Have you ever experience staring at one person in your life and just keep on thinking how lucky and thankful you are the he exist? That's when you realize love hits you so hard. They say love is magical, love is pure, love is fansy and more. But have you ever ask yourself what really love is? Is it how you say "I love you", is it how you hold hands, is it how you kiss or touched him? Or what??? Love is a four letter word with such a huge definition.
Let me tell you my own definition of love. I was 17 when I had my first boyfriend. It felt so wonderful and magical at the same time having someone on your side 24/7. Calling, texting, spending time together, eating on your favorite restaurants, going out on your favorite concert, watching movies and so much more. And that's when I realize thats love.. But a-ha! That's not true at all. I've been with my first boyfriend for almost 4 years now. And as I grow up in this kind of relationship I tend to find the answers what love really means. For almost 4 years of being together a lot has change. We rarely spend some time together, we rarely see each other because of some sort of reasons. We just simply communicate through chats and no calls at all. You might be thinking how hard it is for me. Honestly I won't deny that it's really freaking hard. Freaking freaking hard. There are nights that I would just stare on the ceiling and wonder why everything has change in just a snap of time. I don't know if it's sounds funny but yeah that's it.
For almost 4 years there were a lot of arguments, misunderstandings and also discoveries for each ones character. It's kinda disappointing that why I have to go through all of this. At that point I realize why love has no definite meaning, it is because love is totally hard to define. You cannot just simply say love is when "he says I love you" not even when you kissed and not even him being with you 24/7. Love is when you've been through all ups and Downs of life but still chooses to be together and get through all the hardships. It is when you try to understand every situations even if your not the understanding kind of person. It is when you grow in each others side. That when I believe love really hits me. As of now I started to adjust for all the things that's happening. Because I know that whatever happens he will always belong to me 24/7 even if we rarely spend some time. I hope you'll find your own meaning if love as well because we all deserve it. Kudos for strong couples out there you deserve a toss. ❤