@MidnightSky 7 November 2021

Solace in your loneliness

Great day to everyone, How are you today? I hope you're okay. Well, I've written this article just for my solace. Maybe sometimes I don't know where to go or what to do, but when that happens, all I do is write, not just here but also in my consider diary, my buddy, my none living best friend hehe. I know it's cringe or what, having a journal is old-fashioned, but I love having it actually; I've started writing to it when I got so exhausted, then I got too fond of it, then I continue my writings there. I gave a name to it, and that's my enigma. I guarantee to myself I won't tell no soul the name I have for it. So yeah, I say a lot just by telling things about my journal, ao again the main point of this article is to ask, ***"What do you do when you feel so alone or feel that you were left behind?"*** I thought of this one just making me curious how people or how you handle having this feeling. I've been feeling this lately, but mostly, it happens every night before I go to my dreamland. You know, when people overthink every little thing, they tend to make an unnecessary thought that's sometimes good, but it just gives you an awful feeling. I feel this every time I go to sleep when I have nothing to do anymore, so sometimes I have sleep deprivation. I can't sleep overthinking things that make me feel bad about myself, like the uncertainties of doing something then regretting it after. Every single night, I question myself, Am I good enough? Am I worthy? Is my existence sufficient for the people that surround me? When I ask this to myself, I tend to feel insecure, down wrong; I'm not even happy nor sad just by the thoughts of it. I just thought that I downgraded myself. You see, thinking of things that make you feel bad or question yourself makes life difficult and messy. So to answer my question... When I feel so left out or alone, I have this urge to write. I wanted all my thoughts and feelings to be written down; I had to write to feel something. I'm not fond of talking to someone about my problems and happenings in my life. Even to the closest person I know, I rarely share things about myself. I have never been comfortable talking to someone, even in my family. I want it all out but not to someone. I know that's one thing that I consider my toxic habit. But who cares? I do what I want. It's my life, so yeah. I'm comfortable writing it down all the emotions I felt all significant scenarios that happened. *****Writing is my solace in this world full of chaos.***** Loneliness will pass, all things will pass, and that's okay. Just be true to yourself, I know you have ways of letting it all out, but yeah, my toxicity as it's finest. *What about you guys? What do you do when you feel that way?* Have a great day, everyone! If you want some song to start your day with, listen to this one; it's a great song... Here's the link, https://youtu.be/MPva3g9jBGk https://youtu.be/MPva3g9jBGk