Hello beautiful people!
I hope you all are doing fine amidst of the shortcomings and uncertainties we may feel day by day. Always remember that a positive life is a happy life. β¨
I actually just got home from an optical clinic to get my new glasses and I am trying to squeeze my mind to limit just to write an article today and I remembered that I saw a Tiktok video earlier about My Stages Before I Go To Work.
I actually laughed out loud knowing I am experiencing the same way. Lol! Anyway, let me share to you how it worked on my end. This may be a combination of English and Tagalog words.
DENIAL. Whenever my alarm started to ring at exactly 3:50 AM I always say, "Hindi. Hindi. Panaginip lang to. Di pa oras ng shift ko." I don't know why. There are days I am very excited to start my shift and the other days are the opposite. And I guess, that's how really it is. Lol!
ANGER. This made me laugh as well as I get angry everytime my alarm went ringing. Like, "Pwede bagalan mo yung oras ng pag alarm? Tas bilisan yung oras pag shift ko na." I always blame my alarm clock. Poor one!
BARGAINING. And this one is the reason why sometimes I get late from work. Not for one hour, that's too long already. I sometimes got late for five to ten minutes. I used to set my alarm to 3:45 AM, then 3:50 AM, then 3:55 AM. And when the last alarm snooze I will say, "Five minutes. Five minutes. May five minutes pa." And the next thing I know, its already 4:05 AM or 4:10 AM. And I'm late. The power of five minutes.
STRESS REMARKS. This is the saddest part of my everyday struggle. Haha. This is the time when I do monologues. "Bat ba mahirap ako. Bat ko ba kailangan magtrabaho. Antok pa ko. Pagod ako. Mag call in sick nalang kaya ako tas kuha ng medcert the next day para may sweldo pa din? Go or not?" And the next thing I know, I am already setting up my tools and accept the reality that I need to work. Fighting self!
ACCEPTANCE. After all the dramas I made. After all the five more minutes and others, I still rather choose to get up, face my computer and start working. Because if not, who will support me? No one. And I have my mom and younger brother that needs my support. And my mantra as well to continue working is, "Magtrabaho ka kasi may BTS Merch kang babayaran. May concert kang pinag-iipunan." Though, its not really the main reason why I am working but I just wanted lighten my mood everyday and I do not want my mom and brother to feel that they are a burden to me. I am happy supporting them.
So the bottom line, I still get up after all the dramas I did. By the way don't get me wrong, I am not like this everyday. There are just times that tiredness really eats me up. But I always make sure to fight it out and think instead of beautiful things I wanted to achieve for me to get inspired doing my work. And I always make sure to rest when needed. That's important.
That's all for today beautiful people. If you have any thoughts about this, feel free to leave it in the comment section below. Let's interact. Stay safe always! Xoxo β¨βΊοΈ
- MissJo π
I always need 5 minutes more.. When I here alarm I put off my waking up for 5 minutes... And than again for 5 minutes and thain again... π