Hi guys good evening to all of you here in read.cash. I was quiet for how many days, I was not able to write any article for almost a week. I am so sorry for that and I hope you all forgive me for my laziness. I mean is not laziness that stop me from thinking and writing some articles.
Before anything else let me greet these awesome people in my box.
Let me share to you things that come my way during those past few days of my inactivity.
What happen to you self?
During those days I was unable to write articles and I owe you all for not reaching out to you guys. I was lost in the middle of nowhere, like I was so disturbed and lots of things running from my mind.
My senses were lost, happiness won't step into my system only sadness and tears fell down from my cheek down through my lips. A tears fell down unnoticeably and all of a sudden the world stopped and my senses lost for a moment.
The moment I lost my senses, it was like I can hear nobody, I was blind and the nerve of my brain blocked to recognize everything. There were moments that I don't want to talk to my husband and my mind were so terribly fold blinded with burdens.
All that comes in my mind repeatedly was an eagerness to pay our P80,000 debts and solve all of these struggles. I feel the heaviness of the big rock I carry at my back.
What makes us struggles to reality?
The moment I fold blinded myself from problems and struggles, my husband and children were so disturbed also. My mom were so worried too, for they saw in my eyes the reality I created. The sadness wept away the smile on my face. It seems like I was unable to live life and the only left was the heavy aura surrounded me.
I was so disturbed in terms of our finances because we got so many debts to pay. My husband and I where so worried on how to pay our debts to our known friend. Sometimes I blame myself if we got a wrong decisions in life that move us to a situation thats hard to escape.
Am I on the right track?
There were times I ask my self if do I choose the right move? Is my/our decision wasn't right? All we just want was to keep our situation in good condition but it turns out to be wrong?
I will tell you the main reasons of all these. My husband and I decided to lift high our house and store because everytime it rains we always experiences a heavy flood. And it's not an ordinary flood because it was a disastrous flood.
Last 2020, it was the last flood where all our agrivet supplies goods for sale has been washed out and had been damaged due to this flood. Our house was full of water, as far as I can remember, the water was as high above my hips.
I was 8 months old pregnant that time where I swim to gather all other supplies that can be useful. I can see all our appliances like our fridge, freezer, sack of agrivet supplies and our sacks of rice swam through the flood. We are helpless at that moment where all I can do is to cry.
All has been damaged and I was so helpless coz our goods for sale has been washed away. I am about to get labor on my second son the following month and I cried for the bill that might come our way that time especially I am undergo a ceasarian section.
So that the start of our overlapping debts. The moment I saw all of these damaged, I promise my self after I give birth to my child we will renovate our house and store. Because our house has been below down the concrete road. Due to the construction of the road our house has been below. Our house needed to lift up so flood won't go inside the house.
It started all our journey there and how we came to have an overlapping debts. I also wanted to do it coz I am concerned on my mother's health where she always worry everytime it rains so heavy. But sometimes I ask myself, is the projects we made of the house might went wrong?
Survival Reality?
I know you think we planned it easily and quickly without thinking many times and how far it could lead us to be and do not enough finances to sustain the projects. But no, we planned it so many times.
This might hard for us now, but I know it was already planned by God and it is not just about survival.I know God let this happened to us coz I know he knew we can handle it all. He give us this kind of problem coz he knew we could all surpass this struggles.
No problem is greater than HIM. I always keep on his promises to us. If you ask for help to Him, he will answer.
Matthew 7:7-8
“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened.
In Jesus name Amen.
I know all of these will be solved. And I am really claiming it and just this morning someone lend us his hand to help us. I really do God always find his way. He brought us angels to help us recover.
Thank you for reading guys. I love you all.
I am back for good #rusty!
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