They say, learn from the past, cherish or live in the present while thinking ahead of the future. I was walking down the road, when suddenly I have been reminded of my young self.
The sudden memories explosion has made me realize these thoughts "I wish to go back when everything's not that complicated, where it is easy to cry whenever I fell on the ground. I wish I could turn back and even things gets hard I enjoy doing my assignments and class. I can remember being silly and naughty with friends. I shoud've enjoyed my PE class, and listen carefully with my history teachers! I wish I did a lot of effort participated on events and rebuild my strongest self. When I look back, its easy to sleep at nights after an 8 hour class not after a long 8 hours work or even extended. There's a lot of things that I missed to enjoy and join. As I was more focus on school and home. And I wanted to go back too, where I had my first fight with a guy, had my fist ready for a rumble, ah I am so brave back then. I can easily bark a strong rebuttal and now I don't know what change."
And after these thoughts, I immediately realized, when I was in school I wanted to immediately get to work, because when I was young I was scammed with the song "Big girls don't cry" never realize it until now. Lol. That yeah you don't cry on the outside but you're crying in the inside. Funny how moments are being realized when you were alone and having the chance to compare your thoughts. Reflecting. How do you compare your thoughts? And I realize that I like wishing, not taking action. And that where it hits me hard. I wish to be happy everyday, but I don't take action. I wish to get back to my young self because I want to enjoy some that I didn't enjoy or enjoy the things that I want to do again. But funny thing is, I could enjoy things differently and look back at it with a smile, not with a feeling of empty wishes. I was again asked by my self, Am I living on the present? Or I was too much focus on the past and of the future that I forget to cherish every single now, and once again after a future came, I would still wish to go back from my old self? And thats not a healthy habit.
It is good to take some rest from a day and self reflect on your thoughts. Evaluate and recognized them. Don't live on just thoughts for you might find stuck on the events. Feed your mind and soul with a happy energy and a food for thoughts. And always remember, its okay not to be okay but don't stay there. Its okay to remember the past, but for recollection of memories. Or a reflection of what you aim and what you were now.
And as what my favorite author says,
Live in the present while future as a motivation and past as a recollection of memories of learning, mistakes and changes.
Don't forget to pray and be grateful! Thank you for reading and hoping to see you on my next boring article :)
Ps. Whats your future looks like?
Mmmm.. di ko na binasa, hahhahah
Basta yung naalala ko sa title mo eh, yung present tense, past tense and future tense.😆