Ok, let us do this. Putting one up before I decide whether I would want to set up my monitor after writing this or sleep first and do that in the morning.
I have been watching Partners for Justice lately. Unlike the other Korean telenovelas I've watched before this, I am taking quite some time to finish it. One of the actors, a forensic doctor, uses a line every time the police and the prosecutors try to build how a certain crime happened. He says something like, "are you writing fiction?" (as per translation in Netflix) every time the police or the prosecutor starts telling how they think the certain crime played out.
Although the narrative of the prosecutor or the investigators seem to hold water and are based on evidence pulled out from the scene, the forensic doctor is not one to quickly conclude or agree with the story until he investigates further through the cadaver. He takes his time in his process and collecting all possible details with his assistants - measuring the length (or do you still call it height?) of the dead body; looking into its closed eyes; smelling the feet; checking the nails. Then proceeding with opening the body - checking the internal organs; weighing them; slicing through the stomach; collecting substances; sending it to the lab to be tested.
He has a different scenario playing in his head while he gathers his own set of evidence before collaborating with the investigators. At the end of his investigation, he can finally say if he agrees with the prosecutor or not - if the fiction is the fact. Of course, while his investigation, the police investigators were closely watching also and sometimes having conversations with him. To which he will again say, "are you writing fiction?".
I find the question slowly becoming relevant as it echoes in my head and starts flashing scenarios were asking myself "are you writing fiction?" is fit. It is a good checkpoint question actually when our mind and heart start collaborating into feeding us unfounded information.
Then I thought, funny how sometimes our mind works similar to how a crime scene narrative was being built when we are working out a certain intuition. It kind of brought Pink's song in my head as well. The line in "Just Give Me A Reason" where both the man and the woman were starting to have an exchange of thoughts about their current status. The guy goes, "it's all in your head".
We are creatures of habit anyway. When things deviate from a way of interaction we are used to, we sometimes get ourselves caught writing up a "what may have led to him or her acting that way?" story. Some of that may be true. Some of it may also be just in our heads.
Especially for couples who may have freshly passed their honeymoon stage and things are starting to plateau. One feels it and the other does not make a big deal out of it. Then recounting past experiences plus reading through behaviors, actions and facial expressions starts. Maybe there is something, maybe there is none.
Maybe he has a mistress? If he does, why? Maybe I did something he didn't like? Is he with her? Why isn't he calling me? He used to be home by this time. It is not like him not to tell me where he is going.
What fiction are you writing in your head? What areas in your life could you be writing fiction about?
How many fictions have you written?
And how many of them turned out to be facts?
I like fiction, I can write and write, when fiction becomes reality, when reality is fiction, the lines blur, the lines cross, what is fiction, what is reality, what is the time , is that really the time or is that fiction too, it has passed the time just now is not the time right now, it must be fiction, when will this end, wake up we are in the reality, oh no that is fiction too :) Happy weekend Lois :)