What is inner peace? Well, this two words if I'm not mistaken are what mostly of us wants to achieve. We have our own perception and definition of what it is.It depends on the situation we are currently in.As for me,this is a very huge and critical condition I am really trying to have.But before anything else,for you and for me to not be confused on how I am going to perceive it,let me define it in a very simple way. Inner Peace: being calm despite of the many stressors. Simple Isn't it?. But really hard to achive.
Digging my life experiences, I can say, I'm still blessed despite everything. In my legal age right now, It is enough for me to say that I do have faced a lot of stressful things. I don't even remember when was the last time I can tell that I am totally happy of what I have,what I achieve and what I am currently doing. In short, no contentment. How am I gonna do that, I have faced different life situation that tests my faith to God and faith to myself. I was broken a lot of times, I have cried secretly a lot of times, I have face battles that are never shared to anyone and above all, I am mentally abused and have sufferred depression.
Depression?.Yes. A 10 letter word that has a very scary difinition. Do you know that I consider myself a present survivor and still surviving from it. Have you experience wherein your world seems so dark but can't think exactly of whom to keep in touch with,yes I have, I'm scared exactly of the fact of that I'll be misjudge so instead of sharing and telling it to someone,I chose and still chose till now to keep it and is quite suffocating. That feeling of being full in the inside.It's really hard. But what I learnt is that above all,it teach me to survive in this life and still find courage to live for it.
So going back to my personal goal of achieving and acquiring inner peace. We'll I'm still on the process but maybe achieve 50% of it already. It's about praying really,calling God and surrendering everything to him. Have that strong faith in him and just lay all those worries and burden in him. Still,there is no denying that sometimes I do lost self trust sometimes but with prayers, I am in peace.
The most interesting thing of all is that the balance of everything depends on our personal frame of mind. Which means that if we are firm in spirit,positive,cheerful there will be more good vibes. Is'nt it easy to said? but tell you,really hard to do. But atleast I tried to balance everything so that I'll be nearer to what I want.
