Tears in heaven

Hello people, how's your Tuesday?

Me, early in the morning filled with so much joy because I received BCH from https://noise.app/Naidaz14 hehe plugging. I'm so amazed by the early blessing even if it is only small but for me happiness overload.

My son didn't attend his class because he got a cough so I let him rest today, and me too I didn't do the rushing hour because we are always late to school coz he usually wakes up at 7 a.m so today we do it all the time.

They start messing up again their toys, after doing that my youngest son demanded a bottle 🍼, he is 2 years old, and I gave him milk coz he is sleepy. While we are lying in the bedroom our neighbor plays their stereo and the song they play is TEARS IN HEAVEN.

I felt sad, the loneliness and anguish were back, I remember my angel in heaven who passed 1 month ago 😥

🎵Would you know my name?
If I saw you in heaven
Would it be the same?
If I saw you in heaven🎵

Maybe when we see each other again, he cannot remember me because we are not sharing each other for a longer period, we only meet 1 day in his existence, and the 1 day is not enough, though I carry him in my womb for nine months and the 1 day of carrying him in my arms is not enough.

I don't have many memories with him to be treasure because he is gone so fast.

🎵I must be strong
And carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven🎵

It is not yet my time to be with him, so I tried to stand and be strong and moved on for my family and for him not to worry about me, but deep inside my heart is a slice with a knife, it hurts.

I cried inside the room, I burst my tears and I felt thanks to my neighbor for playing that song, I'll like to dream and hurt more until my heartaches end.

🎵Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart
Have you begging, please
Begging, please

Beyond the door
There's peace, I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven🎵

When I think of him that endured pain, I only believe that maybe it is also good that he is gone so that no more pain he felt, but still, it is not acceptable on my part as a mother.

As of this moment, I am shy to go out of the bedroom because my eyes are rosy and swollen.

I need to cook viand for lunch. My son is still sleeping and didn't bother to listen to my sob.

I don't like crying in the daytime because I have my duties and responsibilities but my eyes didn't cooperate, and I hate it, but at least after I cried some burden on my heart evaporated a little.

That's life, we cannot predict when will we exist longer in our borrowed time on Earth.

Moved on, moved on.

Ps: image from Google

Hello I my friend R😁