Morning Drive
The clouds are to bland today, the skies seems so dark. I'm writing this while sitting in the passenger seat hahaha. It's been a while since we did this because my cousin was always busy on his work so we barely meet and bond like this again.
While sight seeing the view outside the car, I happened to think to get myself a drivers license and just drove different places to see different aesthetic views that is worth watching for a number of times.
Look at these pleasing view I took while I'm inside of the car. It always pleasing to see with our own eyes this nature view, the field was so green, and the vibes is really refreshing.
I also have this heart to heart talk with my cousin, about his work and really he suddenly become a motivational speaker hahaha, he became serious about businesses and he discussed about me and give advices on what should I do after college.
I swear even when the times like this I felt so inspired and amazed on how he's seriously talking about something becaused he used to be an annoying one and used to teased me, but now when he's being so serious like this while focusing on the road, I dont have the heart to ruined the mood and teased him.
It's so good to have a drive with my cousin, we go to drive and just visit our relatives.
I was really in a good mood today because this is the perfect weather for me, not rainy, not sunny just plain and bland but relaxing.
I opened the window of the car and the cold wind hit my skin, I shivered hahaha I still can't bare the coldness. I put my hoodie on and closed the window.
The drive was so fast, that's the benefit of traveling early in the morning there's no traffic.
I just want the feeling I feel right now, it's so calming just sitting here, writing my thoughts while listening to music hahaha I connected my phone to the stereo of tge car so that I could play my playlist. My cousin is singing through the song playing on the stereo while driving.
I think I stop here, I will stop writing here hahaha I think I'm gonna puked car motion sickness hahaha I always have this, even in rides on arcades so goodbye for now. Have a great day everyone.
Someone to stay
*Having someone is a good thing, but having someone to stay to is everything.*
*People come and goes and that's okay because that's how life it is. We just welcome and bid goodbyes to people we met and created bond with, even a short of for a long time people will leaved but to have someone who's going to stay with you until your last breathe on earth is one of the most precious thing that everyone could have.*
*We lived in a life that is full of uncertainty, and to have someone to have our backs and to be with in rainy and shiny days of our life.* ***The one person that is willing to sit beside us on roller coaster ride of life, person who's willing to be with us until the end of the ride.***
*Having someone to stay is the best feeling,*
*being with someone who brings the best in you,*
*being with someone who will stay with you even you're the most boring person they met, but they rather choose to stay with you than to met with others, just the staying beside you feeling their existence is enough.*
*Having someone to stay late at night because of the thoughts of them makes you shiver with excitement.*
*Even just their existence beside you is enough without saying anything you felt like you know what they were trying to say. Their existence is the way they wanted to express the message that* ***"I will stay with you no matter what".***
**But of course even after all what I said, nothing will stay constant, the only constant thing is change and we have nothing to do with it. We just need to learned how to deal with it. But at least we experienced to have someone to stay to.**
Good morning my dear friends. I think I'm just gonna post it here, this been in my notes for a long while. I almost forgot this one but yeah I'm cleaning my phone last night so I happened tk see this. Anyways have your breakfast everyone. Stay hydrated and keep safe! Spend your day right.
Sometimes, all we want is a taste
Ever had a wine that even just by look of it, you would really eager to taste it.
The smell of the wine that lingers through your nose down your throat.
Wine taste better when it's old.
Just like in life all we want is a taste of everything after all the journey, sufferrings and hard ship. All we want is the taste of life where we could propably say that "this is good and sweet"
A taste of wins, achievements, and victories,
A taste of success.
But before having this, we need to go through different taste in life,
Sometimes it taste bitter,
Sometimes it taste sweet,
Sometimes it taste bland
Sometimes it taste exactly what we want.
As we grow old what we do in our present will be the taste of our future. If we work hard in the present then we could possibly taste what exactly we wanted in the future, we do things that could help us to be better person. Once we got that taste of success we need to savior every piece of it.
Also life is like making a wine the more we stay strong and don't just give up the better taste of life is coming through us.
A taste of wine is like life, sometimes it makes us happy and relaxed, sometimes we drink it when we are in down but don't forget yhay it's more fun to drink wine when you have someone to accompany you.
Friends also are like wines, better when they are old, the more you stay for long together, the more the friendship bond is getting stronger.
This is just a random thoughts because I just had a glass of wine after eating dinner with my cousin hahaha. Goodnight everyone have a great night for you all!
Fear of Giving Second Chances in Love
*Sometimes the funny feeling of love makes us do things we never thought we could, we become illogical and we find ourselves doing the exact opposite thing that we believed in. You found yourself missing and longing for the same exact person who showed you love and also the same person who gives you pain and fear to love again.*
*I don't really understand why giving second chances in love is needed, if the person really hurts you and caused you so much pain, why you need to give another chance to that person but still you have this fear of the repetition. You are afraid to the what if's but at the same time you are willing to risk the what if's.*
*My friend told me how he gave a second chance to his ex girlfriend. Me and our other friends was so mad at first because we know how our friend suffer when his ex girlfriend do awful things. Imagine the girl denied him as her boyfriend and just go meet another man. We are still angry to that girl but what could we do. He still love that girl and we as his friend need to forgive also hahaha funny isn't it. We as friends are more mad to his ex than him. I don't know but we are just being protective we don't want him to suffered again it's very sad and awful to watch.*
*So yeah he gave his ex another chance but he still telling me sometimes that he was afraid what if that girl cheats again and left him again. He blamed himself for their break ups, he said that he's not good enough, he said he's afraid to be in a notion where the girl could get tired for the whole thing about them.*
*I just listened to him I don't give any advices because I don't want to say something I'm not sure of. And I wouldn't want to say something because I never been in that same shoes as him.*
*You see people give second chances in love because they wanted to try again, they wanted answers on their what if's. Those what if questions that eating them alive. But those fear affiliate is still there. The feared to be left out again, to experience again the pain of break ups. They think that they can't handle to watch again their loved to walk away for the second time. Of course people who give second chances are the strong ones.*
*****Everybody deserves second chances but not all are sure to be taken seriously, sometimes some people just taken it for granted.*****
***Giving second chances is like trying to fix a broken plate and make it whole again but the cracks can still be seen and we are afraid to used it again like nothing happened because it might broke again and could wound us again. So we are careful not to make the same mistakes again.***
That's it for now, I'll meet up with my friend again this weekend I hope there's no awkward moments hahaha because she'll bring her ex but now as her girlfriend for the second time around. I'm sure everyone in our circle will go because it's a small birthday celebration in one of my friends house.
Anyways have a great day everyone. Gonna have some walk today outside and also do groceries because my aunt told me so. I'm suffocated staying at home for a days hahaha. By the way take care guys! Stay hydrated.
Not talented, just curious and bored
Hello my dear friends, I'm just writing here before going to have breakfast. How are you everyone? Still asleep? I'm still sleepy but I need to start my day right so here am I again.
I was just thinking if what is really my talent hahaha I'm good on things like playing piano, guitar or even doing sports. They said that I'm talented but I don't think so hahaha. Not to brag things but I don't really have a talent I'm just curious.
I have this attitude when I get curious on something, I had to do everything or need to find a way just to know about it and just try it and learned from it but when times come and I already learned to do it, that's the time that I will get bored and just damp and stop it, then just look for another thing that will get my attention and be curious again.
I don't know I just don't have a talent. I think I can't be constant on something, of course at first I will work hard and do my best just to know about something then after knowing it, I will just lose my interest.
*When I was a child I want to try everything I get curious to. I used to cry to my mom and dad just to get things that I want. Just like my first ever instrument, lyre I never like music but when I see that instrument I got curious and my mom was also want me to join the school band and I do it but after I learned it I just lost interest and stop it.*
*I cried for a toy skateboard and waveboard. My mom was so mad because that toy is dangerous and she said that it's not a girl's toy. But I got so much curious about it and crave to learned how to ride and play with it so my aunt just bought it for me instead, because my mom was so mad hahaha. I learned it but I get bored after so I don't dump it but it's just served as a display in my room.*
*I also learned how to play guitar when my aunt bought one for me as a gift. Although I lose interest on it I still play for some time when I don't have nothing to do.*
*I wanted to try badminton , volleyball and specially my favorite basketball, after watching my friends and my cousing playing with those sports. I get interested and learned it, but time passes and I got so bored and just stop playing it but I do enjoy playing it.*
*I got so curious about how to play piano then my mom give it for me as a gift so I learned how to play it but I also got bored when I already knows how to play it so I stop but sometimes I feel like playing again for relaxation and just to kill time.*
*I bought myself an inline skates using the gift money my uncle give me in my birthday after watching tiktok videos hahaha then I learned how to used it so after 6 days I got so bored because it makes me tired also so I just planning to give it to my cousin since she really wanted it.*
*I'm saving more nowadays because I want to buy myself a violin hahaha I really wanted to learned it but I don't want my parents to bought it for me, I wanted to make money for it and I promised to myself I will never waste my time and money and I will play it but I can't promise myself not to stop it when I get bored I will just gave it to my little sister since she also love playing musical instruments.*
****That's it for now guys, good morning and have a breakfast. Start your day right and always wear face masks when going outside. Take care and stay hydrated everyone.****
Dance with Life
***You hear the sound,***
***You feel the rhythm,***
***You started to move your body as the beat starting to make you dance,***
***You swayed to the left,***
***You swayed to the right,***
***You feel it, now when the beats started to get fast you change your phase and let your body move to the beat of the music in the background.***
***You see dancing is like living,***
*We dance with life, sometimes the beats goes so fast that we tend to do things faster just so we can follow the beats, just so we can follow with living, and while we doing it so fast we sometimes skips steps and skips and forgets some moves because we are only focus on the dynmics of the beats.*
*Beats of music is like living,*
*sometimes it is slow that we tend to be bored and down, and just bland,*
*sometimes it's fast that we put our action so fast that we tend to forget the main goal to perform the dance nicely, just like in life when we do things so fast like we are in a hurry, we tend to forget the our main goal is not to keep up but to succeed in life,*
*But sometimes the beat is just chill, relaxed and normal, this is the same as the life we live when we achieved or satisify or maybe done something that makes our life great, simple but worth it.*
*You see, we dance different beats in life, fasy, slow, normal but the important is that we focus on the goal, we focus on ourselves not to do it perfectly because in dancing we need practice, and in practice we often do mistakes but we just go on flow and continue to do it again and again until we mastered it.*
*Just like in life we do mistakes and we learned from it and we try again and again just to make it right.*
*We dance to life, we go with the flow, we do a lot of mistakes, we hurt ourselves, but the most important is we enjoy it, we memorized the steps, we built memories and we win if we trust ourselves.*
*Dancing with life is not easy but we just need to go with flow and let ourselves swayed to the beat of it.*
**I just wrote this one because I was watching a dance practice of a kpop girl group that I started to stan since my four babies in the blackpink has no comeback announcement so I started to stan some group like aespa hahaha check them out guys they were so amazing. So again let's enjoy the dance of our life everyone, let's dance until we get tired and enjoy dancing with life. Never forget to be creative in life. Make it amazing and memorable and specially worth it.**
I will go to sleep after rewatching again the amazing spider man hahahaha because of the article of @meitanteikudo it's still great just like the first time I watch it. Also this is my favorite peter parker and gwen stacy of all the spider man I watched.
Anyways Shout out for my new sponsor @sj0820 thank you so much, hope for a great year ahead of us, and more blessings to come for you and for everyone!
Goodnight everyone!
Romantic Scenarios in My Head
****Do you ever experienced sometimes imagining or creating romatic scenarios in your head then you will just notice yourself smiling like an idiot whil doing something having that thoughts in your head.****
****Sometimes I really love to imagine scenarios where I have someone to share my life to.****
*I imagine meeting a stranger in the unexpected places then havinv a time to get a long and have small deep conversation with them.*
*I imagine creating a friend into lovers relationship with them.*
*How sweet it is to have a thoughts being with someone you don't really expect to be with.*
*I imagine building a house and creating memories together. Imagine waking up to next to that someone, smiling at you share your goodmorning kisses, having someone who's always ready to share with you his life, willing to be with you even sometimes you feel your walls are crumbling down.*
*I imagine to be with someone who's willing to hold my hand and help me stand when I'm on my knees and feeling down.*
*I imagine to be with someone who's willing to share the laughter and cries with me.*
*I imagine to be with someone who always hold me close and don't let me go, to be with someone whom I can share how my day was after a tiring job, whom I can call as my home, I swear I could imagine the feeling of being home would be much more exciting knowing that person is your home.*
*I imagine being with someone who's the reason to get up every morning and to think about every night.*
*I imagine just having a simple dinner with a great view in the top of an apartment, holding a glass of wine, then that someone will just hug me from the back and just say sweet nothings just to comfort me after a tiring shift at work.*
*I imagine being with someone who will look at me like I'm his world, because in the eye of the world I'm just a human but for him I'm not just a human but I'm his world.*
**Okay enough on creating and imaging scenarios hahahha I'm scared of commitments so just imagination for now, trust me this so enjoyable and makes me happy hahaha Am I the one who's being like this? I mean there's no fee on imagining things hahaha come one guys.**
**That's if for now. I would imagine again haaha just kidding, anyways how's the day so far guys? I hope you're all doing great. Have fun everyone! Also stay safe**.
I will put these wonderful person in my imagination spending their life with their own persons. Hahaha just kidding I'm always grateful to all my readers, to R and specially to my sponsors. Have a great day you all!
But sometimes we can't have it all, right?
*To the person who makes me feel like I'm in a cloud nine...*
*I wish I could hold you when you're feeling down,*
*I wish I could wipe those tears,*
*I wish I could be that person who's beside you when you felt alone even you're in a crowd,*
*Those fake smiles I see when you hear lies and fake rumors about you,*
*I want to just punch people on their face everytime they said nothing just a false information about you, they just talk and talk what they wanted without knowing you were already hurting,*
*I don't know how to say this but your beauty and warm heart radiates in my time of loneliness,*
*I choose to love and adore you even in distance,*
*Even you don't seen me or even know me I still want to be thankful for giving me inspiration, thankyou for being there when I'm at my lowest just watchimg you makes me feel at ease, thank you for making me laugh.*
*My friends and my family are asking who's in my phone homescreen and I said you're my lover hahaha and then my head hurts because of the hits and slaps I received from them.*
*I'm always thinking about you and although, for selfish reasons, I wouldn't want you to date hahaha just kidding if the right person comes then go for it, I will always support you.*
*I don't have anything to say hahahaha I hope someday you will notice me and read all my message to you, but when faith really is good to me then I wish it will let us met and I will let you hear in person all those messages I've send and written to you.*
*Miles and miles but still I fell for you this hard, I always watch your videos, your vlogs, I always watch you from the screen, I never had a chance to seen you in person, I am those one in a billions of people who loves and adores you, I love you* ***Jennie Ruby Jane Kim****. I will always and constantly loving you. Being your fan and had a chance to get to know ypu since ypu started with a scratch is one of the most beautiful moment I ever experienced in my life I watch you four, I know you are all good members of blackpink but you get my attention, you shine the brightest in my eyes. You are one of a kind human.*
*I never knew I would be crazy inlove with you,*
*You are my love and inspiration since 2016*
*You are my 2016,*
*I watch you grow up not just an idol but a also a woman, a person that I am proud to say my role model.*
*But sometime we can't have it all right? I'm contented to be your fan and love you in distance and on screen, on cam or behind the cam.*
*You are the best nini I love you.*
****Hahaha just this simple message for my best girl Jennie Ruby Jane kim of blackpink because her birthday is coming on january 16 hahaha I hope she'll upload a vlog and enjoy her birthday. I really love her because who else dont hahhaa haters are just envy to her. She's the best!****
*****(Kay jennie lang uuwe hahahaa walang chariz chariz)*****
****Goodmorning everyone have a great day ahead. Stay hydrated! And stan blackpink.****
Trip to Childhood Nostalgia
***Fasten your seat belts,***
***Relaxed on your sits,***
***And we will go to a ride of nostalgia in our childhood,***
***Are you ready? Let's hit the road...***
Hahaha I felt like I was in a movie watching a good race marathon while thinking on my first lines to make this article. By the way let's go back to the topic.
**Nostalgia...**
What does it mean to have this feeling?
It's like going back to a sentimental past. There are still things and stuffs that we see or even do that makes us feel this feeling of nostalgic.
Here are some things that's so nostalgic:
***Watching cartoons on the weekend morning while my mom cooks for my breakfast.*** *I know some of us are the same when we are so young and naive. I'm patiently waiting for my favorite cartoons to play in the tv. Some of the cartoons that makes me feel nostalgic are* ***Johnny Bravo, Ed, Edd, 'n', Eddy., Fish hooks, Tom and jerry, Spongebob squarepants, Mr. Bean, Mickey mouse, Sofia the first, Bugs bunny, and etc...*** *There's too many to mentioned I miss watching it, times where still stress free.*
***Hearing an old song that we used to hear back when we are a child.*** *There's so many song that really hit the nostalgia vibes maybe a pop, rock and balad. This would also bring back the memories when we hear some nostalgic song. It's like one memory unlocked again just by hearing a familiar song from our childhood days.*
***Playing Nintendo after school.*** *This is really one of my childhoods favorite it really amazed me until now. I remember crying for my mom to buy me my first nintendo, hahaha good old days. I used to play it with my friend. But these days I've seen that children are not playing it anymore instead they are holding their gadgets, iPad and anything because technology became modernized.*
***Recieving a photo album and drinking glass during school christmas parties.*** *Hahaha I know I admitted I'm also the one who cries and dissapoinyed after receiving it. But now that I'm entering adulthood receiving such kind of gifts is much more appreciated hahaha.*
***Believing in Santa Claus.*** *I used to believed in Santa but one night really changed my beliefs hahahaha I woke up in the middle of night before christmas because I'm going to the bathroom and here and there, that koment my beliefs shattered right in front of my eyes hahhaa I see my mom and dad putting my wish toy in my big red sock that hang in our window hahaha they were so awkward when they see me hahaha.*
****That's it for now there's too many to mention those nostalgic stuffs. Hayyss it's a bitter sweet memories of childhood. I wish we could retrieved those golden era where we are so free and stress is never mentioned, the life before the expectations and responsibilities of being an adult came.****
****Have a blast Tuesdays night everyone. Goodnight!****
Sunset Hits Different in Highschool
**Missing my highschool days, the nostalgic vibes, the place to hangout after a long tiring day, the lining up of streetfoods outside the school, the bond, the random familiar stranger you often bumped in to, and specially your circle of friwnd who always there with you inside and outside the school.**
**I miss face to face classes where I could hangout with my friends after a long stressful day in school. Those high school friends that until now is still there but we barely hangout since we got into college and also because of this pandemic.**
**Why does sunset in Highschool hits different? It's because of those after school bonding with my friends. I miss those nostalgic vibe everytime we hangout after school, waiting for the sun to set, the darkness to took over, the light in the city coming into the view, the noise from the students who have their own world and the others who's waiting for a cab to go home.**
*When I was in my highschool days I used to go hangout after school with my friends house or we evwn go to malls and just waste our time enjoying in the arcade games. We used to spend our friday nights after we got out on school we plan to have an overnight with one of our friends house. And that's the best part of going on highschool days, less stress, more enjoyable but I think it's just me that really enjoy being highschool student I don't take it seriously but I don't ignore it also I'm just an average student and my only goal is just passing grades. So almost the happening in my highschool is juat more on hangouts with my friends.*
*I do really believed in Highschool friends supremacy, I mean it's not bad to have friends in college but I just noticed being friends in college should be beneficial, I don't know ha its just I noticed it maybe in our class but not in others, come on guys we have different views hahaha. So yeah I think my highschool friends is the best people I ever met untill now.*
*They still there in every downfall and every wins, we celebrated it. We celebrated each others birthdays together even there's nothing much to do we still have time for it. We have this special date that we will bond and have an overnight or a stay cation just for one to two days hahha we do it yearly, we always make sure that everyone is free to be present in that day but when some is not we adjusted it so that we could go all together.*
*We're still in college and soon to be graduate and I'm grateful that they're still with me even we separated in different school because of different courses. I'm always glad I met amazing people in my highschool days.*
****Sunset hits different in highschool when I'm with them.****
***Good afternoon my skies, how are your tuesday so far? We are in the 11th day of January and it feel likes there's a lot happen in a span of short time. Stay hydrated and eat healthy foods okay? There's a lot of people who is sick please take care of yourself.***
****Have a great day everyone. Specially to these wondeful people, stay healthy, alive and happy, God bless to you all!****
Wrote this For You
*Wassup my favorite humans? Are you okay? I know sometimes I'm so stupid to not give you a little bit of my attention. I'm sorry if sometimes I shouted at you, I'm so sorry when I'm not acting rationale, I'm sorry if I've been a bad daughter to you.*
*This letter is dedicated to you mom and dad, I barely show to both of you my love as your daughter, I'm the blacksheep of the family they say hahaha the middle child is always the one who do stupidest things I heard when you were talking to our relatives, I'm so used to it that sometimes I just show them what they were telling, and forgive me for doing things that hurts you.*
*I'm just writing this because I couldn't say it in person, this is just the only way for me to get even a little bit of ease, I haven't have the courage sometimes to say sorry when I did wrong, but I know you already forgave me. You're that one of a kind a constant humans in my life.*
*The first time I cried,*
*The first time I crawl,*
*The first time I say my first word,*
*The first time I stand and walk,*
*And the first time I fall*
*Even I fall you are there, you were always there, when things get rough, I shut people down but I know even I did it, you still coming up to my room and trying to make me feel better, when I never felt like talking you still there, you protect me in public and you correct me in private.*
*I love it when you wait for me during dinner nights even my sister was so angry because ypu don't let them to eat without me, and I'm always like that going late came from I dont know where, of course you nag me and that's my favorite part to be nag by my parents, it just shows that you really love and care for me.*
*Thank you for being the greatest mom and dad for me and if I would be given another chance to live my second life, I would do everything just to be you daugter again. I've been trying to find a words to say but it's just I'm lost for words to describe how lucky am I to have a parents like you.*
*I love you both. Thanks for the unconditional love you always showed me. I promised I will grow up just like the person you always wanted me to be. You shaped me nicely to be in this world. Because of you I exist.*
*Thank you!*
****This is just so random I've been missing my mom and dad even though I always seen them, it's like we never had the chance to have a proper conversation. I'm too busy on my stuff I dont even realized that when I'm getting older they also are, so please give quality time with your parents while they are still there, you'll never know life can be so surprising. Cherish the moments with them. That's all goodnight everyone!****
Muted Friend
*I feel so empty today*
*I don't think I can do some productive stuff right now*
*I wish you were talking to me*
*Please respond my friend Georgie*
*Can you make me happy and motivated for a while? How come I always says to you everything, I always came to you when I'm alone or there's something amazing happened to my day? And I dont get even just a single response or even a nod from you? You just exist there and I'm glad but sometimes I wish you will talk to me*
*I wish you we could spend a night having a random conversations about life,*
*I wish you talk to me when things get hard,*
*I wish you greet me a goodmorning the way I greeted you every single day that I woke up*
*I wish you could smile the way I smile at you when I see you being healthy.*
*I know I'm sounding crazy when talking to you, I let you see the different side of me, you see me when I'm happy, you see me when I'm in the middle of breaking down, you see me crying and looking at the ceiling of my room every night trying to make myself fell asleep, you see me in my rainy days and also in my shiny days. But how come you can't talk to me? How come you're always there?*
*I hope you would still be here with me when I get old and have my own life, I promise I will take care of you and brought you whenever I would go. I will be always there for you like you were always with me. I hope you keep yourself healthy.*
This is just a message to my dear plant hahhaha its name is Georgie. Am I crazy? Maybe I am hahaha but I don't care this plant is one who serves as my comfort every single day and I will always take of Georgie. Am I the one who loves to gave name to anything hahaha I also name my pillows Georgina and George yeah it's always starts with the letter G hahaha I'm such a weirdo said by my parents but who cares atleast I don't step on people hahaha. By the way here he is...
**Good afternoon everyone this is just some random writing because I have nothing in my mind and I see my Georgie and his beside me right now so yeah enjoy your day every one.**
Save Yourself First
Did you experienced being taken advantage of people like you are spending your life trying to pleased everyone? Or are you trying to hide your pain? ***How come those always have a purest soul always get taken advantage?***
*I know life sometimes can make you feel anxious. You are an open arms to other people. You want to see them okay without noticing that yourself isn't. You are the one who's people alway came when they want to cry on. You always have their backs, but who holds yours?*
*When people are on their stormy days, you are there to be their shelter, and when they already see the shiny days, the would just leave you and forget your existence because they felt okay again.*
*You choose to mask up your pain behind those fake smile. You're afraid on what people are gonna say to you. You are afraid to be a burden to them. Instead of saying your pain that makes ypu awake at night and cry in silent on your shower, you choose to hide it becase of the thought that they are more suffering than you are so why bother to tell them, when they doesn't have any interest on listening because they are too busy on their happiness and you are here hiding and keeping those emptiness all for yourself.*
I just wrote this for those people who's always act as a crying shoulder for everyone. Those people that thinks they are alone. Feel free to express your emotions, I'm here, I will not force you to smile when you don't feel like it. I'm I can be your person who's willing to listen to your worries, even we don't barely know each other, but that's the best part talking your problems to strangers are better because I will tell no soul, I won't judge.
**You have to forgive yourself too, you have to save yourself first, you have to make yourself happy before anyone else.**
That's it spend your day well guys, stay hydrated and keep safe!
Constant One
I have a random conversation with my friend a few hours ago, and I came up to the idea to share it here.
Well I was watching a series in netflix when I heard my notification sound on my phone. But I ignored it, because my first rule when watching something, I should have my full attention on the screem not on anything, I don't want interruptions when I'm watching. So I continue watching and completely ignored it...
Then after a few minutes my phone rang and it makes me irritated so I just hit the pause button on the remote and just answer whoever this annoying person who interrupts my watching. Then I look at the screen and it's my bestie, I talk to her for a short while...
**Her:** ***bakit di mo ko sineseen?!*** (why you ignored my messages)
***Me: nanonood ako bakit ba?*** (I'm watching something, what's the reason on calling?)
My speaking tone to her is so irritated and I kne she noticed it but she's too confident on the conversation
***Her: may nabasa ko teh hahahaha tas ano ay wag na nga lang tanungin na lang kita*** (I read something but never mind I will just ask you something )
***Me: ano yun bilis!!*** (what's that please make it fast)
***Her: ano teh nood na nood yan teka lamg kumalma ka*** (wait don't be too excited)
(anlayo nung translation ko guys sorry hahaaha di ko masyado gamay english)
***Her: what do you prefer moon or sun?***
***Me: taray napaenglish si baks hahaha*** ( wow english speaking)
***Her: dali na sagutin mo na*** (go just answer it please make it fast)
***Me: hmmm.... Moon??***
***Her: naks I love you to the moon and back***
***Me: huhhh...***
I was so confused at her respond hahaha
***Her: meaning kasi nung sun is I love you but I'm letting you go. Then yung sa moon namn I love you to the moon and back*** ( the sun means I love you but I'm letting you go while the moon means I love you till the moon and back)
***Me: so anong meron dun?*** (what's the point of that?)
***Her: you loved me to the moon and back hahaha***
***Me: iww ayaw ko ng moon at ng sun na yan hahaha*** ( I don't want the moon and the sun)
Then there's a sudden idea that came through my mind
***Her: ano gusto mo chusera ka*** ( what do you want?)
***Me: hmm sky??***
***Her: why?***
***Me: I prefer it because it's the constant thing between the two.***
Then my ears hurt because of her loud shout through the phone
***Her: mas corny ka pa pala hahaha*** ( you're much cornier than me)
***Me: no kasi it's just you are my bestfriend and you are also the person that I wanted to be constant. Moon and sun just come and go but sky won't so you are my sky.***
***Her: teka di ko kinayaaa bat wala ka pang jowa sa mga banatan mo??*** (wait I can't help hahhaha why you are still single if you speaks like that hahhaa)
***Me: loka I just read books and some stories lang so I come up with that...***
***Her: teka bes nood ka na muna jan may gagawen lang is me babalikan naten yang topic laturzz byebyee luvyouu***
That's it she ended the call hahaha I'm too stunned by her everytime she's so random with his acts.
***Anyways that's true she's my sky and my constant. She's always with me in my shiny and darkest days. How about you guys? Who's your sky? Go on and don't be shy to tell us hahaha...***
Horizon on Remembering Someone
Hey how are you people? It's been a week since 2022 starts, and the memories of 2021 still lingers. I don't know but I feel like we are still on the vibes of past year. Maybe because of this virus and the new variants that also exist. Anyways looking back on the years makes me remember those people in so many ways...
Have you ever see or hear things or random stuffs then it makes you remember someone?
How come my mind doesn't remember someone unless I saw things or hear familiar sounds, or maybe even seeing someone who makes me remember someone. Sorry I'm not good on remembering people by their name or even their faces unless we shared something or we did something that's really unforgettable.
**This is just sharing my horizon on remembering someone in any ways;**
*Listening to Music*
*Have you heard a random music then someone came through your mind, because that song playing on the background right now makes you remember this someone. Sometimes I always remember someone through songs, when you make me listen to a song you just discover, that's when the time I will remember you when I listen to this song. Sharing your playlist or just a song makes me so soft and remembered people.*
***Reading a Book***
*This is also a great and effective way for me to remember someone, when someone suggested me a good book, even though it's been a long years I never interact with that person, I nevwr forget them, hahaha I have someone who always lend me a book and makes me read and read, because of her I started to love reading books.*
***Watching Movies***
*My favorite thing, I always fond on watching movies and to watched it with someone, sthe movie that we are watching is making it more special and memorable, Everytime I re-watch a movie, I always remember who I was with when I watched that movie for a first time.*
***Places***
*In places that I go, I always remember someone that's with me that time I visit that place for a first time. I have someone who's makes me laugh to his cheesyness hahaha. He was so always like this when we visited places " this place woul be our place and you don't dare to visit this place with someone but me" hahaha I always teased him by saying I already visited it a number of times with different accompany and he was sulking until I gave up.*
****So yeah that's just some things that makes me remeber people, what about you guys? Waht are the things that makes you remember someone? Feel free to share it to us :)****
That's it for now, have a great day everyone, and also take care and keep safe, we are surrounded by positive cases of virus and it's scares me not just for myself but also for my family.
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The Dynamics of Music in My Life
How does music affect you? How come a perfect song just come up so smoothly and it makes you feel the lyrics and the message that the singer is wanted to tell? You see music is part of our lives, for me
***it’s like a package,***
***it’s two peas in a pod,***
***a buy one take one,***
***all or nothing,***
Music is one of my motivations when I’m studying or even working on something, like cleaning my room, cleaning our house, reading a book, taking a shower, or even right now, I have song playing in my playlist while writing this article. I just love listening to music.
There’s a lot to listen, different genres make me so overwhelmed, If I would be given a superpower to listen to all the music and songs created in this world, I would be gladly accepting it hahaha,
Listening to music specially when the lyrics is so good, and it relates to what you are experiencing right now, sometimes when I listen to those love songs that so very overwhelming, it makes me feel like I want to be in a relationship, then there comes a time when the song play is so angsty, that I give me the feels that burns like hell.
Every song I chose in my playlist describes my situation now. It tells my story. Having a music playing on the background on anything that I do, feels like it tells me to just enjoy and forget how the world we had for a moment, and breathe and listen for a while.
****Music color my dull world.****
Good morning, everyone! This is just a short one hahaha. I just wake up and listen to the song tahanan by adie. Ahhh jowang jowa nanamn dahil sa kanta chaariizz hahah takot pa sa commitments. Anyways spend your day right and stay hydrated and healty. Keep safe everyone!
Serene in loneliness
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Are you afraid of to be **alone**? Or do you just want to be in your solitary? So many people think that being alone is good, and I would say that yeah, it’s fine sometimes, but for some reason it’s not always good to be alone. Cause why would waste your time being alone when there a life out there waiting for you, there’s an adventure waiting, and you wouldn’t want to miss it. Also, it’s better to be alone for every once in a while, just to find your peace, your solace, and the wants to avoid the world and take a rest. **While feeling your loneliness what are the things that you mostly do?**
Come on I know there’s something you do when you resting from reality, except for sleeping and lying all day of course it’s very common to us humans hahaha, but again what are those things?
****Okay, I would go first, I wanted to share these things that keeps me relaxed in my alone time****
**Listening to different songs**
*When I started to shuffle the songs in my Spotify playlist while reading a book or just laying down in my bed. I feel the calm and soothing vibe, I will never get tired of listening to music specially the OPM’s. I always listen to them when I’m alone or not, but I prefer listening to those ballads when I’m alone. I never get tired of listening to them. I feel like it just perfectly fits to the mood.*
Writing
*When I’m alone, thoughts and ideas just came up rashly without me even noticing it. It just so natural, or its just in my nature to over think random things. Even the ceiling fan in my room, my min thinks that what if it falls to me while I’m sleeping? Hahaha. And then when ideas come out, I just took it down in my notes and later I found myself sleeping peacefully and wake up without remembering what I did before I fell asleep hahaha.*
Playing my Guitar
*I always does this whenever I’m alone, I play my guitar and just sing even I’m out of tune hahaha, I never play my guitar while singing in front of anyone, I just sing only for myself with my guitar, not until I’m with a group of friends and tipsy hahaha rock and roll.*
**I just stop here for now, I’m too busy this whole afternoon, even I still have fever, I still do my usual routine, and keep the house neat and clean, I also help my cousin in his module, it was so funny because we are under in a same roof and we talk through video call, because I’m afraid I might get him infected even it’s just a flu. Have a cold and serene night for everyone!**
Unsent Letter to Him
***Hey, how are you? Are you doing fine? How was your mom? Does she still treat you like a baby? How was your dad? Does he still scold you when you go home late without permission? How was you r little sister? Does she still have this cute little scar on her knees and elbow because we fell on the bike during those summer days that we spend in your place? I'm still glad that you're still that person who always choose others more than himself.***
***It's been what? 4 or almost 5 years without seeing each other hahaha I just kinda scared because you're taller than me the last we met but I don't know if you gain more height. Now I look like your little sister I thought so hahaha. Hey I missed you so much, you are really a grown up man right now huh. I'm still not sure if we could met again because you're too busy and too far to hang out with me.***
***I missed you, I missed those silly smile of yours when you found something that you know will annoyed me.***
***I missed those eyes who's always curve out like a cresent moon when you laugh. I missed it when it only looks at me the way that makes me like a special person to you.***
***I missed those moments where you just wait for me after school and just go hang out at my place or your place. Hahhaha I remember watching you cried when your dad was so angry because you stay a night with your friends and you call me early korning just to make sure your dad is gone to work and no ones at your home. But I lied because I'm close to your dad and your mom. I watched you cry and your face was so red while looking at me. That's the day you're so very annoying, you're so mad at me to the point that you want me to leave you because I'm so annoying and making you laugh, I apologized for the whole afternoon until I just gave up and let you but you stop sulking when I invited you to come with me and eat street foods. Ypu really love it.***
***Walking hand in hand down the street while the waiting for the sunset is the most favorite thing that we do. It's normal for us to do this, having this close proximity, acting like a domestic couple but in the reality, we are just a couple of friends.***
***Friends yes you are my bestfriend, I'm writing this this because I never have the courage to say that I liked you for a long time, It's not love at first sight because it happens in one rainy afternoon, when you were just reading a book beside me who's always busy watching movies in your place, I just happen to looked at you and that's it, I don't know if it just the weather or it's just I just see myself together with you, coffee, books, raindrops and a cold weather, it just fits perfectly. The sight is so calming, the sight of you, so that time I started to fell when I shouldn't.***
***I'm not good on words but I know that these feeling that I have already expressed when we are together, gosh you're so dense hahaha but yeah I fall and it's my fault.***
***I supposed to be your bestfriend, I supposed to tell you things but this one is really so hard to say so yeah I liked you... No scratch that I loved you but it's in the past now. I know you have your person rightnow but I hope we reunite again because I'm to sick of messaging you hahaha you're still such a crazy guy I met. Anyways thank you for the friendship and I always look forward to seeing you if this pandemic end. I missed your province also your family. They are also like a family to me hahaha. Take care always.***
So yeah for those who read my article *****"Reminiscing first dance"***** the man that danced with me is the same man in this letter. By the way I've just leave it here, I'm too tired, I'm sick for a day now, I hope I get better if I sleep early tonight. Goodnight everyone! Also please take care and stay hydrated because having a flu is a no joke, I still take my final exam for acads this afternoon even I'm not feeling well. So stay safe guys!
Reminiscing First Dance
**Does anyone of you experienced prom back in your high school or college days?**
**Did you attend that event that makes everyone in your school dress luxurious and those people are glistening with smile?**
**Did you ever remember your first dance in your junior high school prom night?**
**Does it still linger to you the day you wear a luxurious outfit, and you want to be seen by everyone?**
This topic suddenly came up to my mind when I’m checking my old files in my laptop, I’ve seen our prom night pictures and it really bring me back to the days where we are so stress free. Yes, I’ve never let myself feel the stress of being a student. I just live my life the way I want it, I chose to go with things that makes me happy, I always run to responsibilities because I’m too lazy hahaha but not to the point that I abandoned my studies and responsibilities. So, let’s go back to the topic, seeing our prom night pictures makes smile because all memories still fresh in my mind.
*I’ve never been too shy in the front of everyone that I know except that night. I’m just a simple student, I never want to dress up too much just a casual shirt and pants is enough but the day they told us about the event. My mom was so eager to make me wear a gown, it sucks and so hassle to wear it. I’m not comfortable on wearing it. I’m not into girlies things. I said to my mom that I don’t want to attend that event, and my friends just barge in and make me wear the gown that my mom bought me. A black long-back gown. I never imagine my mom would team up with my friends just to make me wear that and go to that event.*
*At the night I enter the place where the prom will happen. I have no prom date because I’m a strong independent woman just kidding.*
*The party is going so smooth and different genres of music is on high volume. I just talk with my friend, take photos with them, and just watching those couples and friends to dance in the middle. I was filming my friend who dance with her boyfriend when suddenly a hand interrupts my camera hahaha the video is still in my flash drive. So, when I look at who’s the person who’s brave enough to interrupt me. And I was so shocked that I don’t have a word to say because right in front of me is my best friend that is also my crush hahaha he knows that I have crush on him. (kinikilig ako teka naalala ko nanamn hahaha).*
*He held me in my arms and ask me to dance with him. I let him (papakipot pa ba hahaha), we dance, and he just smile while looking at me, I avoid eye contact with him, everything becomes a background just him and me and the slow music playing at the speaker. It so cheesy but he talks to me after that night I don’t quite remember but it was so fun to chill in the front of the school avoiding crowds. He also told me that night that he’s in a relationship with the girl she has been pursuing. I’m so happy for him but yeah masochistic is always with me.*
That’s it hahaha no more crushes for now, we have still a contact with each other, and they are still going strong with his girl. I hope them both happiness and love for each other. #Bestgirlbestie is here.
Visiting Hours
How are you guys? It’s been a while since I wrote something serious. While writing this one I became too emotional. I know people comes and go but we will never get used to it. Having someone who’s important and so closed to you suddenly leave or die is one of the hardest parts of living this life. We humans tend to feel emotional; we mourn, we feel that the world is crashing, just by the idea of not seeing them exist in this world we live and breathe in makes us emotional.
*The title that I used is one of the songs of Ed Sheeran* ***“visiting hours”****. This is one of my favorite songs of his. When I listen to this my auntie that is so very precious to me always came to my mind. She died three years ago because of heart attack. She’s one of my favorite persons, she’s the one who’s always there when my parents were so busy in there works. She’s with me when I graduated in my preschool days because my parents were so busy. She’s my so called “tita-mama”. She treated and loved me like her own daughter.*
*So, listening to this song makes me want to talk to her or even just hug her even just for second and just ask her how she was doing, did you miss me, because I really miss you.*
*When she died, I couldn’t even give her a final hug because she was in our province and too far from me because she was supposed to go with us a month before she dies.*
*We have plans if I graduated in my college, I want her to be with me, I want her to see me successful in life, but she left me too early, and I don’t know how to react once I received the news from my mom.*
*I wish we could have a visiting hours so that I could hug her and tell everything on how my day was.*
*****I wish that heaven had visiting hours*****
*****And I would ask them if I could take you home*****
*****But I know what they'd say, that it's for the best*****
*****So I will live life the way you taught me, and make it on my own*****
*****And I will close the door, but I will open up my heart*****
*****And everyone I love will know exactly who you are*****
*****'Cause this is not goodbye, it is just 'til we meet again*****
*****So much has changed since you've been away*****
“These lyrics will always make me remind of you tita-mama. I always love you”
If you want to listen to the song here is the link
https://youtu.be/t3CoEyYEf4A
https://youtu.be/t3CoEyYEf4A
That’s it for tonight I just felt the wants to write this one when my playlist play visiting hours. Good night everyone!
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Cleansing Day
The title that I use is cleansing, feels like I committed a huge sin hahaha. Even reading the title makes me tired, I have been cleaning our house today because my relatives that stays in our house during holidays left a huge mess hahaha just kidding, but yeah general cleaning today even I have been doing our research paper for academics. I started cleaning this morning, and seriously why there’s a lot of dust just by not cleaning our house in a matter of two weeks? So yeah, it’s fun to have clean surroundings while doing stuffs so I need to clean! Clean! Clean!
I’m just writing this because I want to read about how I’m such a good cleaner hahaha is that what you called it? I don’t know it doesn’t matter. I’m so proud I almost done cleaning our house, so I just create this article because I don’t have anything in mind to write nowadays.
*****By the way is it just me or did anyone of you loves cleaning or doing things that isn’t came from the order of anyone specially your parents?*****
*I mean I love to obey my parents but when it comes to this such things, I really don’t want to be ordered by my parents or anyone. I love doing it in my own will and wants. I don’t want to be commanded by someone.*
*I know it can be toxic sometimes because having this attitude makes you full of yourself, you just want to follow what you want. You hate being ordered by someone.*
*I rarely ask for help and I don’t want anyone to interfere when I’m doing something. I hate being a follower.*
*So yeah, I really love cleaning without someone ordered me to do it. My mom saw me cleaning every corner of our house, so she just so confused why her lazy middle child is acting like a diligent daughter. She asked me if I have to go somewhere (may gala ka ba kaya ka nagpapakabait para payagan kita?”) I just laugh at her and continue doing my thing.*
So that’s it for now I will finish my thing and just laydown for the rest of the day. It was so tiring but having a good and clean surrounding is so worth it and more comfortable to rest.
****Anyways take care always, its flu season there’s a lot of people who’s getting sick. Take a rest and drink water. Stay hydrated everyone!****
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Handling When There's a Lot
A wonderful day to start fresh charizz hahhahaha good afternoon, everyone! How was your day so far, it has been what? 3 days since the new year start and I still feel the 2021 vibes hahaha I thought it’s still holiday ahkk its just I do not want to go to online classes today but yeah for the future holds. Let the battle begin again. I just finish my term exam in my morning class subject and yet here I am authoring this article, trying to be productive than last year.
I never thought of some topics that I should wrote; I just want to write and write. I have been gone for long while and I know that I should be back on track again. So here we are again going to go on a date again with our screens for a long while, I wish summer will come soon. But I am still in college so expect that there is no longer break for us. Focus on study! Study! Study! sometimes I just make time for myself so I could live peacefully without worrying on academic stuffs.
***I know this is so random, but how did you manage things when there is a lot on your plates?***
***I have been questioning myself if the way I manage things if its healthy and right,***
***The way I manage things is quite simple but sometimes I still stress myself out over things that I should not be stress off.***
***Here is how I manage them:***
****1. Planning it ahead of time****
*I always have this behavior where I always plan and oversee things as it is, if there’s a given task, I always plan to do this ahead of time I always create a planner for everything that I will do. Having a schedule for everything makes me manage my time more and it helps to lessen cramming and procrastination.*
****2.Prioritize significant****
*This makes my work easier and done so fast, I always choose to do first the important things and continue to do things that is not much needed for today. This gives me more time and less stress before the due date. I can also have time to do things regardless of school stuffs.*
**3.******Have a timeout****
*Have a break, a relaxation time for yourself, do not stress yourself too much, try to enjoy a little relief, if you think you needed a sleep then sleep, do not work yourself too much, always remember that health is wealth. Go outside and take a walk, or a sip of coffee to relax your mind. This is my favorite part resting. I just want comfortable surroundings to have a rest. I will listen to some music for me to sleep then go again for another task.*
So, this are just some ways that makes me manage and finish thigs done even if there is a lot. How about you guys? Did you also do this kind of things when there is too much on your plates?
***Anyways have a great day everyone enjoy and keep safe. I heard there is another virus ahhkk stay safe for everyone.***
Cheers to the Great Year ahead
I'm so grateful for everyone that stays with me all throughout the year, I know 2021 is not a good year nor a bad but still I wanted to congratulate each one of us who still here and survived this year.
Cheers for every battle that we won could be small or little the important is we survived and that we shoud be celebrating every small or big achievements.
2021 bring myself to my lowest and highest state, it gives me cmthe thrill of a roller coaster ridw of emotions, I felt every emotion, pain, suffering, happiness, breakdowns etc...
I honestly wanted to thanks all people who stays with me till tge end of this year. New faces, new names, new personalities, but really I'm always grateful that I got to know great people. Let's celebrate and start this new year with a fresh mind and a good health for everybody.
This is me writing again because I promised to myself that in this year 2022 I want to achieve something and this is me right now trying to write again, I lost my passion in writing but now I'm trying so 2022 please bare with me and be good. I want everyone to ease their minds and be happy and healthy.
So hello everyone, Happy new year and enjoy your new year with your family. Hoping for a good year ahead of us and blessings that will go our ways. For the great year I love you all hahaha cringe hehehez just kidding.
Thank you God for giving us another fruitful year and a healthy mind and body.
Again happy new year everyone let's drink for tonight but always remember drink moderately and t ake care always.
I stop writing for a long while for some reason hahaha I wanted to write again and be back on tracks again heehehe love you all :)
Impatient Monday
How was your monday everyone? Busy? Hahaha I hope we got all our productive monday.
So my Monday was a not so good monday but still I'm happy because I get what I needed.
Today I go to my morning class, I don't quite understand the lesson because the connection or the network is bad, I hope face to face classes will soon implemented in our school. Online learning seems no to go with me, I can't seem to focused on what our professor are saying.
Then our afternoon class is asynchronous, so I have time to get done with things I needed to. I left the house after lunch and go with my sister to our school, we go to the same school, she's one year ahead of me.
We go to our school so that we get the documents we needed for the application of scholarship. Hahaha students today just hope for the scholarship because we don't get our school allowance in online learning so I really miss face to face classes.
The processing is so slow and school registrar really testing my patience. I'm hot headed person and I always tend to became impatient when it comes to waiting.
I know I shouldn't be hot headed because I'm the one who requested the documents but too much time is wasted in waiting. I have things to do after this so I'm so bored waiting for this long.
I don't over react, I just don't want to wait, I'm not a patience human hahaha.
That's one my red flag I think being impatient human hahaha I want to finish things as quickly as possible. I mean who wants to wait.
*Time never stop running*
*Clock never stop ticking unless it's broken hahhaa*
*So as I was saying I don't want to wait*
So after a long hours of waiting we finally get the documents that we needed. Then we go to the grocery because our mom told us to do the monthly grocery.
My sister is irritated by me because I always complain on everything hahaha, even the line at the counter when we finish doing grocery hahaha am I a headache? I just want to go home as soon as possible hahaha.
I'm so tired even I just done minimal today. I want to sleep early because we still have a morning class tomorrowm
Anyways that's it for today. Have a great night everyone.
If you want to listen to this song I recommended
Here,
https://youtu.be/-GGxAwWxdf4
https://youtu.be/-GGxAwWxdf4
enjoy!
Tiring Weekend
Weekends are supposed to be my relaxing day, but for this week, it's very tiring, but it's worth it.
Seeing your loved ones smiles through happiness is the most precious thing that I would trade for thousands of relaxing weekends.
So this weekend I suppose to relax after a long tiring week, but my cousin has her surprise visit to our home, so I have no choice but to spend time with her, and actually, it's worth it. I miss bonding with my cousin.
I'm exhausted that I can't even start a conversation every weekend; I suppose to sleep after I do all my school works and after doing my assigned home chores too. That's my lazy self, I thought. Doing stuff at weekends is not my thing. I want to lay on my bed all day even I already know that it's not productive, but what should I do? I have no energy to do things.
But when my cousin visited me, she was so hyper and convinced me to spend her weekend with her, so I had no choice but to agree with her.
It's very early in the morning, she just jumped on my bed, and I'm still half asleep when she just tickled me so that I will be fully awake.
We have our morning walk, and we go to the fast-food store to have our breakfast there; I'm still sleepy to have a morning jog, but she's so playful that she even insisted a bet to have a marathon race with her that whoever got first in the fast-food store will be the winner and the loser will pay for the food. It's unfair for me, I don't even have the chance to say no, but she already counts and runs as soon as she finishes depending on 1, 2, 3...
So yeah, I paid for our meals; even I'm a loser, she still teases me that I'm aging because of my slow performance on running; gosh, this girl, if she's not a few years older than me, I would beat her ass off. So again don misunderstands me. That's the way we bond since we're both a child.
We go to the grocery to buy some stuff to eat it too later in the midnight because she plans to have a Netflix and chill whatever she says, hahaha. Still, I agree with her because that's my favorite thing just to lay down and watch movies or series until I pass off.
So later that night, she prepared all the stuff, the food; I don't know if we will finish all of the food she brought; just a pizza is okay with me, but she even bought a lot.
So we're ready to watch. I'm on my bed, and she's still busy preparing the food; I got so bored, so I threw a pillow at her because I was facing her back, and after the pad landed on her head, I regretted it as fast. She pushed me out of my bed, and I fell to the floor.
Again we settled ourselves and watched random movies, but she refused to pick one, so I chose the originals. Haha, that's one of my favorite series; after I even played the next episode, I was going to ask her if she was bored or if she wanted to change the movie, I just see her holding a slice of pizza and snoring, that's when I stop watching and turn off the television, she's already asleep, ha! She says that I'm aging, but she's the one who sleeps early like a grandma haha; ha; I cleaned the place and helped her to lay down in my bed.
That's a worth weekend for me, hahaha she already left a few moments ago, before I wrote this, I will surely add this in my diary hahaha.
That's it for now, guys; I have to rest to have energy for another week that's coming tomorrow, hahaha.
I hope you have a great weekend.
For what it's worth
Have you ever gotten crazy enough on something or someone? Being too addicted to it, and you see yourself being all out on it instead of doing something, you begin to prioritize that thing that makes you feel like crazy on too much liking it.
When you want something, how do you feel?
*Did you feel the adrenaline rush?*
*The rush of enthusiasms?*
*The overwhelming feeling?*
*The excitement?*
*Did you feel the craving for getting that thing?*
*Whatever it takes or how much does it cost you? If you want that thing, then you do everything to get it.*
I always had this feeling when I started to become a fangirl on a Korean pop group,
Does anyone of you know the Korean girl group "**BLACKPINK**"?
I know some of you do, well they are too famous enough even my grandmother knew them because of me Whahahahaa,
The Korean girl group Blackpink has four members,
***Jisoo*** - the eldest or the unnie ( older sister) of the group, she's also the main visual and the lead vocalist on the group.
***Jennie*** - the second to the eldest in the group, she's the main rapper in the group, and she is also known as the yg princess. She's my biased, ahh. I want to see her in person; please stop this pandemic as soon as possible.
***Rosé*** - she's the main vocalist in the group, her vocal is not a joke, did you listen to her song? If not, you should probably listen to it, and also, some of her cover songs are very suiting to hear. The calmness in her voice is so stunning.
***Lisa*** - my favorite maknae ( the youngest ) in the group; she's the main dancer and the lead rapper. Her visual is not also a joke even she's a Thai; she's good at speaking Korean and some other languages. She's the dancing machine in the group. Did you also listen to her song, money, and Lalisa? You should listen to it, just by hearing money, I always hear dollar bills dollar bills, hahaha
So again, I'm too addicted to them that I bought their albums and some merchandise, but not all because I'm still a broke fan hahaha can't afford the price of their merchants need some dollar bills, haha.
I just bought The album
Lalisa
Lightstick
I also don't want to drink this oh god I'm so crazy hahahha,
And some photo cards,
I also watch all their videos on YouTube. Always updated on them, even there's too much on my plates, I still prioritize being updated on the happenings on them.
I mean, it's not wrong to have an obsession with something like this; they serve as my inspirations, they also light up my world when I feel like sinking in the darkness, their songs make me feel relaxed, and also I memorize their dance choreography, hahaha even though I'm not, a good dancer.
***I consider them as my umbrella on rainy days.***
Yes, I would probably go to their concert or fan meet if that happens; I'm so sad that I was just at the team airport when they had a show in the Philippines. But for what it is worth, hahaha.
So what I was saying is, there's nothing wrong with having someone or something to make your life much more full of motivation; considerer them and admire them and make them your inspiration to continue your goals.
So if I had a chance to meet them, I would probably lose my consciousness just kidding,g hahaha, but half meant argghhh. I want to see them so bad.
My favorite song is Hope not and stay if you want to listen to this, here is the link, and also, listen to them. You'll never no; akkkk I love them so much.
https://youtu.be/l6zMnMMzsss
https://youtu.be/l6zMnMMzsss
https://youtu.be/FzVR_fymZw4
https://youtu.be/FzVR_fymZw4
https://youtu.be/k8ZWKWfzbAE
https://youtu.be/k8ZWKWfzbAE
hope you like it! Have a great night
Crushes
Different types of person I had crush on
Great day everyone, I was just sitting here while waiting for our school webinar to start, but I thought I would love to write some random topic that came up to my mind this morning.
Anyways before that you should take your breakfast first, what do you have today? Have you drink your coffee or your milk, or whatever you drink to start your day? I hope you've eaten well. Okay let's get on with the topic.
Did anyone of you have a lot of crushes? And also I'm sure there are different unforgettable moments you had on with them,
Sometimes it could be...
Giggling,
Pain,
Funny,
And most of the time...
Embarrassing.
Hahhaa yeah I know we had our own idiotic personality when it comes to liking a person,
Acting normal is too hard specially when the person you're admiring is a few steps away from you.
So here, I would love to share the different crushes I had in the past.
****Inaudible Crush****
*Hahaha, I think I'm too harsh by using the word inaudible to him, so he's my seatmate when I was in elementary days, I always been so loud in our classroom, and always reprimanded by my teacher, I always talk to my seatmate next to me and we're both so loud, so my teacher did what she need to do, she separate my seatmate and she makes me sit at the back of the classroom where there he is my first crush, he's so silent so my teacher would want me to sit beside him because she know that the boy will not pay attention to my talking, and she thought that I will just shut up my talkative mouth. Yeah as days go by I tried so hard talking to him, opening some random topic that would make him talk, but he's so silent, and we just have a conversation if it is related to acads, I hate it, so I never give up talking to him, telling some random stuff. Not until one day we just had a groupings in our school and we are in the same group, we sit at the floor and make a circle so that we could move and talk easily, then I was focusing on the group work and thinking ideas to make it done, then I don't even notice that he sits beside me not until he speaks "tahimik mo ah" (you're so quiet), I was shock at first then look at him, yes shock because that day was the first time that he's the one who started to have a conversation with me, (teka kinikilig ako fisrt crush ko to ihh wag na naten bangitin name hahaha) then we begun to have conversation daily not that I hate the topic pero kasi puro acads kaloka hahaha, so ayun then we just had our breaktime together, not until I was overwhelmed that he remember the topic I said to him, so he's paying attention to my talk that time (jusko yung ngiti ko that time) and then that's when I started to have crush on him, yawko na pahabain ending lumipat ng siya ng school wala na ko balita sa kanya hahaha).*
****Bandmate Crush****
*So I'm a member of the band when I was in elementary days din, I play Lyre so I was able to get along with the band playing different instrument every weekend or after school hours. I met this guy, he's one of the drummer, he's so cute kasi that time so I had a crush on him since I first see him ( oh kabog ahh crush at first sight). He was so good at playing drums, I'm attracted on how he plays everytime we had to, we are also became close since we always had a practice he teach me sometimes to play drums he also know how to play guitar same as me, he's one year level ahead of me actually, I was in my fifth grade then he was on sixth grade. He's graduating that time so yeah I haven't have the chance to confess to him, because I was too shy so I just admire him secretly then when he graduated he study at Dr. Arcadio Santos National High School, I was so eager to go in that school when I turn to a high schooler but yeah I don't go the same school as him, I heard he has a girlfriend that time so what's the purpose of going in the same school hahahaha.*
****Bestie Crush****
*My almost 4 year crush, he was my bestfriend, my highschool bestie, he was all out on me as in we already know each other very well, we both so clingy to each other, acting lovey dovey in front of others. Sometimes our classmates mistakes us as a couple. We just laughed at their reaction. But yeah he was so sweet and caring, and that's my biggest regret falling to him, I think it's not even a crush anymore imagine admiring him for almost 4 years. My feelings for him grew everyday I spend time with him. I though I was admiring him without him knowing, not until he had his girlfriend, he's girlfriend was too jealous on us so I stay away from him that time, he was so sorry and one time he said that he knows that I like him, I don't know how but yeah. It was really embarrassing then he tells me the reason why he doesn't reciprocate my feelings. He wants us where he was sure that we could stay longer as a friend. He doesn't want me to be his girl because he doesn't want to take of friendship at risk at some consequences. So yeah, until now we still bestfriend but not the same way again, we had our own priorities. We had coffee sometimes if we're not busy. It's okay because I know he was so happy until now.*
****Senior college crush****
*He was one year level ahead of me, he was the first to crush me back actually hahhahaa. He said that he likes me when he goes to our house, he was one of my older sister's friend, I was so shock at first and yeah kinikilig kilig ako that time, I didn't notice him when the first time that my sister brought them in our house, maybe I was too busy at my life back then. So then when I turn into college I go to the same school where my sister study, then I got close to her friends because it's already online class that time. I'm a freshman and he was my senior. He was so caring and sweet, I mean he had a personality that I really like he was so understanding. I dlnt know if I should commit that time because he was courting me, when the GCQ started he met me then we had a conversation actually he was matured (grabe yung focus nya for his career di ko kinaya a hahaha kinikilig ako), so ayun he always asks me if I'm busy if he wants to call me, he always asks permission. And that's the one thing I like about him. Every weekend when we both are not busy, he takes me on a coffee date ( Jusko mass Kung di po ito para sakin Jusko), then my ate knows about him. But me being idiotic, I was afraid to commit that time. I mean, I love the idea of having a happy crush or being back by someone you like, but I'm not ready to commit. So I turned him down, I know I'm the one who was wrong that time, but I don't want it to go any further; it will just cost us much pain. So yeah, as of now, we still talk, but as her little sister na lang hahaha, he helps me din pala when I have a problem and ganun din ako sa, Kanya. I guess we still have a soft spot for each other.*
So that's all for today; I'm still afraid of commitments until now. I think it's one of my red flags. But yeah, no more harot Muna, hahaha.
I hope you have fun reading this.
Have a great day, everyone!
Anyway, here's the song to listen for today. One of my crush suggested this song to me actually hahahaha
Here's the link if you want,
https://youtu.be/U2H1LInYPXE
https://youtu.be/U2H1LInYPXE
Condo Detestation.
The disadvantages of living in a condo unit.
Hi there everyone, is there anyone of you living in a condo unit? I wanted to write here some of the disadvantages of living in a condo unit. I don't; I just felt like I need to write it.
So again, how was your life living in a house? Is it your parent's house? Or maybe your own home? Some of here I know that they are living in an apartment or a condo unit. And I'm one of those people who lives in a condo unit.
***What is it like to live in a condo unit?***
Of course, you feel the ***peaceful vibes,***
***The silence,***
***The calmness,***
You feel like you live in a place where there is no *"chismosa,”* or in English, there are no gossips that make your ears tumble.
You see, there are a lot of benefits if you want to live in a condo unit. But if there are benefits, then there are also some disadvantages.
Don't take it seriously; it is just based on my experience living here.
So here we go,
****THE FEW DISADVANTAGES OF LIVING IN A CONDO UNIT****
**1. Being an Island human**
So yeah, an island as in, hahaha being in a condo unit you feel like you are living in an island, your feel like you have no neighbors, you see them, but they won't even recognize your name, especially if you have no any interest on having interaction with people. Hahaha, I don't even know the name of the Korean boy besides our unit. And also the older woman in our front.
**2. Human elevator**
This is one of the things I hate when the elevator is not working, the admin doesn't fix it on time, and their management sucks; we paid for monthly dues, including the monthly maintenance, but they don't do the maintenance of the elevator, and also some of the light bulbs are blinking I feel like I'm in a horror movie. Human elevator because I often got stuck inside the elevator, and it takes up 10- 15 minutes before I can get out; the buttons are not working.
(depends on the condo you bought).
**3. Rules refuse**
How come rules exist, but some owners disobeyed them. Like for example, in our condo, there are rules that pets are not allowed, but some owners have their own decision and don't give a damn disobeying them. And the management turned a blind eye to this. I love pets, don't hate me, but I feel so irritated by the barks of the dog in the hallway, the doors of our condo are not soundproof, so yeah. Our point of living in the apartment or condo is for us to have a quiet surrounding.
*Hahaha, so it's just some of my experience living here; it's just based on my observation. I know there are different management in condo units. It's just in our place is so I don't know, but it sucks.*
*By the way, I always dream of having two or more condo units for my own and of making it a business but not here in the same place.*
Just my thoughts, please don't take this seriously.
Have a great day, everyone.
And also, I want you to listen to this song if you want, it's not connected in my article, I just love somi from black label hehezz :)
Here's the link,
https://youtu.be/SRRX6sHsp0w
https://youtu.be/SRRX6sHsp0w
@MidnightSky
