Confident? I dont have that thing. I lost it because of my family who always pulling me down.
Every mistake they judged me. Every mistake they saying bad things to me. I didnt reach their expectations, they didnt even proud of what i am doing.
It sucks, bigtime! I just keep it to myself because i just want to. I feel like im alone, i feel like no one is their to cheer me up.
There this one thing that hurt me the most. They embarrassed me in public. They shout at me, they accused me like i didnt something wrong but the truth is I didnt. Many people looking at me and i cant help it but to cry.
My grandmother always talking behind my back. She always telling stories about me to her friends or to someone she's talking to.
There's a lot of reason why i lost my confident. Im shy! I cant stand alone! I dont want to do it because im thinking that they might judged me, maybe i failed, maybe i disappoint them again. In the end I didnt do it, I lost the chance.
I want it back. What to do?
❗jhoy❗
