Reckless

This is a work of fiction. I had to put it in front to not mislead anyone.

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I met Lee after a devastating break up and he was as devastated as I am. He told me that he and his wife had a long arguments and they both realize when they started living with one roof, they have a lot of disagreement. Family culture, plus emotional shock and money problems. But they have agreed on one thing, they would both cool down and leave each others life for the meantime. The children will go to her custody and he will continuously support the financial needs of their kids. They have agreed on that and he was allowed to visit anytime.

I see him as an equal human being, hurt and burdened from his last life challenges. And I never thought we would click. We were like a lost soul and we found that there is an undeniably peace when we were together. I did not know but after a long time, the closeness grew deeper. He even meet my family. He gave me gifts even there were no occasions and I wasn't sure what was happening on our regular meet ups. All I know is that I am slowly recovering from the heart break I had experience before he entered in my life. And I slowly realized we are always together. Until a week had passed, there is no sign of him, no phone calls and I was very worried and I called him up.

Over the phone I heard him crying. I immediately volunteered to go to the place where he stays and comfort him to reciprocate what he had done to me. I found myself in his doorstep and I knew when he opened the door for me and I come in I am open for more possibilities.

I was standing in front of him not yet ready to sit like the way he was on the sofa. Slowly he told me that his wife had call a lawyer and send him an annulment request paper. He wasn't sure what to do. He was guilty for not visiting his children for a month because he was always with me. I don't know what exactly happened, I was just trying to pat his shoulder but something electrifying effect has woken us both. When our eyes lock, I saw hunger through his eyes reflecting mines, and I knew something earthly would happen. Truth be told, the next thing I know, we're on the way to his bed, my legs straddled around his, while we are kissing passionately.

As the fire had worn out. I immediately leave the place. Knowing I did something very terrible, immoral and carnal. I could have declined but I let my body decide and make it happen. And I know in the back of my mind, I have wanted this to happen.

In the first place, I shouldn't have entertained the man because he is still married and had twins. And I was very addicted to the comfort and attention he was willing to give. I was blinded with the truth that we were in the same boat but in the end, after we land he had to go in different home. And I was just a temporary distraction. A desperate cool down.

I feel so reckless and an immoral.

And I know this was the last time I would be.

Have you ever been reckless in your life? Well I've been but not to this extent.

This story was inspired with the event wildly happening in this generation.

I have always been curious why people get married, and when they realize they cannot understand each other, they will agree for a divorce. Or was I just addicted to the idea that all people who got married will grow old together until the end? And they get married for the reason that they love each other and they are willing to compromise. I was also torn, and sometimes, would asked a question, do love really exist or was it true? Or we just like to own, be possessive, so when those possessiveness run out we just put everything down.

And I don't understand, why people who knows someone with a family would still jump into a reckless move such as the girl in the story. But hey I didn't mean to offend anyone. I was just curious how do they feel?

I have only watched this scene on movies and I am now watching this on real life. Movies are becoming more and more reality. Or maybe movies are showing what reality is?

But yeah this story is only fiction.

To be honest I am quite shock for most of the situation I have heard outside our home that it was all truth and I have a lot of questions of whys. But yeah, it doesn't hurt to listen and watch others while you stand and remain true to your beliefs.

Anyways as always thank you for reaching here. Xoxo

This is some random stuff running in my head. About life situation, confusion, truth and mystery.