Little Update, Holiday Blues I realize I haven't posted anything for the last week. Truthfully I have been trying to focus on other things recently. The problem with trying to get everything caught up is the something inevitably falls behind. I've been focusing more on my mental health and just haven't been in the right head space to write much of anything that I want to post at the moment. I have written a few things and I also have a few (okay, more than a few) notes of…
Restraint His hand clamped down around her wrist and she felt herself shudder in response. The man was a monster. In spite of this, against all logic, she wanted him. The universe in some twisted display of humor, had seen fit to have him return her affections. Perhaps *affections* was stretching it. There was after all, no emotional connection. They had nothing in common with each other save for their attraction to one another. *Still, desire in itself is a powerful and…
Bullying A Child It recently came to my attention that someone who has a problem with me has been speaking behind my back. I hate people who will talk to everyone but the person they have a problem with. The only thing I hate more is people who drag innocent children into it. There is no reason or excuse for speaking ill of an innocent child behind their backs whether you dislike the parents or not. The child is NOT the parent. The child is NOT a tool to be used to further…
I Hope You Never Read This.... Oct. 9 2020 It's been dark for too long. At first I didn't notice anything. I just woke up, looked outside and went back to sleep happy that I still had time before I had to get up. It wasn't until I woke up again that I realized something was horribly wrong. The clock said it was 9am but it was still pitch black outside. Power outage maybe? Or some sort of glitch with the clock? My phone said the same thing. It's been six hours now. It's 3pm…
The Passenger Dan stared through the rain slicked windows. This was where he was told to pick up the passenger, wasn't it? He checked his GPS then picked up his phone to send a text letting the person know their ride was here. He jumped when someone knocked on the passenger side window just as he sent the text off. There was a man standing in the rain quickly getting soaked through. He opened the window and the man leaned in. 'Uber?' He asked shivering from the cold. The…
What the Heart Wants Her thoughts were interrupted by a soft knock. She sighed and turned away from the door, making no move to answer. She knew that knock and she knew a closed door and no answer wouldn't stop him from coming in. He entered the room and closed the door softly behind him, making sure to stand in front of it. Of course she knew he wasn't doing it with the intent to trap her, but she felt ill at ease anyway. Not that she didn't trust him. She did, with her…
A New Beginning She sat in the corner of the small café where blessedly, no one had seemed to notice her. She was still nursing the coffee she had ordered an hour ago. She wasn't in any rush. Besides, she had nowhere to be anymore. She took a small sip of her drink and scowled as the cold bitter liquid hit her tongue. She forced herself to drink it anyway and mindlessly browsed the internet on her phone. The sound of the chair across from her being moved brought her back to…
Painful Reunion 'Been a long time.' She raised her glass in greeting to the man who had spoken, then drained it. He motioned for her to follow him through a door located behind the bar. She obliged, making sure to close the door behind her. 'How's the family, Liz?' asked the man casually. She shot him a look while taking a swig from the bottle of liquor she had snagged on her way past the bar. 'Didn't come here to talk Kelly.' He flinched at the use of his last name.…
Hell Hath No Fury 'What the h*ll happened?' Greg asked me incredulously. I stared at the charred, still smoking remains of my house. I felt sad, lost, confused and oddly calm. I should be pissed but I wasn't, probably due to the shock. Or the fear. I also wasn't sure how to answer that question. I knew the answer but I didn't think I could handle the look on his face when he found out. I also couldn't go to the cops, there was nothing they could do to help. There was nothing…
The Flowers The scent hit her full force as she walked into her small apartment. Her blood ran cold as she saw the cause of the cloying smell. Every available surface was covered in roses. Hundreds and hundreds of roses. A room full of beautiful roses would have been a welcome sight to come home to for most women. Unfortunately for Carly they had an altogether more sinister meaning. They had been her favorite flower until he had managed to twist them into something ugly. Now…
Just venting The only reason I'm writing this is because at this very moment, my head is so full this feels like the only way to deal with it. A lot of people look at me as a stay at home mom and say I have no reason to be stressed. They really have no idea what they're talking about. People think just because you don't have a check to show for it, it means you don't do any work. Everyday, I cook and clean. I do dishes, I help my daughter with her online schooling, I do…
Silver Lining to Heart Break We weren't meant for each other. I'd known that from the beginning but I'd let myself fall anyway. Was it worth it? Some days, yes. Others, no. He taught me a lot and for that I will always be grateful. It's always confusing in situations like that. Who should you be angry at? Him, for making you fall for him, or you, for doing it even thought you knew better. I guess being mad at the other person doesn't really make much sense, but logic doesn't…
Unwelcome Guests I opened the front door and instantly had to fight the urge to slam it shut in the face of the couple standing on my porch. 'You hung up.' I crossed my arms and glared at the man. 'Yeah. Sorry about that. I hadn't actually meant to answer the call.' My tone made it clear that I was not in fact, sorry. 'Can we come in?' The woman spoke this time. 'Nope.' She shuffled uncomfortably and cast a quick glance sideways at her husband while I watched the two of them…
Truth Comes Out The past few days have been emotionally draining in more ways than one. Mainly something from my past came out to someone close to me. It was something I hoped he would never find out to do with his dad. I realize now keeping it from him was wrong. I had my reasons but that doesn't mean it was ok. For one, he was young at the time. Too young to be told something like that. Two, I knew my brother was safe. For three, I spent years being afraid he hated me for…
Toxic People I guess I'm starting to look at this a bit like online journaling which is a little scary. I've never been one to personally care much about what people think of me. At the same time, sometimes I do care. I mainly care if it comes to my child and what kind of a mother people think I am. That's mainly out of fear. I've had people in the past who have made things difficult for me and tried to have my daughter taken away. Not because we were actually doing anything…
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