"Behind my Uniform(based on real life story)"

"Behind my uniform"

9years ago Im a reckless child. I dont listen to anyone I only listen to my grandmother. She's the only person who understands me. I have a family , but they are too busy to notice me. They are well known people in our town "benguet". I have 3 brother's but they were all busy in their work.

One day, our grandmother keeps on coughing,and its not good for her beacause of her illnessess. She's already one week in the hospital but still her condition was the same. Her body is rejecting the medicines. Sometimes she feel fever too. Its been a month since shes confine, shes too skinny already. She dont look healthy already, until one day she ask all her son, daughter and grandchildren to visit. She's saying her wills and her property. She keeps on talking about everything. It seems that she feel death. Until Unexpected thing happened,im the one whos incharge that night, but that night is her last night. 'Code Blue' is echoing inside the hospital doctors are rushing inside the ICU where my lolas room. I called everyone they rushed to the hosital, the suddenly she stopped breathing. She left us, one week passed. Im so lost and empty that I didn't know what is happening around me. Days are passing like a air to me.

I can't recover that easy , I keep on drinking alcohol but still i did my part as a student. One day while on the way home I heard a baby cry. I thought its a ghost but something's stopped me like what the hell!,its like someone pushing me. Until I decided to see whose the one crying and i saw a baby boy. He is covered in a thin blanket . I rushed to get him and he is freezing. It seem's that its just a born baby. I decided to took him home. My parents thought that it was my baby but no, they thought that i was got pregnant by someon. I told them everything from the first to the last. We tried to find his true mother but we failed. I dont want to sent him to the orphanage house so I told my parents that I want to adopt him. Something pushing me to took care the baby. My mother dont want ,but she saw something is different. She saw how much i changed because of the baby. So my parents agreed tha i'll adopt da baby. Everyone judge me because of being a mother in my young age. But i dont remind them!, as long as i know, i did the right thing.

After a year and a half his already 1 year old. I learned how to be a mother and the feeling of being a mother. I thought problems will never come on us but i learned that he has a serious sickness that it can not be cured. All they can offer is a monthly therapy for him. I was so devastated, my parents supported me and my child. Every month I always saw how my child cry because it hurts him. It hurts me when I saw him crying. I graduated and took a nursing for my child. One day my parents rushed my child to the hospital. I was in the middle of the class when they told it . I excused myself and rushed to the hospital. The doctor told me that I should be prepared for the worse. My world shattered when the doctor told me, his body is too weak already to accept a strong medicine. I prayed and prayed to heal my son. But it seems that nothing is going alright. Sadly,but he celebrated his second birthday in the inside the hospital. I have a hope that he will heal and live longer. We did everything just to let him survive. He never experience a normal life. Every month he must had his therapy. Thats our rotation for 2years. But I didn't know that his 3rd birthday is his last birthday. Three days after his birthday we rushed again him to the hospital. His body is getting weaker and weaker in 3 days. Until he give up, lost his battle. The day that he lost is the day my world shattered,i dont know what to do, i was so lonely and lost again the same feeling when I lost my grandmother. We held a two days for him. At his funeral I was so lost , the memories that we had is making me sad to the point that I miss it. I dropped my subject. I didn't talk to anyone for atleast a year. I remembered how he loved to be a soldier. I remembered how he told me his dreams and planned nu dumak dakel suna. I always miss him. The way he laughs , the way he smile and talk and the way he act infront of me.

Until I realized to visit the academy where me and my baby always visit whenever I have time. I I still remembered those people, how they greet him and tell him how cute he is. They asked me why did I not bring him and I told them why. They asked me if they can visit his new home when they had time to go out. I let them, until I decided to fix myself and achieve my sons dream. Thats the reason why I become a soldier. Now Im living in my sons dream where I can always remeber her and never I will never foget him.

His Birthday is approaching, it hurts me whenever I remember. I always celebrate his bday but it seems that I cannot do that now because of my business because of the pandemic.

To my son up there , till we meet again baby. Mommy will always remember you and love you.

To the young one's there if you got pregnant, abortion is not the best SOLUTION ! Conscience will hunt you till its to late.

To the single mother's /not single mothers out there Im so proud to all of you for raising your children and not giving up to them or abandoning them.

Stay safe and be careful ! ❤

Yours truly❤.