A random things and updates.
I'm not happy to the everything that is happening now. I mean, I already have check up last day for like 2x a month and I don't want it anymore. It feels like my monthly budget were already throwing out and I just want to save and spend more but not on emergencies, I mean, I want something that can benefit me like buying a motorcycle so that I don't need to wait for a taxi to come over at our boarding house to get to work since I am paying 52php or 1.2$ perday and it cost me a lot.
Me and my partner talk about opening a business, what business? She wants food and everything but I'm not sure what she really wants. If you asked me, I want to have a business about gadget of course that will be nationwide. I already sell perfume before and that's not a good idea tho, but I have a lot of buyers before so I really like it.
*How about shoes*? Hmm, me and my partner buy piggy bank and we putting coins to it like 0.2$ perday or 10php. If it's about shoes, we need a lot of sizes and also a ***bodega***. But wait, shoe business is kinda good right? Since there's so many people who loves to buy shoes online and what we need is someone who will delivering it to us.
But of course the sizes first, since we need a lot of sizes I know it's kinda expensive. Like, we need a sizes for girls and boys, we also need a storage room or anything where we can put them. Packing and also accepting orders will do.
Why we planning this?
Last day, me and my partner were talking about the payslip that we had. I told her about my rate and I was just receiving 80$ or 4kphp per 15 days, and that was kinda small since I need to travel, buy food and I need to buy like shampoo, soap, or anything that we can use to our body.
And she said, ***Why don't we just build up a business***? Of course I'm agree with this. I'm not a business minded person but she is. But she's not into shoes maybe, and eunoia said that there's already many people who have their new shoes where is I'm totally agree with.
So today I'm from hospital again which is Note Dame, I wanna laugh out loud cauz what I did earlier is all about laboratory. I think I'm going crazy.
I also hate the fact that I need to feel this way just to figure out what's the problem with my body. *Kulang nalang maadmit ako at madiagnosed nanaman ng ibang sakit. I* can't imagine myself suffering again through all this, this is what I hate the most when I was still a kid, when I was still on my childhood. Because I always have this sickness where sometimes I was asking myself, why is this happening? Why I am struggling with this and why I can't be healthy?
Other said, being healthy is a blessing. But wait, no. Stop normalizing being chubby because being chubby has a lot of body shaming or worse has a lot of sickness. I've been struggling with this for like many years and yeah until now it's still ongoing.
Lmao, *I'm not even sure til when I'm going to stay here at the earth.*
Welp, it's already july and I know a lot of you have a new goals. And my goal and the only wish I had right now is to become healthy and improve my self. Since I don't want anyone to suffer because of me, and if I suffer I want to suffer alone without anyone on my side. ***Not even my partner.***
But guess what, I'm still lucky to have her as my partner, because she always giving me strength and listening to the rant that I have even if sometimes I'm not listening to them. If I got the worst year every year, but I also got the best person in my life.
By the way, this is just a small update. Keep safe everyone!
Turning 21: July 4th Birthday Wish.
6/30/22
For today's blog, jusko maloloka na ako, maloloka na talaga ako.
It's been 2 weeks since my last checkup and ngayon may another check up nanaman ako. Hindi na talaga natapos, hindi ko naman dinedeny na sakitin din talaga ako simula pa nung bata pa ako. Nakakaloka lang kasi, hindi kasi ako nag iingat ka lalo na sa mga kilos ko. Nadulas ako last 2 days sa may pintuan ng cr at di ko pinapansin kasi yung dinadaanan ko. So sa katangahan ko, eto ang resulta.
Anong resulta?
*Resulta ng katangahan.*
Actually, di ko idedeny na sobrang tanga ko sa part na bigla akong umapak sa may hagdan ng cr pero basa yung paa ko. Worst is mali yung naapakan ko so talagang nadulas ako, at sumakit yung tahi ko. O diba? Kakasick leave ko lang nung isang linggo, sick leave nanaman ako nitong buwan.
But wait, let's proceed now to the topic that I had on my title. Days from now, it will be my birthday and on my birthday *i don't want anything but just being healthy.*
During my **7th birthday**,
I remember when i was still in grade 2, my family celebrated my birthday with my whole classmates and teacher. I celebrated twice back then, I can't remember why I celebrate them twice but the other one is on the house.
On my **8th Birthday.**
I was diagnosed with pneumonia, I have a high fever and I was also excused to my school for like 1 whole month. After nun akala ko okay na, *akala ko lang pala*. When I go to school, everything went smooth at first. Pero after that I got a high fever nanaman and I was diagnosed with another sakit ulit.
On my **9th birthday**,
I have a high fever nito, di ko talaga alam bakit ako nilagnat ng sobra pero kada birthday ko may mga bagay talagang nagaganap o nangyayare maski di ko ginugusto.
On my **10th birthday,**
I was diagnosed with seafood allergies dito. I was from boracay that day, as in the whole day and whole night puro seafoods kinakain namin and wala nang iba. Nung umuwi kami ng calinog, the dish was all about seafoods again. So after eating them, bigla akong nilagnat and tumagal sya ng almost 1 week. That time my parents decided na magpacheck up na ako.
On my **11th birthday,**
Natrigger allergies ko dito because I ate seafood again, ofcourse as usual lagi ako may sakit everytime malapit na birthday ko.
But in this article, I will contain the message that I want to tell myself even if I know that it's possible to read it again.
*Dear self,*
*You already fought so hard, there are times where you are super down and you didn't know what to do anymore. There are times where everything was so easy to understand, but most of the time you were struggling on how to understand this and that questions. I know you are strong enough to handle everything on your own, but it's still important to live you life into fullest. Since it's your birthday, don't hesitate to buy something or treat yourself like you were just trying to pay the struggles that you have while working. Girl, you already fought so hard so please give youself a rest. Stop thinking about things, just treat yourself like you were treating your best friend and that best friend of yours is yourself. I know it might be hard for you to understand on how things works or how to deal with something. But please don't forget that you also, you need to treat yourself like your most lovable friend of life. Becauseost of the time, what you have is yourself only.* *****Nothing more, nothing less.*****
Final Thoughts
I really want to treat myself pero nanghihinayang ako sa money na gagamitin ko, even once lang talaga gusto ko magself date pero how? It's hard for me to decide hays.
I Lost Someone: I Failed.
"**I wanna die.**" You said while you are walking ahead of me, and you look at me and smile. "**I'm just kidding, don't take it seriously**." You added.
"**Look at me again**." I said while I'm waiting for you to turn around. You just laugh and said, "**Why? Is there anything that you wanna see?**." You said innocently without knowing that I saw the sadness that is hiding to your eyes. "**You're not hiding anything, aren't you?.**", I asked. You suddenly stop walking and turn around. That day, I saw that you just forced to smile so that no one can ever saw how sad you are. But it's all written in your face, you just didn't know that.
"**No, I'm not. Why would I hide something? How could I do that?.**" You asked me again with your innocent tone. But I know that you are hiding your tears and try not to show it.
I didn't answer you, but instead I just grab your hand and start walking around without any words.
"**You know what?, I already meet crazy people, I already meet random people who became part of my life. But, you are the special friend of mine who can read me even if I'm not saying a word.**" You said, I just nod. I didn't say a word, but I have this heavy feelings and I don't know why Am I feeling this way. *Something's wrong, I just knew it.*
"**Just be honest, I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way. You're not planning anything, right?**" I asked. Whenever that she's acting like this, I knew that something is wrong. Me and her are already friends eversince we were just a kid, it's just that she's not the same person as before.
*She used to be a happy person, who's always positive when it comes to things. Who's always active at everything, who always cheering the squad when someone is down. Now that I can see her that she's down, but she don't want anyone to figure it out, I'm trying my best to make her happy*.
"**Silly! Stop thinking random things. Of course I'm not! Why would I do something? What do you mean? Like doing crazy stuffs?**." She said while laughing. "**Oh come on, I'm just worried that maybe you don't feel alright but you keep telling me that you're alright. I'm not numb, girl.**" I answered, at this point, we both look to each other and start laughing. I can't stay too serious because I knew she hate it.
Hours passed, it's already 7pm and we went home. I'm already sleepy when I received your message, you said, "*Thank you.*" I didn't reply back because I fall asleep all of sudden.
But hours passed again, I receive a call from you sister. "**She's gone.**" Said on the other line while sobbing. I heard the sirens of the ambulance on the background, and that time I just stand up and ask, "***What***?.", Your sister didn't answer answer me. I just heard a cry while on a call and that time, *I already knew*.
I was too stunned to speak, I'm also too stunned to ask. The tears from my eyes fall down suddenly while I keep asking myself, "*This is not right, this is not happenin*g."
****You didn't even said goodbye****, you just took your own life pretending that you're okay, what our best friends for if you didn't open up?
That time, I just realized, I lost someone...I lost the girl who's like a sister to me. I lost the girl who do everything to make someone happy, that time, I know I was lost...I didn't save her. No, I mean, I tried, but ***~~**I faile.**~~***
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I see that among of my students are holding their breathe and looks like about to cry, while others are already sobbing.
"**Then what happened after that?.**", question of one of my student. I just smile and look directly at his eyes, "**I treasured it. We didn't know and we have no idea until when they will stay on earth. But always remember that no matter how good looking the person is, learn to read their actions and emotions. Because the most happiest person in this classroom, is the most saddest person outside**." I said, everyone agreed, and because it's already time, I let them go home after.
*Hey, it's been a year already girl. Thisnstory was passed to other student and I know you were listening. I hope I can still find you in another life. If it's happen, then I'll hug you like there's no tomorrow.*
Hi! So this is just a fictional story but this may be in real life situation. I didn't include a name hehe. I just type and type whatever that comes in my mind and ta-da! This is the result!
I hope you enjoy this article! I'm really sorry for being too inactive.
Type of Callers In Call Center: Agents Life. (Nakakalibang Ba? HAHA ewan)
Some BPO employee here, you guys already knew how to deal with those people who sometimes isusumpa mo nalang. Like we are just doing our job but there's really a caller who will literally threat you, warned you, and for God sake that caller will threat the contributor's life.
Eto, this is one of my example when i am talking to a one of a caller or a customer. Some of them are rude, some of them are not. Alam mo yung mapapasabi ka nalang na, ang swerte ko kung ito yung kausap ko. Just saying, example in one day you take 70 calls or more than that. Then ngayon iyong masasabi ko sa'yo most of that ko irate customers, alam mo yung hindi kapa nakakapag opening still biglang may bubungad sayo.
If my customer are irate, i'm muting my avaya and then sasabihin ko na lang, "***sandali lang kalma muna, wala akong kasalanan dito.***"
Like, what's wrong with your people? Excuse me i'm just an agent here who's answering your questions and helping you with the issue. I don't have any idea about the contributor, the delivery area or whatsoever it is na connected sa work ko.
So this time, let me share the life of being a call center agent. But this article, is about **what kind of callers do I receive the most.**
Okay so let's start.
The Kalmado
Well sometimes kung swerte ka, makaka receive ka ng mga call na sobrang kalmado ng kausap mo, yung tipong makikinig sa sasabihin mo tapos kapag ok na mag tethank you sila. Pero this kind of callers is so rare, most of them are so demanding. Hindi ko sasabihin na lahat, but yes most of them are so demanding.
Sino yung tipo na customer na makikinig sa mga paliwanag mo, hindi kanina pa pangunahan unlike sa ibang makakausap mo na hindi kapa nakakapag opening spiel bigla bigla ka na ng pagsasabi ng kung ano-ano. Syempre as an agent, i can't speak rude or i can sound rude during the call. Kasi diba even if they are disrespecting you, you should still respect them. Agent tayo eh, this is part of our work.
The Yes Or No Customer (Demanding hmp.)
This is the type of customer, where they will not allow you to speak. Just like kaka opening spill mo lang, hindi pa nga nila na ibibigay yung phone number or yung other information na kailangan mo tapos bigla bigla kang bubungangaan, magsasabi na nang walang kwenta yung serbisyo nyo syempre tayo as an agent nakamute tayo, diba tatanungin na lang natin yung self natin na *did i do something wrong ba*?
So ito nga, yung scope na handle lang namin, is about delivery and vacation, nothing else. Pero there are times na because of the split caused by mary receive dami na tawag from the billing department, retention department, or kahit digital and web support payan. I receive a call from a customer like this, the issue was about billing. Nanyare to last week lang, last day shift ko and it was friday.
Imagine, she was asking me about the balance that you have. Nakita ko wala siyang bayad simula march ano na ngayon pag july na di ba? Syempre yung utang niya, lumaki na ng lumaki. So ako naman ito todo explain, pero alam mo ayaw niya ako ipaexplain, yung gusto niya sagutin ko lang nag yes or no yung tanong niya even if yung question was not connected and not answerable with yes or no.
After ng mahabang discussion na lumabas na sa AHT ko, sabi niya "**ok then transfer me to billing**", nong transfer ko na sya sa billing, yung sunod na na highblood yung agent rin na kausap niya which is yung part ng billing. And then nagtanong siya sabi niya "*sino dito si ano*?", Syempre nagtaas ako ng kamay sabi ko ako po. Tapos nagreklamo na siya, sabi niya yung transfer ko daw sobrang ma attitude which is super pabor naman ako kasi totoo naman maattitude naman talaga siya.
The One Who Don't Want To Hear Any Sorry.
Ito, itong kustomer na ito hindi mo malalaman kung sinisisi ka ba niya o ayaw niya lang talaga na nag sosorry ka kasi hindi mo scope yung part na nirereklamo sya. Sila kasi yung tipo ng customer na kapag nag sorry ka, sila sa'yo huwag kang mag sorry kasi daw wala ka namang kasalanan. Kasunod nun, hindi mo maintindihan kung sinisisi ka ba kasi isa ka sa sumasagot at nag take ng calls nila.
May ganitong customer kasi, ayaw niya na nag sosorry ka pero parang sinisisi pa sayo yung part na hindi mo naman scope or hindi naman bahagi ng trabaho mo. Minsan o di kaya sabihin natin kadalasan, andyan yung part na sisisihin kanila dahil lang doon sa bagay na wala ka namang alam. Tapos kapag humingi ka mg tawad, sasabihin nila don't say sorry daw kasi ganito ganyan. *Diba nakakaiyak?*
The One Who Don't Want To Give Their Information.
Sa totoo lang dito hindi mo malalaman at hindi mo maintindihan, kung nanggigigil ka ba o naiinis, dahilan doon sa mga ugaling meron sila. Ikaw ba naman, paano mo sila matutulungan kung ayaw nila ibigay yung information nila para makuha yung account nila? Sasabihin pa sayo na dapat alam mo yung information na mayroon sila kasi sila yung tumatawag saatin.
Minsan nakakatanga yung mga ganitong callers, galit sila kapag hindi mo na tulungan samantalang hindi naman nila binibigay yung information nila, paano mo sila matutulungan?
Sa totoo lang, sobrang stressful maging agent. Sobrang masusubok yung pasensya mo at sobrang susubukin yung unawa mo. Pero sobrang nakaka enjoy naman, lalo na kapag yung kausap mo matanda at nagkekwento ng talambuhay niya.
So far, eto muna ibabhagi ko. Saka ma yung iba heheeh.
Final thoughts
Di ko alam kung tatanga-tqnga ako o ano eh, bigla akong nadulas sa pinto ng cr pagkalabas ko, ang hirap tuloy iapak ng paa ko sa sahig. O sadyang dakilang tanga na talaga ako?
1/30: What Are These Questions (Self Interview.)
I'm so stressed and depressed this past few days, I already asked my friends about their money if I can borrow something like this and that. I'm so thankful that they agreed, but take note, I don't know what am I going to do anymore.
This blogging site is my rant website, but yeah since I don't have any topic. I choose a random questions from Journal Diary so that I can make one article right now.
Do you compare yourself to others?
The answer is always yes, I can't help but to compare myself to other people like how can they do good while me I can't even put my all effort just to the things that I wanna do? I am kind of person who can easily give up not until one person motivated me or some people motovated me to keep going. I'm having a hard time to understand and give importance to myself that I am different from them. It's just that, I am too afraid because I know to myself that I can't learn that fast but instead I always need more time.
Do you like to cook?
I don't know how to cook, I only know how to made spaghetti and nothing more HAHA. There are times where i want to learn how to cook, but of course i'm not a good good girl like my dad. My partner keep telling me to practice my cooking skills so that i can cook my own food or whatever it is everything that she's not around. But yeah, naalala ko first time ko magluto and then i forget how to do the next step of it. I got scolded by my dad because you told me bakit hindi ko sila sinubukan tanungin about the ingredients or whatever it is that i can use while i'm cooking.
Oh diba parang tanga lang. I can really ask them naman if how to do this and that if how to prepare this and that, how to slice this and that. Of course pinoy tayo we all known na it's really hard to ask to the olders like this, like that ang laki laki mo na pero hindi ka parin marunong magluto.
If you change nothing, what will your life look like three months from now? How does this make you feel?
Let's go to the park where i don't have still any work. To be honest, three months is so long for us to stay still. Kasi if we not change sino gagawin satin? It's only has who can do changes. Hindi natin pwedeng ipagawa sa iba, it's our life kasi. Pero if nothing change inside the three months i will feel ashamed di ba?. Like hello it's been already three months can you not make your own priorities like looking for a job or anything that you can help yourself with.
There are many people kasi who already settled with the life the day had. Sabi nila, "***toral i already reach my goal or my dreams. Then i will stop here.***", Sobrang mali diba?. How can you stop doing something for your own good if you reach the dream that you want in life? Guess the answer. It's always a hard work for me.
Who or what always makes you laugh?
Sobrang mababaw yung kasiyahan na meron ako. Walang sino or ano, everything can make me laugh. If i'm on my work and then i suddenly remember something that makes me laugh before i can't help myself but to laugh talaga. I remember, when one of my batchmate i called him estapa instead of estefa. I shouted pa that time, my trainer can't stop laughing when he heard me called him estapa by his last name, but it's not his last name.
Sometimes i think of myself as idiot, i mean i can't calling people by their last name but it's always a wrong name. I'm not good at remembering names eh, there are times where i can still remember your last name or first name but most of the time i always forgot about the peoples name who surrounded me. That's why there are times where i really feel sorry talking to them and asking them again, "**excuse me, what is your last name again?.**", And they were start looking at me, like "*are you joking?*" HAHAHA
And last but not the least...
What kind of person do you want to be today?
I just want to be me. I don't care if some people will hate me because of being too much mapili, ma bili lang ako not because i hate the people who wants to be part of my life. Ma bili lang ako kasi i don't want to be in someone's life where pwede akong ma abuso, you know what i mean. I am talking about the people who won to be friend with someone but later on that person that they want to be friend with they will bring them down.
I'm not a type of person na paligoy-ligoy when it comes to things that i hate it about one person. You can always hear me saying about the things that i hated about you. Hindi sa dahil gusto ko makaramdam ka ng hiya or anything, but the only reason is sasabihin ko yung sayo pero yung tayong dalawa lang. Hindi ako mahilig mag pahiya, as long as you will respect me as what am I.
Final thoughts
Maulang hapon para sa lahat! Currently looking for whf jobs ako except rc and nc. Baka meron kayong alam? Parefer eheheh.
My Readcash life: 5 Months To Go Before My 2nd Anniversary and 16 Days Before I Turned 21!
I have my first account here which is I don't know if some of you are still remember it since it's already 3 years eversince I last used that account. *Time flies so fast, right*?
Hi! So there's no any screenshots or picture that I can attach here since my internet can't keep it any longer when I'm trying to attach an image. And it was loading like a lifetime, except if it's only a lead image and Idk why. Maybe it's on my network.
Last last month, I wrote about my readcash journey and far as I can remember, the title of it was, "1 year and 3 months." In this platform.
Maybe some of us or the old users who's not here anymore are still remember this platform but thay are just busy, this platform also taught us to learn about new things like making article, listening to advices and the most of all is, we all met a virtual friend who become the most and more important to us that we are expecting, we also meet a virtual friend who loves updating everything, sending pics randomly and also the one who loves chitchatting.
I remember some user who's not active anymore, some of them are just reading and commenting and some of them are already left this platform since they were busy having a life outside of the blogging platform. As can you see, I'm active before for like 24/7 not until I went to Baguio and live here since the internet was too slow and there are times where I don't have my network.
*But let me tell you one thing, my blogging adventure was so exciting than the other things that I used to experience.*
I had happy experiences when I joined her, and it was also here that I was first touched by the story of someone else's life, to experience someone listening to the drama of my life. Those people who accompanied me with my sadness, joy and things that I have not experienced in my few years of stay on this earth, is the most precious gift that I receive from the above. You already know who you are, so I won't mention your names. Since I got a job, I have also reduced my exposure to this platform. I am no longer the same as before, where I am always active in reading your articles. It is funny and sad to think, that the time is really coming when we have more priority in the real course of life.
But since I was too busy, I can't manage my time well and if I can publish article per day, then it means I just didn't sleep well. I'm really having a hard time to fall asleep when I'm on my night time duty. I want a work from homw job but I don't know how because I can't find one. I still remember when someone used to wrote a entertainment article and I can't remember his or her name. All of his or her articles were so funny and I used to stay on his profile always and waiting for his update. But sooner, I don't see any of his or her article now.
There are also user here who used to give advise and share motovational life experiences and I know a lot of you know this person. There are users who wrote their rants just like me and this platform is is their diary like me also.
And since I'm coming 2 years in this platform already, I am planning to have a prompt before my anniversary which is 1 month ahead. And since my birthday is coming, I may not active again because of my busy schedule. But first of all, I wanna say thank you for those pepz who keep supporting me despite of being too busy!
This article may not be long, but I hope a good great day to everyone!
Final Thoughts
Hi! I wanna say thank you to @ExpertWritter , @Adrielle1214 for renewing their sponsorship and for those who keeps supporting me! Thank youso much! I know I am too busy and not that active anynore to write here but I was thank ful always. Again, thankyou so much guys!
For Me, What Is The Deep Meaning Of The Song "What Faith Can Do."
Song Link:
https://youtu.be/u1JBSQMkQEo
In life, we may feel frustrate and the feeling that we want to give up, we want to stop and we want to refresh life. Sometimes I was wondering if I was fit to work or whatsoever that can make me feel that everything is okay and worth it.
It's been a month since my job started, and it's been 2 weeks since I am feeling this way. Life is more challenging that I thought, I can't even imagine that this one will taught me to be stronger. As you can see, the title was about the song, "*What faith Can Do*.", I know everyone knows this song since this song was too old not to be known. Plus the songs was a christian song and I believe that most of us loves it.
"***Everybody falls sometimes, gotta find the strength to rise***."
There are moments where we fall, where no one will be there to help us to get up. We are looking for something where we can find the strength, sometimes we usually found them on the people who's keeping us alive and kicking after being in a corner where life isn't that good at us anymore. The line "**Gotta find the strength to rise.**", sometimes we fall but it's important to get up, it's important to fight and it's important to move forward.
In this world, when we don't find any reasons to go on, or when we don't look for any reasons and strength to fight, who will do it for that? It's just us.
***From the ashes, and make a new beginning.***
On this line, it shows that sometimes we are from the ashes which God use to make us. But yeah, that's the real thing that we have in this world. We are from the ashes where the meaning of it is sometimes we all came from dust where struggle is eating us alive already. Where we have no one to talk to, we have no one to speak, we have no one who can help us but only ourself. And for short, it's what we called "****Life Lesson****."
And making new beginning from the ashes is what they called, "*Make a new beginning from the life lesson that you've learned.*" That's why I reallly love this song.
***Anyone can feel the ache, you think it's more than you can take.***
We can take every pain into our bones, and yes everyone can really feel the ache. But stop thinking that you can still take more pain, because it's literally not. Sometimes having so much pain/ache can cause breaking down to us it's because there are times where we don't want to rely on others. That we don't want them to see how bad we are on handling the things that others can do, *that's because we all have a different sight when it comes to life.*
***But you're stronger, stronger than you know. Don't you give up now, the sun will soon be shining. You gotta face the clouds, to find the silver lining.***
To be honest, we all know to ourselves that we are stronger. It's just that we don't want to take lesson for us to grow up. When the line said, "*Don't you give up now.*" When I'm in the middle of nowhere because I can no longer take calls due of what I feel, I literally want to give up and rest up. But yeah, all of my hardships now will be paid off when the time comes.
*Soon I will shine*
*Soon I will smile.*
*Soon I will laugh.*
And soon, I am ****stronger**** than I am now.
***I've seen dreams that move the mountains, hope that doesn't ever end. Even when the sky is falling.***
The first line was meaningful, it means for me is we can move to the another mountain just to reach our goals. We don't lose hope, but instead we know that God is guiding us all the way to reach our life plan. Maybe there are things where everything was not connected, but I know God planned them all so that we can learn something.
***I've seen miracles just happen, silent prayers get answered. Broken hearts become brand new, that's what faith can do***.
Are you praying for something? Like having this and that while guide is guiding us all the way? Is you broken heart already healed? Like you can't feel any pain but everything was about happiness because we can really feel how happy and lucky we are. You all feel it right? *Because at the exact time, we guys are healed by the Lord.*
Final Thoughts
Alright! It's my first time again to publish an article. How was everyone? I was became busy but nevertheless, I can still manage to read some of the articles.
By the way, I wanna say thank you to @Lhes and @DennMarc for responsing asap when I need a money earlier because I go to my check up again. I payed 28$ earlier and I was shock because I have tge exact amount that i bring with me and I have no money left.
I'm so thankful when the ongyne said that i don't have any problem except to my keft ovary. But I thank God since I know he's guiding me.
By the way, thank you again everyone!
Life Rants: I don't know what I'm gonna do. I'm just tired.
Being tired with something is sometimes what we're not imagining, most of the time we are thankful because we have work, we waking up everyday, we can smile, we can laugh, and we can do the things that we want to do.
But, yeah as I said, we are lucky to still open up our eyes but behind that there's a sadness and a tiredness where we don't really want to feel and where we don't really want to be experienced of. Like me, I'm tired of waking up everyday and do the same routine. There's no excitement at all just like what am I feeling before, there's so happiness at all just like what am I wishing.
*When I got here to Baguio, I thought everything will become better, but yeah it's just my taught and nothing personal.*
I thought I will never feel this tiredness again, like what I feel way back in Iloilo where everything was so heavy and it makes me feel tired. It makes me feel that I am useless because I always feel tired and nothing more. I thought I will never feel the sadness again just like when I'm still in Iloilo, but things are imaginable and sadness will never ever leave us apart because it's part of our life and out struggles, daily.
I don't know why I feel upset right mow, I really feel upset and I can't imagine the reason why. I have 3 days rest but still I need more. But I guess this one is emotionally because I don't feel tired physically.
I can usually say that I'm okay, but I'm really not, yes we can usually say that we're all okay but you keep everything as a lie. I'm just tired and I want to make sure that I'm still okay, that my mental health Are still fine.
When I'm to figure out everything on my own, it seems so hard to understand and Idk why, it's like I'm tired and I want to rest.
And also, last day I figured out that my mother was not doing well and don't have any strength already. I don't know if I'll get angry because they didn't tell me about her condition, when I asked them, they told me that they don't want me to worry and to think about them, plus my father said that I don't need to worry since he will renew his loan so that my mother can get check up.
I don't want him to renew his loan since it's been already many years that his ATM is pawned and I want that to be done already since his pension is going to the atm that is pawned.
*I don't know what will I'm gonna do, after I go home earlier I just let my partner go and i stayed awakenfor like 5 hours while crying and thinking about the things that is happening now, I don't even know how to handle this things but it was hard as hell.*
I want to shout, I want to cry and cry and cry and I want to think of the things that I'm used to, but I can't. I was wondering why this things didn't happened before and it was just happening right now.
***I feel so helpless, I feel so useless.*** I'm angry with my self because I can't even help my mother to have her check up but instead it's my father who think of finding solution when it comes to that.
**Final Thoughts**
My busyness of me were pulling all of my schedule out to normal. Minswn talaga thankful ako kapag dayoff na kinabukasan. Ang sarap matulog no? Dechar baka may makabasa neto.
By the way, I'm not renewing some of the sponsorship. Sorry if I'm renewing kinda late, I was just busy.
By the way, I wanna say thankyou to @DennMarc for my template! Thankyou so much pre, sensya talaga napagsawaan ko ung sakin 🤣
Personal Questions That Caught My Attention.
While I was browsing on the Journal Diary days ago, there are questions that caught ny attention. Those questions were kinda personal and I love that kind of questions or topic since I can relate well. To be honest, I'm not doing good this past few days because I feel sad and ofcourse you guys already knew the reason. And yeah, it's because of my family again. Lmao, when did I feel happy whenever that I'm talking to them? I didn't, *right*?
I feel so stress whenever that I am talking or chatting with them. I just wished that I hope I can disappear whenever that they want to talk to me, I hate this feeling because I can't imagine why my own mother just cared wbout the things that we wanted and not even care, even just a little bit for her daughter?
I'm so fed up with all her lies, all the reasons that she was giving that is out of nowhere when I find out from my niece that my father was not asking for this and that. I was so fed up with the reasons that she was giving and the expressions that I can see with her face whenever that I'm talking to her. I'm so fed up with my emotions that even me, I'm already having this bad understanding where I know I should stop everything that causing me stress.
Welp, stop this, let's set aside this one since I'm having a hard time understanding everything and I really hate it to be honest.
So while I was scrolling to my journal diary, this questions caught my attention. *It's kinda personal but yeah, let's answer it.*
Do you enjoy spending time alone?
The answer is, ***yes***. I love spending time alone even if there's many people who were inviting me to join them. You will always see me spending my time alone everywhere while looking up the sky or wasting my time watching in youtube. When I'm on my break, I always want to stay beside of the fish pond where there's a sit and *tambayan* there. My mind is at peace when I'm alone, but I'm always with this officemate of mine where he's the one who sharing his secret to me, he also loves being alone and he is the most older one to my teammates. So as being fair, I also share mine. He act like my big brother and I am thankful because whenever that I'm not okay, he's always there to ask me if how am I and always reminding me to eat my food so that it don't get wasted.
Whenever that I'm with him, I always remember my cousin, the one that I mentioned who killed herself because of depression. She's always like, "**Eat your food and finish it**." It can't help but to make me smile while remembering her because she's the one who's forcing me to stand up whenever that I'm supposedly to give up.
What situations make you feel terrible, and what do they have in common?
Situations? It's only one situation who makes me feel terrible and it was my anxiety. Everytime that it was messed up, I can't sleep, I can't even eat and I can't think exactly because of what I feel. I am full of worries and I am full of questions like what ifs or whatsoever.
I'm a person who can be easily affected especially when it comes to my parents, their words is mean big to me and nothing more. So sometimes I can't help it when they were saying this and that and all I can do is to cry everything since I can't handle them. Lmao, *I'm such a cry baby and I'm sorry*.
When other people said this and that to me I'm not affected, but if it's my parents I am super affected like there's no tomorrow hehe.
What’s the strangest thing you’ve experienced?
HAHAAHA too many! I can't mention anything so I just leave it here nothing.
I already told you guys about this one so I will not going to answer this again hehehe.
Final thoughts
Hi! It's my partner's birthmonth and I am thinking what should I do on her birthday, can you guys recommend something? I'm not good at the things like this so I was 50/50 at everything since everytime that I was asking her, all answer she has is always, "**Anything will do.**" I am planning to treat her or buy her something that she can use. But I can't think of it.
Thanks God: I passed The Call Center Certification.
If I will give up, I want my self to struggle more. Maybe fighting is not easy especially when you feel that you're alone or nor not with everybody else, when you feel that nobody wants you to be around and nobody wants you to be with them. Yes, life is the most unimaginable happenings that we owe in this world. Sometimes we're okay, sometimes we're not, and yeah most of the time we really not okay.
How can we say that, we didn't claim anything at all? Offourse we claimed something and that is life. Life is what we achieve for more than many years of living here in this world, yet we keep giving it back even if we know that life is all about struggles.
It's not all about happiness, sometimes sadness were helping us to overcome the problems that we may had or that we may have (I don't know the correct term so please bewr with me.), Why we people keep on thinking to the problems that we had? Instead of trying to get rid of the problems and trying to overcome them? It's funny to think that we can't even think of the things that we may get used to it. It's the same when we do mistakes and someone corrected us, we haveno rights to be angry or we have no rights to react since that person is just correcting us and that's nothing personal. How can we grow up when we can't even accept our own mistakes? That's why they said, learn from the mistake and make it a lesson. Since life can't go on withput correcting the wrongs that we do. That's the only way how can we react correctly.
Welp, I know one person who loves mocking someone and I will not going to mention her name. I'm not a type of person who will respond even if I know that someone is mocking me, oh girl no. I'm not that type of person.
If you hate me because I am quiet, then just hate me. Why would I care? I mean, I know that I need to improve my communication skills but you're not in my part where you can easily give comment just because of what you see in me.
I was wondering why there is people who loves mocking someone, they're mot trying to be prank or whatsoever, it's like, "***Hey this girl is blablabla*** ", how can someone can't be look so true at one person's front eyes? That's was so ungiven tbh.
It's so insulting when you can't even be real to the front of a person who were you mocking at.
I mean, I can be **friendly**, I am a friendly person with a friendly personality but only for those person who's became part of my not so "*Loud*" personality.
Welp enough of that, so this day is a very stressful day for me since this is the certification day where you are hired but you need to apply every learnings that you learned during the training.
I was so stressed because I'm not even familiar with the retention, retention is the moment where you need to save the customer when they want to cancel their subscription, I failed but thanks god, I manage of passed everything!
See, being a call center agent will never be easy because it's never been easy but I am happy that I passed it. I'm proud of myself and I'm proud of my hard work.
Bu the way, this is just a lil update from me since I am busy, I hope everyone is doing alright! Have a nice day!
*Final thoughts*
I can't believe about my achievement, everyone on my batch passed the certification and I am proud of it. Yes, I'm super proud of it!
For those who wants to be a call center, just remember that you can do it!
My Monthly Achievements In Life.
This month, I didn't reach my goal since I became inactive, and my internet connection to the boarding house was so slow so I have no choice but to let the readcash go but things didn't go smoothly.
Everytime that I'm waking up, I want to open readcash, write article and engaging with new and old users here where I used to. Dennmarc new that I am a friendly type of person where you can talk to me anywhere via social media and where you can ask me everytime that you're curious about something.
I'm also the person who loves giving advice and a person who loves to be everybody but I hate to be with everybody hehe. Welp, I'm introvert so I can't help with that.
So there's so many achievements that I claimed this may, and I am thankful even if I didn't reach my goal. To be honest, I received what I prayed when I came here, and let me share it one by one.
I Got Passed To The Assessment.
when I got here, I applied one of the BPO here and I got failed, they gave me a second chance after 1 month and I got to their academy and I passed it. To be honest, I am happy when they said that I'll go with the final interview. That time, I thought I can't passed since I'm having a trouble to explain everything, but yeah, unexpected always and I passed.
I Signed The Contract.
- I'm happy to signed the contract after waiting for like 11hours inside the office, and yes. Nothing would be more happier when they said that you're in.
**I Met New People**
- as an introvert person, I'm not an outsider nor even a public person. And I know that I need to be more practical when it comes to my communication skills where I'm still working on. I'm a type of person where you can see that I only wanted to be alone ALL OF THE TIME.
One Person Trust Me About His Secret.
I'm not talkative, but I love deep talks and I love life topics. I have this one teammate where he is the most older than the teammates that I have, he's also the one who's eating thebfood that I didn't finished since I'm a person who's not a fan of rice. I know some of his secrets, so as me being fair, I also told him about the story that I have especially about my
family.
See? This achievements may not be huge as it was, but this achievements makes me happy since I'm able to achieve the things where I'm not used to it. And thanks to the people who surrounds me.
Do you know what is the great achievements that everyone can have? It's a self support where sometimes it was really hard for us to support something because we believe that if we can't do it, we can't really do it. But you guys are wrong, delete and erase that kijd of mindset. Let's start looking to the positive side where everything was so normal okay?
**Remember that there's a room for improvement!.**
Ofcourse, we as filipino, we already used of being so negative when it comes to the things that we think we can't do it. But the only thing is, we get it wrong and we always getting it nonsense.
Because when we learning a lot of failures, that's where our improvement starting, and trust me. We may not be able to noticed it but yes, improvement is improvement and we are on that line.
So if you have achievements that you didn't reach last month, just keep going!
Because, ***we have no room for giving up.***
Final Thoughts
I'm happy that I published an article today hehehe. It's maybe kinda late but, no probs. I'll just do my thing and keep on writing.
If Multiverse Was Real: What's my wish.
***If multiverse was real***, I wish the other me was happy. I wish she was smiling and she was laughing like what she was supposed to do. If it was real, I wish she really meant the world "*Happiness*.", I wish that she feels the real happiness that I can't feel beyond this world, maybe she was crying sometimes but I guess she was stronger than I am. I guess she got some problem too but she's strong enough to fight about her feelings.
***Because me, in this world***, I can't even fight and voice out what I feel, I don't even know how to explain how hurt am I. All I can do is keep quiet and let all things to go on their way without fighting for my own.
***If multiverse was real,*** I wish she's not stressed and depressed. Maybe I'm not sure if multiverse was real, but if it's real. I wish that the other me was really happy.
***Because in this world***, depression and stressed are eating me. I felt like I want to give up in any moment I want to be found dead and at the same time I want to stay alive.
***If multiverse was real***, I wish she got a great partner like what I have now, I wish she's not a brokenhearted and hard headed. That she didn't experiencing the pain and the struggles that I've gone through. If multiverse was real, I hope that she's genuinely active.
*Because me,* I have a supportive partner who loves me for what I am. Even if sometimes she's not on her mood or she's not feeling good but still she kept showing her love to mine.
***If multiverse was real***, I wish she can handle every situation easily, that she's not a cry baby like me. If they are real, I wish the other me was much stronger than me.
***Bcause me,*** I am weak against anything. There are times where I don't want to be bothered because I know that I will cry and cry like a baby, there are times where I hate talking to anybody even if I know it's a must because I can't cooperate with others.
***If multiverse was real,*** I wish she can quickly escape for those people who wants to bring her down. *Because me in this world*, I can't escape easily without asking myself if I'm okay or what.
***And if the multiverse was real,*** I wish that everything on me was opposite..because in this world, I'm tired and I officially want to give up.
Final Thoughts
I'm in my work right now and it's my breaktime, and I am eating while typing. It's just only for 30 mins so I am happy that i finished this hehe.
Turning 1 Year And 6 Months Here At Readcash.
I started writing when I was still a grade 9 students, it's all about poems and dear tadhana. I love writing and I literally love doing them most of the day. I even finished 3 notebooks in a year because of writing and writing and writing, actually it became my stress reliever when I was depressed and when my anxiety went worst.
I still remember that I will wrote this up, and after that is I will burned it down since it was the emotions and the feelings that I am went through. And I am promising myself not to feel them again but life is not that fair as it was because there are times where situation is becoming worst and worst all the time.
***As a long time part-timer here at readcash, I learned how to express and how to share my problems without worrying since you guys didn't know me in real life.***
*Readcash* is being part of our daily lives where we will wake up, think of a topic, wrote it down, publish, engaging other people and so on. It's like a full time job where we enjoying doing it most of everyday even if sometimes rusty are not visting us. Ofcourse everyone wants their article to be paid up since if rusty is missing, we also loosing our motivation to continue writing and instead we will look for another option or make a new account.
***It was exciting right? It is exciting like how you caught your ex with someone else, just kidding.***
But yes, everyday we will woking up with excitement because we know we can earn enough money to support ourselves and I'm agree with that.
I still remember when readcash using points and there are still no rusty. I was wondering how this and that happening and I was wondering how you can earned this huge point or what. But so on and so on, readcash have a big improvement and instead, rusty appear and the new changes came.
I still remember some of the old user who became a close friend of mine but now they are kinda inactive, I was wondering if how they are because me and them are Don't have any communication at all, so my only choice is to keep hoping that they will be comeback and I'll see them on my notifications again, but of course hoping something is sad and bad so what I will do is to keep watching my notification if they came back or not.
And also, I'm so happy to the users who's with me right now, there's too many to mention. They became part of my daily life here in readcash and they became my close friends and the one who's giving me advice.
Being inactive here is kinda upsetting since I used to open readcash every morning and I used to interact always with the users here and I'm not that active now. But still, I would love to congratule everyone who reach their goals and who reach what their promised to themselves.
I also promised to myself that I'll be an active writer starting may but unexpected happened and I was hired before it happens. So what I'm doing now is to do a time management where I will write an article everytime that I'm in lunch break or breaktime so that I can still publish once per 2 days or whatsoever.
Final thoughts
3 days straight update! I'm renewing some of the sponsorship that was ended 12 days ago.
I wish I can publish once per day even if it's not that long or 3mins. I'm already okay with it.
Tips If You Want To Be A Call Center Agent.
Some people may ask you the same question, "**How to be a call center? Can you give us tips?.**", To be honest, the ONLY tip that I can give you is ***BE CONFIDENT***. Why? Because being a call center agent needs a huge confident to continue to the journey that you will choose.
Once you're there, stop thinking that you can't do it. *****Because you really can do it*****.
Like me, during the first day of my training, I was asking myself if I applied to a correct call center because I find it hard and not so easy for me to understand. But I was wrong, there's always a room for improvement, and yes.
I remember when someone said, call center is the most easiest job, wait what? Who told you that being a call center was so easy? Being a agent was not easy, why? Because you need a huge patience when you will going to talk with your customers. Like, if you have an irate customer, press mute and breathe in, breathe out while cursing them on mute. Just kidding, even if it's mute the client can still hear what you're saying.
*For those who wants to be a call center, just cursed them inside of your head hehe.*
But don't listen to me, I'm just a lil psychopath where sometimes I'm murdering them inside my head especially when some one are so demanding. But yeah, when you want to back out, think about the things that you've gone through before handling a resignation letter or whatsoever because this days are so hard to look for a job that will going to accept you. And a job who's willing to pay huge enough for you to continue your training, because some of a call center will hire you but the expenses are all yours.
There's always a room for improvement, if you feel yourself that you're lacking something and need some improvements don't hesitate to ask someone to teach you how to do it. Because you wont improve without a guide or just practicing on your own you need someones opinion to know what is lacking and why isn't working.
In work you always need someone to guide you to familiarize everything dont hesitate to ask or dont be shy at all because that wont do anything at all.
Like me, when I'm confused about something, I'm always raising my hand and asking my trainer about this and that. Luckily, she's not getting angry or mad but instead she'll smile and start saying, "**Go ahead I love questions.**"
What funny is, whenever that I am holding my notebook, she will looked at me like she already knew that I have a questions and yes, she got it correctly. I love asking questions especially when I'm confused, so I hope she did not get tired answering my question repeatedly.
I still have another tip that I can give you guys, it's about, **COMMITMENT**.
Before applying on a call center, think about, "***Why I want to be a agent?***.", You just can't say that it's because BPO was the first one who hired you and BPO was the first one who accepted you, *that will not do.* Find a reason why you want to be a call center agent so that the dedication inside you will fire up, it's not about the money, or the payslip that you can get from them. It's because you want to be part of it, because you really want to be part of it.
To be honest, when I first became an agent, I just told myself that I will be a agent only anf not dream about promotion. But now, I'm more than that.
I want to be a trainer, I also want to help everyone who wants to be part of a BPO.
It's not like that you will just be sitting there and answering call and solve what they want, no.. it's all about on how you can handle the stress and the anxiety if you knew that you can't go on or if you start thinking that, "**No, this job ain't for me."**
*****Always remember, that our dedication and hardwork will be the one who will help us to reach our goal.*****
Final Thoughts
Looks like I'm going to share all about BPO experience and things whenever that I'm going to publish an article.
But wait, there's more! Always remember the last part that I said, if this job is not meant for you, then think like, what if this job was really for you? Its just that it's so early for you to find out?
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Why "Padayon." Is The Most Important Word.
As we all know, "Padayon." Means "Laban lang.", Or keep fighting. For me as a call center agent, padayon is really a big word where I know it need to because of the emotional state that the all agent are in. There are agents who have a bad anxiety and triggered by the customer who kist cared about theirself. So yes, like others, call center agent or not padayon is a big word because we are experiencing the sad, and traumatic day everyday that was teaching us to be strong and to be more neutral. There may be people who just cared about themself, they became so one sided that they always cared about theirself and they didn't care about others anymore.
We are in a sad reality, yes. *Why I said that it was a sad reality?* Because no matter how many "Padayon." And motivational words that you want to tell yourself, you'll end up being sad, you'll end up crying and you'll end up like you can't do it anymore or you can't hold into your emotions any longer. That's not a sad reality but that is the most hurtful reality and realization that we all had
Like me, I love sharing experiences but only on writing since you guys don't know me in real life and I'm just existing here as a blogger or author who wrote stories about my life and my experiences, about my rants and my problems. But for me, "Padayon,", is a very big word since I am fighting and and we all fighting to our problems each day. Maybe we can't imagine that life is hard as we already knew, but it was so challenging that sometimes you just want to avoid everything and anything so that you can feel okay or you can feel great.
Like me. Lately, I've been too busy because I need to go to my work and that's what makes me not able to write here at readcash, but whenever I'm on my duty, all I can do is to reminisce everything that I'm doing this and that time. Haha, *that's was not absorbing at all.*
Well, I'm not being able to understand what I am learning and I am not able to understand why I need to still go on. All I was saying to myself is, "Padayon.", Because that means "***Keep continue.***"
To be honest, I even told my partner that I want to resign because I was thinking that I can't keep it up, but as long as I'm still continuing, I figure out that there's always a room for improvement, *and that's all matter, right?* Lmao, my trainer even told me that, "**Try mo magresign susunugin ko boarding house niyo.**", *What a lovable concerned trainer.*
But just kidding, I will not resign just because I can't do it. I will try my best and I will still keep doing my best to understand everything. I know that the improvement always comes from within, *not words I mean.*
This is the first article that I published again, I know I'm not that active anymore but what I just doing is to renew sponsorship hehe.
Final thoughts.
Heyoooo, So I'm wondering if how I will write an article because I don't want this account to be inactive.
Bu the way, thank you so much for keeping your support to me!
My Life As A Call Center Agent: different types of employee.
It's been 2 weeks since I started my job as one of a *bayaning puyat* or a **call center** agent, I already met a different type of **guards**, **staffs**, **employee**, **and trainee.** Well, I can't say that I'm already promoted as an employee since *OCP* (***Operational checkpoint***) is still part of a training where it was the performance either you **passed** or you **fail**. But no matter how hard the training and the ocp is, put all of you efforts and make impossible things into the possible one.
**Take note:** *OCP is where you will be handling a real calls from a real customer and that's where you will try to apply everything that you learned from training, and also OCP is where you will be promoted as an agent, or if not, they will transfer you to another account.*
*To be honest, mock calls and tools also handling billing is the one of the hardest thing where I can put a kind of feedback where you almost want to run over and not to continue. I already asked myself if I will stay or not since it was hard but I have a full decision not to give up, since this job was my first dream job eversince I was in highschool.*
So eversince I got passed, I was praying to God that I need to stay strong and I need to stay pull up my strength even more since I knew that life as a call center will never be easy and it's never been easy, like you're fully awake at night until morning, when you got home there's am opportunity where you can't sleep and when you can sleep, *but your duty is already near.*
The disadvantage of it is, if you can't sleep then good luck.
****But wait, lemme share what kind of employees that I met eversince I started working and training, there's a lot of them and it's funny to think that I am an introvert person and they are the one who reaching me out first****.
So the employee that I will going to describe, is all of my teammates. *I'll just write their first name, enjoy reading!*
Mercy.
She's good when she's speaking english, she has a long colored hair and she also have a *girlfriend*.
On my observation, Mercy is a friendly type of person but I'm not that close with her since I always prefer to be alone. But what I love about her is, she reaching me out first everytime that I'm having a hard time or asking where am I. She's also a type of person who's inviting me whenever that they will going somewhere. But *of course, as in introvert all I am doing is saying "****No****." HAHAHAA sorry.*
****I have nothing bad comment on her or in my teammates since I don't judge people and I like how they treat each other.****
Cristine.
I always coming with her whenever she goes to the bathroom, but of course with Mercy. Mercy and her are best friend and I wish *I am too*.
*But since I was introvert, I'm not into a crowded place or I'm mot into other people. I love engaging with people but I also hate engaging with them. See? I have this personality where even me I can't understand.*
But wait, even if I'm a kind of introvert person, I still love them. The thing is I'm a person who likely being with someone who ages 30+ because I really feel comfortable when I'm with them.
All I can say about Cristine is, she's a type of bubbly person where you will keep laughing when you're with her. And also, I looked at her as my ate hehe.
Winson.
Winson is a kind of active when it comes to the training, he loves asking questions to our trainer and I'm always with him since he was a friendly type of person.
What I like about winson is he Acts like a big brother of mine and also he's an active one. He love trolling around and he keeps telling jokes.
Jerick
This person is younger than me for like 2 years, he's good.
Whenever I'm not okay, he kept asking if I'm alright or whatsoever and I appreciate those Little questions of mine. Everybody loves him, it's because he was so gentle and he was friendly but sometimes his mind were floating anywhere hehe.
I have many teammates left but I will just list them doen on my next article.
My schedule were same as last week, it's 11am to 8pm. But I hope for the next next week the old scheduled of mine will back because I already missed being in night shift and the atmosphere were quite cold than morning.
And my life as a call center agent? My account is one of a publishing company like newspaper in San Diego or Los Angeles in California. I really want to work at home but I guessed it's not allowed at my company, so I'll just working out from being introvert into extrovert so that I can connect with everybody.
Final Thoughts
Sorry if I'm not visiting some article right now, I am barely visiting this site and I'm not that active before since I was too busy.
And that's all for today from me! I also renewing some sponsorship that ended up already, it's a bit late yes but yeah I will keep supporting everyone.
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Hi! So because I was too busy to write an article, I'm planning to write one per one week and I'm just planning to renew sponsorship whenever it's about to end. Sorry for being so inactive! I'm just busy because of my work 💓
I'm Tired, Emotionally And Mentally: I rather be with someone who...
So because I'm busy and not that active anymore, I just planned to write per other day or per other many days as long as I can still renew the sponsorship that the everyone have right now, to be honest I feel like I don't have enough rest or sleep for the past few days since I'm a graveyard shift person.
But starting nextweek, my shift will be on 11am up to 8pm and I am kinda happy and sad since I'm not used to that schedule. *That was so early.*
*I will tell you a story, I won't mind. but it's only for those who'll listen. But wait, I also don't need to. Everything can be seen by taking a glimpse in someone's eyes.*
-****OfficialGamboaLikeUs©️2022****
Being okay is not that easy to show, especially when you're trying to looks fine at everyone's eyes but you were avoiding being with *everyone*. They said, meeting new people and exploring outside is the correct decision that someone can be made of, *but it's not.*
Do you guys experience when you're on the outside but your memories were *bugging you?* It can be a worst memories, a sad one, or a traumatic experience where that was the reason why you choose not to be close to the people who surrounds you.
We feels like everybody will betray us, it's become hard for us to understand even our own emotion, even our own self. I remember when my coach or tl said, "***Work with it until you surpass everything.***" She has a point, how can we do better than today when we didn't try our best to learn everything that we need to learn?
*I'm emotionally and mentally tired*, as of now.
If I have some choices, then I'll just choose to rest and rest until I feels like I'm okay and I'm ready again. Everyday when I'm done with my duty, everything were bugging me. Like, ***how to help myself***, ***how to balance everything***, ***how to enjoy life***, ***and how to enjoy the life that was given by me***. But life is not something where we can choose whatever we want.
The thing is,
*We can be what we are*, *we can be what we want to be*, it's because we have **freedom**.
I really appreciate those people who loves sharing their own stories and who's not picky when it comes to the people who they've met, I'm not the kind of person who will voice out like, "**Hey wait for me**.", "**Let's go together**." Haha no. I prefer to walk alone, to go alone, to have myself alone, but I rather be with someone who still willing to wait for me even if I didn't say a words, a someone who will definitely come closer to me and will start chitchatting. I'm not saying any words but, I really appreciate those people who acts like that.
**I rather** be with someone who can look directly to my eyes when I'm telling a story, who can say a joke even if I'm not responding. **I rather** be with someone who will do deep talk first and whenever that it's my turn to butter out, that person will listen and will give advices.
***It's funny right? It's funny to think that, behind of my positivity side... there's a tiredness sadness where I'm always trying to hide.***
Final Thoughts.
I'm done renewing some of the sponsorships that I have on my list, thank you so much everyone for everything! Have a blessed monday.
I Am Back But Not Totally Back: Sharing Experience.
Before I start this article, I wanna say that because of being inactive this account might be turned into spam as well. I'm not that sure until when that I will become this inactive, bit I am trying my best to *renew sponsorship*, *read*, and also *leaving a comment*.
So I'll just make this article short since I have no time to write up. Let me share my call center experience and how I am managing my time even if it was kinda difficult.
My duty was always ***11pm to 8am.***
During **saturday** and **sunday** I have a schedule at *8pm to 5am*. So it means, today and tomorrow I have a 2 schedule where I'm going home at 8am and I need to sleep that time also I need to wake up early maybe like 3pm or 4am to do my everyday chores.
I have a duty today at 11pm **to 8am**, so tomorrow, when I get home at 8am I need to sleep already and I need to wake up at 3pm or 4pm because I need to go to work at **8pm.** Okay that was just the starting.
**3$** is not enough for my daily needs. I am heading off at my partner's boarding house at 9:00pm because I need to walk here until I reached the site.
**Why I don't ride?**
Because I need to pay **54php** or **1.02$**, why would I if it was only 30 minutes away from here when I walked? Plus, every morning after my shift I'm not walking because the place here was kinda high and I'm afraid that the wound inside of my stitches might get feel bad.
If I ride everyday whenever I go there and whenever I go home, I need to spend **2.14$** or **108php** per day and that is as huge. Since I still need to eat if I have a long break time and I need to buy my daily needs. I will spend 1,800php or nearly 28$ each 18days. That's so huge, I need to spend a little than spending that much just because of a transportation.
The Food.
I need to spend 70php or 1.20$ for my food. I still have 26$ that's left in me that's why I'm having a problem on how I'm going to budget them especially with my needs everyday. I just can't sit and not to eat, that will make mg stomach upset and I can't let my self to that kind of thing.
I don't know if I am managing alright but maybe yes? I'm havinga hard time right now so I'm so sorry. I also want to write up some articles but I can't do that right now because of my schedule.
My Schedule.
I'm waking up every 3:30pm and that's where I'm going to start to feel hungry because I didn't ate anything eversince I came home, I will cooked, review a little and I will make my daily reports about what happened during my work.
I'll finished for like 5pm and after that, I will start cleaning the house, feed up the hamster, charge my phone and sleep a little bit again. And I will woke up at 6:30pm.
Everytime that I'm waking up, I'm not eating anymore and I'm just heading up to boil a hot water and review again. *The reason why I have no time for writing it's because, I have too many things that I need to be done.*
I have this little problem but nevermind, I'm hungry right now HAAHAHAH so I'm done with my 2nd day of work and last night is my 3rd day, but I'll just share the first and 2nd day of my experience.
I really miss you all, don't worry, I'm not going to stop renewing sponsorship since that was the only way that I can thank you all.
Final Thoughts
To answer my own question if I am managing alright, kinda. The problem is I'm not eating anymore whenever I go home and I just ate whenever I woke up. I want to eat and literally, I'm really hungry today.
Date: March14,2022
PublishTime: anytime HAHAHAHAH
Preparing for the first day of my work.
So last time I told you guys that I am worried and also nervous, well I'm not going to deny that until now I am worried. Like what if I didn't passed this and that? But of course, I want to be positive and active for the rest of my days while I'm on duty. What funny is, I didn't sleep well because of too much over thinking about "**What ifs.**"
Welp, I know this is the very first day that I'm going to work, and this is my rirst experience about the job that I am applying for. I'm a little bit sad because I can't see my partner before I go to the site since her off was at 10pm and I'm going there at 9pm. But still I can see her during morning hehe so it's enough.
So today, I am preparing for my duty at 11pm later and I'm heading off at 9pm, yes I was that early always since I don't want to be late. I can walk from our boarding house to the site but the road was so dark and there's only 3 street light here, my anxiety can't keep it up when it's so dark even if I have a flashlight, especially if I'm walking alone.
I buy 2 **mac& cheese** and that will serve as my dinner. I don't like heavy meals so I just choose this as my dinner because this one was counted as a light meal. I also buy some **Pantene conditioner** because my hair was not on its good condition. *Ang arte kasi ng buhok ko, gusto lagi may conditioner.* Aside that, I forgot to buy some eggs and a snacks for later, AGAIN.
I already buy some **Chocolate Latte**, and I hope my sleepiness later will be gone. Because I didn't sleep and this afternoon and I know that later on, this sleepyhead of mine will not going to function well lol. *Who even functioning well when you're aslee*p?
I buy **Tender Care soap**, since the Palmolive soap that I'm using causes itching to my body. So I have no choice but to tell my partner that I want her to used it, I want to biy a body wash but it costs too much so I just ordered some at shoppe. I'm hoping that it will arrived earlier than what I'm expecting. I'm planning to stay outside later at 8pm so that I can see all the taxi going here inside at the village. It's so rare to see a taxi and even a jeep that's goong inside here so I need to stay outside a little bit early so I can decide if I'm going to walk, or I'll just wait until there's one.
By the way, I know I will be busy in the next few days so I'm planning to renew the sponsorship and I'm just going to visit here but not that long since I have many things to do, and after my duty I still need to sleep. My old schedule before when I was still at my OJT was 8pm to 5am, but now it was 11pm to 8am. It's a little bit late right? But I have no other choice because I can't choose my schedule afterall.
My partner looks cute whenever she was saying that she can't hug me because of my schedule, if I only can change my schedule then my while? I'll choose morning shoft instead hehe.
Final thoughts
I'm so sorry if I can't reply to everyone's comment, and sorry if I can't visit all of your articles. I'm just busy but I'm still trying my best for that, if you guys will going to asked me, I miss my old schedule.
But yeah, I'm planning to be regular first before requesting a work from home job offer. I can do work at gome actually, but we just don't have any wired connection so I don't have a choice but to work onsite hehe.
Take care everybody!
Tomorrow Is My First Day At Work: I'm Nervous and Worried.
***"Just smile, at the end you'll end up doing your best even if you fail."***
Those words are keep repeating inside my head where I am kinda nervous and kinda worried about my performance to my workplace. I mean, I'm not a ***native english*** speaker, and **I'm not best at speaking english.** In the end, there's a failure where I know that would be part one of the best lesson in our life to apppy on our next move. I'm not a good speaker, where I can say everything that I want to say using english.
It sounds like a failure, but my TL said, "***At the end you guys put all of your efforts so do your best. Passed or fail, bring everything that you can."***
When he said those words, I can't stop thinking that, yeah, he's correct. I'm already here, we all already here so why would I back out? This is it. I already put my effort during assessment, initial and final interview and during training. I need to become more positive right now since this job is my dream job for a long time already. But because I just have a weak mind, I can't continue at where I applied before and what I'm doing is always backing out. Now that I'm here, I need to put everything and to pursue ny long term dream.
My payment every month is just 200$ plus 40$ as allowance. I still have some cash left from writing at this platform and I guess I need to control everything so that i can't run out of money. But wait, my 150$ suddenly lowered at 100$, that's hurt. I don't know when the bch will pump but I'm planning to convert them all if it's continue to dip.
So let's go back, as a first timer agent or worker, I am worried what if I got terminate because of being nervous? I mean, I can't utter a word everytime that I am nervous or worried about my performance. I want to give everything that I can, I want to give everything that I have. *This may be a challenge for someone like me, but as you guys said, this is just the start where I'm going to learn life experiences about work.*
Last day, I told my TL that I'm nervous and he said, "**What did I say if you're nervous?**.", And I remember when he said, "***Don't be nervous, you're already there. Nervous can bring you down so stay calm.***" He also reminded everyone that we are all lucky because there's so many applicant and we are the one that HR chooses. The one who interviewed me, said that they have no problem about my comprehension but I just sounded like I am nervous.
*Lmao, I'm not going to deny that since I really was HHAHAHA.*
*****See? I'm waited for like 11 hours for my final interview and suddenly I'm going to back out? No no, it's a big no. This is a big opportunity for me to explore and to learn new things that I still didn't learn.*****
But still this nervousness of mine are still eating me. I mean, I'm prepared, I think? But yeah. I'm almost prepared but not totally prepared.
My working hours is 11pm to 8am so I already knew that there won't be enough time for me to write and to read here. But still I will try to write and I will try my best to do the things that I always doing with or without work. I just need enough tome to rest hehe.
*Dear me,*
*Alam ko kinakabahan ka, siguro dama mo di kapa handa para sa susunod na bukas, na di kapa handa para ipagpatuloy ang susunod na yugto. Pero nandyan kana, pinaghirapan at pinagdasal mo lahat kaya win or lose just do your best. Siguro maipapayo ko lang as bilang sarili mo na walang ibang pwedeng magpatatag ng loob mo kundi ikaw mismo, andyan yung pwedeng madown ka, andyan yung pwedeng madapa ka ulit. Andyan yung pwedeng may di ka maabot, pumalpak ka at iba pang bagay. Pero lagi mo tatandaan, sa huli dapat alam mo parin tumayo, dapat alam mo paring manigurado sa lahat, dapat alam mo parin tumawa at dapat alam mo parin na yung ginagawa mo is andyan ung pinakabest pqra sayo.*
*Kasi walang manyayare self, walang manyayare kung patuloy mo hahayaan yang takot mo na sumubok ng ibang bagay.*
**Final Thoughts.**
So the election was already done, I hope everyone is happy about whoever wins. Let's just oray for the better leadership at the presidential that can help Philippines to grow. I hope bashimg each other will stopped soon. We already hurting each other becausebof what happened.
Praying for the best!
Election Day At The Philippines: Please Vote Wisely.
Some of us are already done voting but I didn't vote since my hometown were from Iloilo and I am at Baguio right now. I'm not at the rooftop right now since it was kinda raining, and I'm so thankful that my network is kinda fast at where I am right now. So today is a election day and also today is where most of us will hoing to vote and choose the next president who be seated. I'm not **Leni**, and also I'm not **BBM**. But if you asked me if who are mu candidates, I will tell you that it was ***BBM***.
In the past few days and weeks, I saw many times from the social media that everyone was having a chaos about their president. Some want to change *BBM* supporters into *Leni*, some already changed into *BBM* to *Leni* and *Leni* to *BBM*.
Days ago, before the election day, one student suicide and he's one of BBM supporter just because his teacher bullied him for being his supporter. Also, I have this opinion where it triggered some of Leni fans on facebook.
*Lmao, it was just an opinion but some of them mentioned me already hehe. I didn't reply or zay anything since I just shared my opinion and it was their own understanding so I don't want to waste my time for something like that.*
**This is what I've said:**
(*I will not going to translate it since it contains cursed words hehe.*)
But it's true right? Even the politics article, or the history are not real anymore, how can I say that? It's because we all didn't born where ex-president marcos was still alive. Maybe we just knew what's the history that we can read from a newspaper, articles from the internet, but guess what. ***All of those are re-written and all of those things are already far from the reality.***
That's why I just believe when older people say this and that, I just believe when some olders who were born before the **People Power Revolution** happened.
*****Are you guys Wondering why most of the olders love BBM than Leni? Why most of them choose BBM instead of Leni?*****
Because the reason is, they knew what exactly happened during the People Power Revolution.
My father is already 80 next year and he said that best presidential that was happened before is all about marcos. *But wait, let's proceed to our another topic.*
This election was kinda messed up, someone was killing out of nowhere, breaking up because their president are different, bashing those who were BBM or Leni fans, posting on social media about this and that. And most of all, ***being immaturity*** because we want to win our own presidential with force that the other will join.
There's no freedom now, you can't see any freedom that can actually happened right now. To be honest, when the result came out, whoever win will win. But please, no more wars and no more bashing both sides.
Let them choose who they want, let them vote who they wanted. But please, choose the leader who can actually do everything for our country. Stop voting someone who can only make promises and in the end, there's no action.
Final thoughts.
This will the the end of my article, always remember: **Choose a better president.**
By the way, I wanna say thankyou @Jher0122 for renewing your sponsorship! And for those who renewed and who keep supporting me, thank you so much guys!
Mother's Day: Happy mother's day to all mommies out there!
Hi! Happy mother's day to all authors, bloggers and users who's here at readcash. I wish you all the best for the rest of your life. *Wait parang di maganda yung line.* So that's it, today is mother's day and I know some of you were celebrating the day with your mother, with our moms. With food, and without food.
My mother and me are not in a good condition for a long time already, but earlier, I called her to greet her a happy mother's day. She thanked me and we talked a lil bit, I was wondering why it looks like she was on a good mood and I remembered that my sister send them money last day lol. Right now, I can't give or send money to them since I need it for myself.
I'm not in the mood to write an article right now because I don't feel well because of ***dysmenorrhea***. But I already told myself that I'm not going to absent because of a simple reason.
**Last month, I already missed 6 articles so I don't want to missed one this month. I write for more than 8 days and I hope it can continued until the end of the month.**
Right now, I'm at the rooftop to have some connection. Because I really have a bad connection so if you guys noticed it, I barely visiting articles and I'm not that active like before.
***Check this scenery:***
Looks refreshing right? Because it's really does! I can't deny the fact that this view was too good to see. And I wish I can go to a higher place where I can see the full mountain and took a picture of it. I love green nature and also this one is very refreshing to the highest level.
So last May 5, 2022 my partner's hamster gave birth already to a 7 babies but maybe the other one died that's why she ate it. But the other 6 babies are alive and kicking. They're so little but they are cuteee! I can't stop laughing when my partner told me that, "**Ang cute, gumagalaw sila.**", To be honest that a cute reaction, why? I don't know if she's wishing for her hamster not to move like they died.
I also have this peace of mind right now but I am worried for my first experience as a call center agent, I know it will be hard than what I'm expecting but I hope everything goes to it way so thay I can adjust easily.
I'm also grateful to the people who supports and believe on me that I can do it, *we were just starting to the excitement part.*
My tl already told us that the work will be hard as it was, I still need to practice my words and pronunciation because that's the one that I need to improve to me. I know at Wednesday, everything will be different from the normal one. I want to see my partner before I go to the site but I don't know her schedule.
Maybe I can still manage to see her when my duty is already done, right? We still don't know hehe.
Final Thoughts
I'm done renewing some sponsorship and also I remove some of the users that's not active anymore, *lol I'm not even active hehe.*
So again, happy mother's day to all mothers out there! I wish you all have a great day and I hope you enjoy this day!
God bless everyone!
Your Kid Is Not Your Investment Plan: Ryan's True To Life Story.
We all have a different kind of parents where sometimes we are too lucky to have them, but most of all time we are always lucky since we have a parent who didn't choose to abandoned us or who didn't choose to have an abortion despite of poverty.
"**When will you plan to have a work**?.", other parent questions to their daughter or son. Most of the parents think that because they are the one who give everything so they have a right to be so demanding. I even experienced this scenario, my family always cared about money especially my mother. Whenever when I'm calling at the house, all I can hear is when I will be sending them money. The hardest thing of being a breadwinner is you handled everything.
I have step sisters and and brothers but they all have family now. So my parents are just expecting me to give everything to them.
Ofcourse, I don't have any problem with that but what I just want is for them to asked me first if how am I or what's going on to me already. If I'm eating 3x a day or if I'm not Skipping any meals, not the money.
**Hey, I know children's have their responsibilities to their children. But don't take it for granted to the point where you will going to bring back everything including the day when you gave birth to them.**
I can't blame the teenagers who committed suicide especially those breadwinners who choosento end up their life. The simple wish from the teenagers can't approved sincentheir parents don't have any ear to listen about their children's rant or problems. *And yes, why I am writing this? Because I'm experiencing this right now.*
*We can only wish for the best*, pray for their souls and hope that when they comeback to life, their life will be different.
DJ Raqui Secret Files.
I heard this when I was still in g10, the story was qbout the breadwinner who took his own life because of his family's treatment. The story was send by one of his friend.
Let's call him Ryan, ryan is a call center agent and also a breadwinner of their family. His family was composed of 5 members but only him who supports his fanily and his sisters and brothers doesn't care at all. Ryan was always scolded by his mother and father, and ryan is the one who's taking care of them.
To the letter that was sent, it said there that ryan just drink coffee every lunch or break time and doesn't eat any food. When his friend asked him why, ryan told him that he gave all of his payslip to his mother. He pitty Ryan and buy him a food instead so that Ryan can eat.
After months, ryan was very happy and it was so unusual for someone who's happy for just one day. His friend found it weird since how come a person can be so much happier for just a day? *Right? That's different already*. A day after that, Ryan didn't go to his work. At first, the sender thinks that maybe ryan is just sick so he didn't bother about it. But days and days passed, their manager already asked why Ryan is still absent. That's the time where the sender found it weird, he planned to go at Ryan's house only to find out that Ryan is already laying at the coffin.
See? Life is unpredictable, we don't know that maybe now they are still here, but tomorrow they aren't. That's why being with someone is important. Asking if howntgey are is really important, *we don't know what the future holds*.
Final Thoughts
I can't find the audio anymore at YouTube, but it was uploaded. I was crying when I heard that when I was still in grade 10 because I knew that I'm already at that situation. Everytime that things are getting harder, what I do is to think wbout Ryan's story and I always says to myself that I should be thankful because I am breathing and I am kicking.
If I ended up ny life years ago, maybe it's my 5years death anniversary. All I am thinking is I am thankful because I still manage to hold on after everything. I know life is always not that good, life is never been easier. We all experience where sometimes we feel like we want to be die already. But no, let's continue to fight 💓
Question Diary Part 16: Let's make it quick!
I'm having my monthly period now and I feel tired also I have a bad emotions due of dysmenorrhea. I prefer to rest and sleep well than standing up and looking for a good sign of connection. But It can't help, I need to write up an article since I promised to myself that I will not absent this month.
So this article is a Question Diary Part 16, and let's just do it quickly so that I can rest up again.
How can you celebrate yourself today?
Maybe die of many achievements and positivity that I gain starting I live here at my partner. But if I celebrate myself, I rather be celebrating the new happy lucky me pancit canton me, chars.
I will celebrate my self by saying thank you first and by trying everything I can for the best of me. To be honest, this month is not rough. I started this month with a smile and I ended up with having a smile. O wait, it's just May 6, 2022 and there's so many days left before the months finish.
But before that, my hamster gave birth already and I'm so happy!
Do you challenge yourself enough?
If possible, no challenges please. Joke.
How can I challenge myself if the life itself have some challenges? Being challenged by ourselves is the hardship that everyone doesn't want to feel or to happened. *Uhh, my head is really hurting now and I want to sleep badly*.
Welp, life isn't hard but the decision we have is kinda hard. We have no other choice but to face everything since it was the only way that we have to surpass the challenges that we do to our ownselves.
When do you feel most comfortable?
When my partner hug me tight when both of us have a quarrel. The most comfortable thing that I received is when she hugged me tightly while she was crying, I also cried that time because I feel guilty. She's the best partner that I have and I don't want her to lose.
She's the only person who can makes me feel calm when I'm in the midst of nowhere, that's why I am lucky to have her and also I am lucky to find someone who will love me more than what I am.
How is the public you different from the private you?
***The public me.***
I am quiet.
I'm rarely say a words
I am friendly
I am quiet but noisy
I rather be always plugged a headset.
Wait, I'm no longer different from the private me. I'm talkative and friendly so I can't explain no more hehehe.
I wanna end up this right here now, I'm so sleepy and I want to sleep badly. I feel like my spirit will be sucked up by so much asleep later.
By the way, regarding my family..I can't do something about them. They already like that where they are always cared about you when you have money, but doesn't really care a out you about everything.
I have no final thoughts for right now, I'll just sleep and rest my body for a moment. Goodnight everyone!
Lead image source: Unplash.
"Her Hug Makes My Heart Melt."
Last day, all of my patience suddenly lost when she replied to me via messenger that she don't have any care about my patience. I already plan to leave the boarding house and find somewhere to stay with but not that far at where I'm going to work. I'm already independent enough to leave everything behind. She told me that she already lost her patience and she just want to think about herself. That's where I reacted.
I told her that I'm not doing anything wrong for her to lose her patience, I also told her that if she don't have any patience left then how am I? I'm already losing my patience and I already lost it when she replied again.
*But something unexpected happened.*
When she got home, I heard the door slammed like she was angry or what but I didn't pay attention to it. *I'm done, I'm already done*. After that scene, she just suddenly goes to bed and pulled the comforter and hug me. I heard her crying while she was hugging me tightly. I can't explain what I feel, I just feel guilty all of sudden. ***Maybe I was angry because of what she did but my love for her is always at the top***.
At first, I thought it was just my feelings that she was crying but after a while, I just suddenly feel that it's not. I also hug her back, I can't deny tge fact that no matter how angry am I, the love that I feel for her are always at the top. I can't let my anger burst out to I stay quiet. When she said sorry while she was crying, that's where I start crying also. I feel like my anxiety will attacked me last night and I tried to breathe in and breathe out. She hugged me while tapping my back, and I can't breathe because of what I feel.
**I have this moment when my emotion birst out, I'm having a hard time to control my breathe and also there are times where I can't really breathe. I can feel my body shaking but not that much. Yes, my anxiety can be bad as it was when my body started to shake.**
She start wiping my tears while saying sorry. I'm just angry, but I love her. The only thing is, I can't let myself to be hurt again by the same reason that's why I planned to leave when everything didn't go on its right path. I can feel how guilty she was and how hard it was on her side. If I leave last day when she's not still around, and when that happens while my facebook are deactivated I know she will kept looking on me everywhere. Plus, it was night already to go somewhere.
She explained that she was just tired that's why she feel that she's also tired at everything. I also told her that no matter what her emotion is, I still love her.
By the way, I really hate calling the house because everytime that I'm talking to them all I can hear is money. Sometimes I want to hear the word, "**how are you?**." From my parents not the word, "**When will you be sending money?.**", Like hey! I'm still on training. I still have many ways to go and I really need a moral support from them 🥺 it hurt me a lot. I don't understand why they can't ask me if how am I, why they are always like that. There's so many things that's bugging me hays.
Final Thoughts
Sometimes its so sad if there's no any compliment from our parents, like they only cared about our money and payment slip. Like they can remember you because they need money or anything. It hurts me a lot tbh HAHAHAHA.
By the way, how's everyone?! I really missed you guys!. I hope I can go back here like being active after my training! But there's a huge responsibilities where I can't publish any longer because of being too busy.
I hope you guys are alright!
What's Bugging Me.
*I feel jealous*. To be honest, I'm a kind of person where I'll open up about what I feel instead of being secretive.
But before that, this article will be a short version for today since I'm not in the mood to type more. There's one thing that I want to do when me and my oartner broke up. My patience can't stay any longer because of jealousy, I wanna ask you guys. *If your partner are jealous of one person, are you guys willing to avoid them or you'll continue to stalk/adding them despite of the reality that your partner is jealous?*
Let's proceed to the reality that no one can control orhers, right? Even if you told them many times about this and that, there will be always a one thing where it can be happen all the time. **You two can get separated due of being jelous**.
I told my partner that I'm so disappointed because of what she did, I disappoint by her once but today is the I'm more disappointed than the first one. I don't know what's the reason why she added the people who I was jealous. I told her that if she can't change that attitude she can told me, I am willing to leave if she want someone to provide what we called "**Love**." I don't want to settle to a things where it hurts me, I just want someone who can accept what and who am I and someone who can avoid the people who I was jealous with. I already got hurt by the same reason with my ex, and this is the second time where it happened again. ***No, actually this the 4th time.***
I already promised to myself if ever I got hurt again by the same reason, I rather leave than to stay. I'm not a robot, I clearly explain everything to her including what I want and what I don't want. She's old already, she knows what is right and what is wrong. But this thing keep happening and I can't manage it already.
If she want someone to fulfill everything to her, then go. I will let her than seeing myself crying because of the same happenings that was happened before at my ex for almost many times. I already told myself that before I entered to this relationship, I'll think a obout everything when things are not on the right side already.
I'm disappointed and jealous. I'm planning that if me and she broke up, I'll find some boarding house or bed spacer where I can still pay enough and save enough for myself. I know that will be hard again, but what can I do? I can't leave here any longer when the two of us broke up. It doesn't if I don't know anything about this things. I just want to clear up my mind and my brain.
I also have a problem inside the house, jusko wag nasya muna dumagdag at napupuno na utak ko.
Okay lang kung sabihin niya na gusto nya pa ex niya o mahal niya pa, handa naman akong hiwalayan sya para balikan niya ex niya, handa akong hayaan siya para dun sya sa taong mapapasaya sya. Ayaw ko magsettle sa pain at heart ache, enough nako sa bagay na nangyare before, kung mauulit ngayon ayaw ko na talaga ulit. Sobra na eh, sobrang ayaw ko na hays.
Final Thought
I'll Renew some sponsorship later or next day! Sorry for this rant. Bye for now everyone!
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11 Hours Of Waiting Has Paid Off: I'm Officially Hired as a Customer Service!
So last day, I go there at 8:30am and finished like around 7pm. This is the first time that I took too long at applying at a callcenter for my final interview since all of my batchmate at the academy are all finished, and I'm the only one that's left.
To be honest, I am nervous to think that I'm at my final interview already for the whole 1 day process only and I don't know what to do since sometimes I can't think straight about the things that I need to say ot words that I need to composed. I stayed there for almost 11 hours and I don't know that they already forgotten me if they just didn't see me lol.
After that, one of the interviewer called me and told me that I need to go inside of the room to start my interview already. He asked many questions like, "**Example I am the customer, I have an item where it didn't come to date and I feel sad because that was supposed to be a birthday gift one of my special person in my life. How can you solve it?**", "**Why did you choose sitel?.**", "**If blue is for sadness, how can you explain red to a blind person?**.", "**Where can you see yourself as a agent here at sitel for the next 3-5years?**."
*To be honest, I feel a bit sad because all of my batchmate are GrabHub and I'm the only one that put at the customer service. I was hoping that I'm with them also but that's okay. The most important is I'm already hired.*
Out of nowhere, I didn't know that he's also a ilonggo and when he asked me if where I'm from, I told him that I'm originally from iloilo and I just moved here out at Baguio. He laugh and said, "**Ay kabayan.**" After that he asked me like, "**Okay so this question is out of a box okay? According to what you feel? What do you think? You passed or not?.**" When he said those questions, I just said to my self that, "*Oh, I failed*." I told him that, "**I think I'm not passed sir**."
He raised his both eyebrows and say, "**How can you say that you didn't passed?.**" And I told him that maybe because I am lack of something that I still need to upgrade and because that I am nervous. After I said that, he smiled and said, "**I'm sorry, but you're passed. I love how you deliver your answer by explaining them well. By the way it's not obvious that you're nervous. You're good at composing yourself.**"
I smiled widely and I can't utter a word, not a single one. And he said, "**Congrats, you're hired! I'm happy that you're one of my team**."
After that he told me to follow him since I need to sign a contract for a job training that will start ay **May 11, 2022**.
To be honest, sometimes I feel nothing about myself like all I can say is, "**I can't do this.**", "**No, this is not for me.**" And last day, while I was waiting I can't stop praying to God that I need his guidance for me to passed this test. I know this is just a starting, I still need many paths and ways to go on.
Thank you so much for those who keep believing on me! I really appreciate you guys!
I just done my medical today and I feel sleepy and tired, I felt like I want some sleep but there's still things that I need to finish. I'm so sorry for being so inactive, I'll be back once I'm done with my training.
I wanna say thank you to @Lucifer01 @ExpertWritter and @Carewind and ate jane for renewing your sponsorship! And to all who keep supporting me! Thank you so much guys 💓
May 2, 2022. I passed The Assessment and The Initial Interview.
**Time check:** *12:38am*
It's already 12:38 as I am writing this, for now I know to myself that I need to be more productive than I ever before, I need to grind, we need to grind. We need to wait until when the BCH will pump again, we need to wait until when we can go to the things that we can still do.
I'll be waking up at 7:30am later to prepare myself for retaking an assessment, I have some questions and answer that's already prepared for the *Behavioral interview* if ever I passed the exam again. Ofcourse, we all guys need a job or a work or what we called a stable job to provide our daily needs. I talked to my parents earlier and they were asking me if they can borrow 2,000 or 40$ because my step-sister support to them are already gone.
To be honest, I feel like my responsibilities was starting to start and I know to myself that there are times where I'll feel down, bit the most important is I can still manage to ***stand up and to go on.***
So before I continue this blabla thingy, let's talk about our monthly goal.
Monthly Goal And Needs.
I'm listing down everything that I need to spend money now that my partner's cousin are not here already, I told my partner that I'll I want to partake some of her monthly boarding house spenders like being 50/50. I will pay half of the payment and also she will. It's okay to me to be part of her rent since I was staying here at where she is, I'm thankful because she's supporting me also despite of being stubborn sometimes where I was asking her nonstop about the foods that I'm not allowed hehehe.
So every month, I will give her 30$ and the half is already up to her, also I will pay the half of the electricity and also the water bills. It will not cost that much since I can provide also something for my own.
So one of my goal is,
**Find a Stable job**. I'm still saving for a laptop where it can be used at work from home set up. Later I have a assessment retaking and I hope I can passed the harver already.
*When my mother told me that I need to have a work now, I suddenly remember that I have responsibilities so I really need to have a work as soon as possible. My income here at readcash will not be enough if they asked me about the support already.*
**To be more productive, and active**. I really became busy this past few weeks since I have a class at sitel academy, I thought I can make an article but no. One of my problem is the internet that were so slow and unstable. There are times where I don't really have connection day and night, especially if it's raining. I was ranting about this already.
**To be more positive**. Lately I noticed to myself that I became negative gaain when it comes to a little things. Plus, I know being positive is a REALLY must since that was the only reason for us to stay strong.
Okay so today is 3:51pm and I am currently at the hub at where I am applying. I already passed the initial and the assessment, now I'm waiting for the initial final interview to happen. I feel sleepy and tired, maybe I just lack of rest last night since I can't sleep because I feel nervous for the assessment na maybe I'll fail again.
But no, what I think didn't happened. I passed them, and now I am waiting for the final interview to happen.
I've been here for like 9hours na and I'm still waiting for the interview, I hope it's all worth it.
Final Thought
I'll emd up my article here muna! Napapagod nako hehehe.
A Monthly Income From Blogging: I earned 104$ and 6 articles missing (Congrats Everyone!).
As the matter of fact, I can't deny the truth that I became busy before the last week of the month. I'm taking class and also doing some school works that I need to pass online because I'm a bit late. I already chat my adviser that I will send my output late since I'm having a bad internet connection and I'm having a problem by finding some good connection where I can easily managed them all. Plus, the 8 movies are still pending hehe.
As for today, I'm waiting for an email to notify me that I'm allowed to take an assessment tomorrow because I didn't receive anything after my academy class at one of the BPO company here at the Philippines. *I can't imagine that I missed 6 articles this month, since I have a goal that I can only have 3 absent per month but last month it became 6.*
By the way let's all forget that, I'm already happy about my small income, but I want to reach 1bch and I want to know what is the feeling if I reach them.
As you can see, I list down all the articles that I already made and all what I got to them. I can't believe that I only make 24 articles last month and the another 6 is missing, how come? What did I do last month? Did I become more busier than my usual schedule? I noticed also that I'm not the old one who's reading a lot of articles since I'm having a bad connection here at my partner's place. I'm planning to look for a wired internet connection if I already have a work.
Plus, my income here is a big help for me since I am the one who were supporting my own and I really need to keep them as long as I can. I only withdrawing 20$ or 1k perweek for my allowance, although sometimes it's still not enough but everything is already enough as long as I can put something on my mouth.
I'm so lucky since my partner is not a greedy person, but I literally have this one problem.
The bch was so low and I need to withdraw some of my allowance but I don't know how since it's so low. I hope bch will be back on its normal price, it's okay if it's low since I everybody can easily reach their 1bch goals but I'm worried what if they become 100$? No no, not please. But nevermind, I'll just for it to pump a lil bit.
Hi everyone! Last month we strive and do our best to publish an article as many as we want and as far as we can! I know some of us didn't reach their daily qouta for last month but let be thankful that we gained something from it, every small amount is a big help to us.
Let's goal for another blessing this year! May this month is full of happiness to us and not stress or depression, may this month is full of the love and kindness and not pride of whatsoever.
Let's strive harder!
*Congratulations everyone for surviving the another year of this month!*
Final Thoughts
I just got woke up and I feel sleepy, I want to sleep more huhu. By the way, I'll be renewing some sponsorship later. Maybe it was a small amount only and I'll make it on its exact amount soon hehe.
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