they sell Asun. He happily described the place and after service in church yesterday, I went to the joint. I went with two friends again. I can't go alone π
I already got prepared of the expenses so we set out for the place. I decided we shouldn't take bike but trek so I can snap some beautiful places on our way which I did. We got to the spot and ordered for three plates of Asun with malt drinks
I already finished mine before I remembered I should have taken a photo of my Asun π
And to my amazement, I met three guys physically. They were also on an earning platform online and we used to chat very well. Though two of them weren't around to take pictures with me, I had to snap with this guy called Busayo (my namesake) They also came to eat Asun with their girlfriends.
We all chatted and laughed. I didn't know going out could be fun especially with guys. I enjoyed myself yesterday. I said to myself "I think I need to start going out even on my own as I will get used to it after several outings" Well, I hope I don't find myself locked up inside the room with my best friend (phone).
After two hours of enjoying ourselves, I paid the bill of $5 for three of us and we went home. The guys were really funny though and I feel we need to go out together again. Lol
On our way going, I took some pictures
This is a big coconut tree. I love to snap and I find peace in me seeing beautiful natures around me. This tree is so big that caught my attention and I took it. People were staring at me but I didn't care about that. Some would actually think I am taking them for a particular thing but it's fun to me.
One thing I love about some towns and villages is because they can plant and many of them are farmers. Seeing this maize plant, I know the owner would have gone through a lot to make it get to this stage. Planting, watering etc so it can become food at the end is not a day's job at all. Here in Ondo, everywhere is full of plants of different kinds. People here don't suffer because they have everything within their reach to feed them and survive.
This is "University of Medical Sciences" shortened as UNIMED. It's not far to the Asun Joint. We have some rich people going to this University because it is very expensive.
Well, I think that's all for now. I took many pictures but I don't want to fill my article with them.
It was really a great moment yesterday with my friends and the guys I met that was a surprise to me.
I think I have made you smile scrolling through this pictures here in Nigeria.
Thanks for reading
I don't know now i missed this article on Sunday. Being an introvert has it downside and some of these are started in your article. I love going out and it's enjoyable with friends. There isn't much fun in going alone. After each semester, my friends and i do go out to regroup on either friday or Saturday and go to church for Thanksgiving on Sunday. Last time we went to Lekki conservation centre and a pepper soup joint