Once again, I write to shed light on areas of our daily lives which we overlook, or in worst situations,like blind men, Fail to see. This is the ultimate aftermath of a conditioned mind and a corrupt thought process. Every action, decision and choice made afterwards will either be fulfilling a Fantasy,seeking validation or both, just to mention a few of the likely outcomes. On my quest to overcome that and save myself from that trap, I had to unlearn so many things and put on new mental regalia. The most interesting part of the process was catching myself in that exact act, when I was about to speed off from the realm of things. It is one of the most beautiful things I have encountered my whole life. Moments I scrutinized myself ruthlessly and faced the reality as it was. This are the situations that taught me humility and how to remain calm however much pressure I faced, Stoic. Regardless of how a personal experience it is, I voluntarily choose to paint it, so you can see the bigger picture. Our canvas is already laid. Right?
During the lunch break of one busy day, while in the confines of an institution where I spend most of my time during the day, I chose to read a new book I had on me and was anticipating to indulge myself into it. All that while awaiting an afternoon working session. I was seated at the waiting bay and had given the book my full attention, that I didn't notice a young lady approaching untill when she excused herself. With a smile on her face she apologized for the interruption then went ahead to seek my help, to send money to her digital wallet in exchange for a fiat currency if I had some on me by chance. She went ahead to explain that it could cost her more time to deposit by herself yet she needed to respond to an emergency. As risky as it seemed to be, my mind instantly took me to a memory when I was in a similar situation and judging by the desperation on her face, I was willing to give more than she was asking for. How exactly? I sent the money and asked her to settle what she needed with it, without Refunding.
She moved closer, placed the money on my lap and what she said thereafter provoked my thoughts for the rest of the afternoon. She stated that it was her offer to me that I assist in exchange for what she had, I should not violate that. She went ahead to explain that what I did tells how judgemental I was; that I was assuming she is problematic, which I silently affirmed to myself. Why? Because when I was in a similar situation myself, I was problematic and it blinded me. She concluded by saying that however good intentioned I might be, she can easily find it offensive to be judged wrongly although that wasn't the case. It was such a short, but of high magnitude a Concord which ended with a friendly laughter, completely spontaneous.
When I reflected on that incidence during my immediate next journal session, I was able to understand how such small acts we do can ruin a relationship between friends, allies and associates, without catching our attention. We never get to narrow down to the immediate mistakes we made even when the waters have settled. This happens because our minds are always occupied with thoughts of the next minute, hour, day, week and a whole mysterious future ahead, at the expense of a realistic present. What I perceive to be a gift. No wonder our forefathers, through their literary works, tell us how We each face life-changing experiences everyday. That incidence helped me to understand better.
My take away is that, In any situation, please stick to the Premises that surround it. With that said, I do wish you productivity in all that you indulge yourself in.
Until the next piece, remember to catch yourself before you lose yourself.
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