@MidnightSky

@MidnightSky 7 November 2021

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@MidnightSky 7 November 2021

Solace in your loneliness Great day to everyone, How are you today? I hope you're okay. Well, I've written this article just for my solace. Maybe sometimes I don't know where to go or what to do, but when that happens, all I do is write, not just here but also in my consider diary, my buddy, my none living best friend hehe. I know it's cringe or what, having a journal is old-fashioned, but I love having it actually; I've started writing to it when I got so exhausted, then I got too fond of it, then I continue my writings there. I gave a name to it, and that's my enigma. I guarantee to myself I won't tell no soul the name I have for it. So yeah, I say a lot just by telling things about my journal, ao again the main point of this article is to ask, ***"What do you do when you feel so alone or feel that you were left behind?"*** I thought of this one just making me curious how people or how you handle having this feeling. I've been feeling this lately, but mostly, it happens every night before I go to my dreamland. You know, when people overthink every little thing, they tend to make an unnecessary thought that's sometimes good, but it just gives you an awful feeling. I feel this every time I go to sleep when I have nothing to do anymore, so sometimes I have sleep deprivation. I can't sleep overthinking things that make me feel bad about myself, like the uncertainties of doing something then regretting it after. Every single night, I question myself, Am I good enough? Am I worthy? Is my existence sufficient for the people that surround me? When I ask this to myself, I tend to feel insecure, down wrong; I'm not even happy nor sad just by the thoughts of it. I just thought that I downgraded myself. You see, thinking of things that make you feel bad or question yourself makes life difficult and messy. So to answer my question... When I feel so left out or alone, I have this urge to write. I wanted all my thoughts and feelings to be written down; I had to write to feel something. I'm not fond of talking to someone about my problems and happenings in my life. Even to the closest person I know, I rarely share things about myself. I have never been comfortable talking to someone, even in my family. I want it all out but not to someone. I know that's one thing that I consider my toxic habit. But who cares? I do what I want. It's my life, so yeah. I'm comfortable writing it down all the emotions I felt all significant scenarios that happened. *****Writing is my solace in this world full of chaos.***** Loneliness will pass, all things will pass, and that's okay. Just be true to yourself, I know you have ways of letting it all out, but yeah, my toxicity as it's finest. *What about you guys? What do you do when you feel that way?* Have a great day, everyone! If you want some song to start your day with, listen to this one; it's a great song... Here's the link, https://youtu.be/MPva3g9jBGk https://youtu.be/MPva3g9jBGk

@MidnightSky 6 November 2021

Shou out nga po pala to my first ever sponsor @bloghound, than you so much s paayuda madam. May God bless you always!

@MidnightSky 5 November 2021

Feel your storms Allow yourself to feel your storms. You are human. This phrase got me through everyday challenges in life *How are you guys?* *I know some of you have been burnout,* *stress and unmotivated lately* *things are not going on the way you want to;* *****Expectations become disappointments.***** We are going through a lot right now, and some of us still do their best, and some are just living a motionless life; I don't know, but negativity always attracts me, and I don't even have the strength to go up every morning, but I need to because I have an obligation as a student. You know it's hard being a student and also a daughter that is obligated to do some chores while doing a lot of paper works that should be pass before the deadlines; hahaha, I remember when I was in senior high school, I was so tardy when it comes to due dates and that one of my bad habits as a student, I always think that I have time for everything and I always put in my mind that deadline exists so we could procrastinate hahaha So let's go back to this phrase... *****"Allow yourself to feel your storms. You are human."***** I want to share this phrase with you guys. This is one of my favorite phrases that gets me through the day, even a long tiring day. Storms is a metaphor for the daily challenges and tasks we encounter every single day, like having lack of sleep because of one school paper that should be passed before the due date, *A family problem* *A mental health issue* *Anxiety* *Fear* *Depression* And things that we feel that makes ourselves down so bad These are some of the storms we need to fight on; we need to survive. But sometimes we need to let them, allow them, feel them with ourselves because we are just humans, we have emotions, we have feelings, and to feel something is better than nothing. ****Pain is aphrodisiac**** for me, I don't know but I mean being a masochist, I love pain and suffering but not too much cause some may think that I'm crazy but again, as I was saying *****"It's better to feel something than nothing."***** Anyways rest guys, if you are tired and burdened out. Rest and continue your life when you feel like it. It's yourself who has control of you, not everyone, and not your storms, so rest and feel a little bit of your solace. Have a great day, everyone! If you want to listen to this song here is the link hope you like it chillax guys https://youtu.be/w-EoAXhKOLk https://youtu.be/w-EoAXhKOLk

@MidnightSky 25 October 2021

A little bit of rest will do, there's too much on my plate right now, I haven't have enough time to write something. Anyways goodnight skies

@MidnightSky 20 October 2021

Easy on me Hello skies!! Gonna share something here So I was just listening to Adele's new music "Easy on me" so after listening to this I was amazed and felt like I been living my life so fast that I always push myself to grow fast, be better as soon as possible... While listening to it, the lyrics are so good and just so reliable and also relatable on what I'm experiencing right now, it's seems like it has a very deep meaning behind it So this is the lyrics of it and gonna share my understanding on it ***There ain't no gold in this river*** ***That I've been washin' my hands in forever*** ***I know there is hope in these waters*** ***But I can't bring myself to swim*** ***When I am drowning in this silence*** ***Baby, let me in*** This is like a ruined and lonely childhood for me Like there's no one who's gonna teach you how to be a better person How things and life works... ***Go easy on me, baby*** ***I was still a child*** ***Didn't get the chance to*** ***Feel the world around me*** ***I had no time to choose*** ***What I chose to do*** ***So go easy on me*** This chorus makes me feel sad, In the part that she says "I was still a child, didn't get a chance to feel the world around me"- this hit big time, growing up so fast not experiencing a good childhood, You feel like you still a child but you need to act as an adult and to be matured, seems like you should know life even you're still a child, you don't get to have time to play or enjoy your childhood because of things that should be prioritize that is not really necessary for a young child... ***There ain't no room for things to change*** ***When we are both so deeply stuck in our ways*** ***You can't deny how hard I have tried*** ***I changed who I was to put you both first*** ***But now I give up*** In this part I remember my aunts past relationship with his husband, she gave it all, she gave everything just for the sake of their relationship, but my uncle is so selfish that he left my aunt and be with his mistress, they get annulled... So in that situation I learned that we shouldn't give everything for someone just for them to stay, we should think and left for ourselves, you see in the end of the day we just got ourselves... So that's it, I want you to finish the rest of the song and just feel it, I never really give attention to some song until the lyrics got me and makes me hooked up and relate it to my life and experiences Also please listen to the song, I hope you'll like it https://youtu.be/U3ASj1L6_sY Ps. Owwwemjiii adeleee is so gorgeous and stunning as ever...

@MidnightSky 20 October 2021

Maybe ***Remind me of the things I used to miss*** ***You know very well I can't resist*** Nakatulala ka nanamn sa kawalan Habang inaalala ang mga ala ala na binaon na sa limot, Kasabay ng pag tingin ang mga ala ala na pilit sinampal sayo ng tadhana ng makita mo sya Nakita mo siya sa lugar kung saan nagsimula at kung saan din natapos ang storya nyong magkasama ***The feeling of reaching out and coming back to you*** ***Just this once, show me where, where it used to*** Gusto mong lumapit, Tanungin kung san ba nagkamali Bakit di pagbigyan, Bigyan linaw ang mga dahilan, Kung bakit iniwan ***Sober from the hurt we resided in*** ***Kiss those lips goodbye, no caving in*** Naalala mo pa ang mga matatamis na halik At mga paruparong tila nagwawala sa iyong sikmura sa tuwing kasama mo sya Mga hinanakit na hanggang ngayoy pilit tinatabunan ng mga ngiting pilit ***One more time, just hold on, you're doing better*** ***But let you go, pack my bags*** ***Is this better?*** Pero sa sandaling makita Ang kamay na dating ikaw ang may hawak Ngayon ay hawak na ng iba Di maipinta ang nararamdaman Mga ngiting nakikita sakanyang labi Katumbas ay higpit ng yung panghinga Ang minahal mo ay may mahal ng iba ***Maybe we'll try*** ***Leave it all behind*** ***Don't close your eyes this time*** ***I won't make you cry*** Gusto mo pa din subukan Baka sakali Kahit isang saglit Makasama mo syang ulit Kahit na masakit ***Maybe you'll fly*** ***Far away in the sky*** ***We won't care tomorrow*** ***We only got tonight*** ***We only got tonight, tonight*** ***You may be gone tomorrow*** ***But we got tonight*** Ngunit kahit anong pilit Alam mong di na mababago Mga pangyayari ng nakaraan Pilit ng tinabunan Mga ala ala na hindi mo mabura Ngayon sa kanyay wala na Kahit anong pilit Kahit ngayong gabi lang inaasahan mong marinig sa kanyang mga bibig "Mahal kita at ikaw lang ang natatangi" Kahit pilit Kahit masakit Malaya ka na aking natatangi... **This is just my random writing, anyways listen to this song guys if you want,** **Maybe by Reese Lansangan and Jensen Gomez** https://youtu.be/WZ7Ui0jUr7E

@MidnightSky 10 October 2021

Mental Health day Today is world mental health day Hello everyone Happy world's mental health day, hope everyone's here having a good time, spending with their family, someone, special someone, friends, and especially themselves. This day we are celebrating the world mental health day, this day we need to validate the importance of our mental hate, actualy it should always be prioritize always not just today but everyday. I know some of us are feeling down sometimes, maybe because of lack of sleep, lack of happiness in life, we're struggling just to survive another day of living in this world, but even all of these things that we feel and experience, we still survive the day, and that's a big thing to celebrate and to be proud off. Every day struggles even if it small or big we still think of it before we go to sleep, we tend to over think things, but guys I just want you to just ask yourself sometimes if... ***"are you still fine?"*** ***"did you still take care of your mental health?"*** ***"are you still making yourself happy?"*** ***"are you sure on what you're doing is fine?"*** ***"did you still enjoy what you were doing?"*** Or you just faking all of this cause you're afraid of judgements... Guys give time to take evaluate, validate, and take care of yourself too, It's lucky if you have someone to share your struggle too, Someone who will listen, Someone who will care and don't judge Yet, it's still okay if you don't have that someone cause I just want you to kmow that I'm still here, even though we not know each other you're free to talk and released all unsaid words you are hiding, I'm here and ready to listen hehez, it's okay I won't tell no soul, and I won't judge, you know I believe in the phrase that it's better to talk and share your pain and struggles to a strangers, cause they don't know you, and they won't judge, and I could be yhat stranger. I just want you to know that you're not alone, and you have me, and also God, talk to him if everything gets hard, have faith in him. I just want to say that I'm so happy that you are still existing in this world, you're still reading this, if somethings going wrong, please just think that this is just a bad day, and there's alway a better things going for you tomorrow, ***It's just a bad day, not a bad life*** I hope you bring back yourself who's cheerful and positive person, I hope you like again the thi gs you once love to do, I hope everything became okay again, I hope you take care of your mental health again Despite of everything happened in your life be proud to yourself that you are still here, cause me I'm peoud of you. Don't be afraid to seek help if you needed, don't be scared to feel the pain, feel it and after that be sure that you rest and will fight again, it's okay to not be okay sometime, but don't forget to take care of your mental health Always remember you are important, you are appreciated, you are you and don't let anyone or anything take it away from you. There's nothing wrong on loving and prioritizing yourself, self love is not being a selfish. Because if you know how to love yourself, happiness will come next, and people will learn to love you. Mental health is important, we should always be aware, so this world become a better place. Take your time to give yourself a time to appreciate what you've done. Celebrate every small thing, celebrate every existence... **Always protect your own solace, and prioritize your mental health, because you are important** Happy world mental health day again everyone Take care always :)

@MidnightSky 8 October 2021

Cringe "I love you" "Ti amo" "Je t'aime" "aishiteru" "Phom Rak Khun" "Saranghe" "Mahal kita" This is just words with a same meaning but in a different languages to say you love someone, or something. This might be cheezy but out of all these words the "mahal kita" (tagalog) is one of the most that I prefer to be said to me by my future other half... Even he's not a filipino (hehhehe day dreaming again to my foreign crush) Imagine hearing this words rolling out of his mouth where looking at you eye to eye without hesitations, doubts or anything but love and tenderness. Saying this to each other feels like heaven, a solace, but nowadays people just randomly not value anymore the words of love... I noticed that some of the new generation just used this word like it's not valuable, they just said it to someone they want to, ofcourse we're free to say this wherever we want but isn't much better if we said it to peole who really deserved it. We just need to set standard, I know setting standards on people makes you look like a worst person, duhh it's no fun if you just settle for less, There's a saying that... "Why do we need to settle for less, if there's more better, or maybe the best" Hahahha kidding guys Just want to tell you that saying I love you , mahal kita, etc... Is one of the best thing as a human, being love and falling in love is the best and sometimes worst, so saying I love you should be meaningful, truthful and real. Express it in a way you really want. Also I'm just pertaining to the future partner ha You can always say you love your family, friends, etc... It's just my random thoughts okay, I don't really say it personally even with my parents, yeah I'm just the unlovable kiddo hehehez just kidding I love you all This is just my nonsense writing hahaha Anyways have a goodnight sleep everyone, my mind feels like giving up this research in my subj in college just getting on my nerves hehehezz plus the reports so just gonna leaved this here Don't take this seriously guyss keep safe Love who you want, feel free on saying and showing it, YOLO, so enjoy guysss Goodnight:)

@MidnightSky 8 October 2021

Also gonna post some one shot story here so, it's free to read guys thanks

@MidnightSky 8 October 2021

I started this account, so I could be free in writing all I want, free all my emotions I hide everyday, this is my safe place and anyone can be here too, gonna update this even when I'm not feeling blue, keep this account for my random rants about stuff I'm not able to talk to someone, this is just like my diary or my friend, my shoulder to leaned on so yeahhh Love this name hehehe midnight sky It's a title of a song actually, it's just this songs gives me the feels I can't explain hahaha kidding I just love skies in the midnight.