I'm not going to talk about the other truths I've learned in life but this one truth that got me thinking back and feeling grateful about it.
They say the truth hurts but we've got to say them anyways. Every person deserves to be told the truth but some situations hide the truth away or just can't allow the truth to be revealed when it should. While there are such truths that are hard to say, the hardest truth I've learned have been there all my life.
One situation is hiding the truth and another is not realizing and believing the truth you're being told about. That is me, I didn't realize the truth because it seem too hard to accept really.
I grew up in a family that has a caring dad, too caring actually. Because of this, I had never for once thought of how my life would be right now. I had responsibilities as the eldest child but I didn't know of this truth (I actually refuse to realize it) because my dad took everything upon himself. And I remember myself wishing not to grow old, maybe I had realized the truth then... Maybe.
Being with my family, I relied so much on them even for things that required only my effort to make it work. Maybe I'll blame my dad for always being there for me, maybe but I'm also to blame for not wanting to leave my comfort safe house (Dad's love).
Well,here's the hardest truth I refused to come to realization with until some months back. That I am responsible for my own life, how I choose to live my life and how I wish for it to affect those behind me especially my siblings. You could see that it's a hard truth for someone who has always relied on another for so many actions she took in the past.
How I Discovered The Truth?
From all I've said, you will agree with me that I had discovered this truth long before now but I didn't accept it or even take the realization serious because I wanted my life to remain that way... What a thought!
I realized the truth when dad affirmed it to me in very clear words that he will not always be there at all times since he's not God, and it got me all sad and teary but was I expecting him to take care of me all my life? Silly me 😒
The silly me faced a great realization when I was faced with my first challenge in life that required only my effort and no one was around to help me get through it. I decided to face the hardest truth of my life - I'm my own owner and responsibility.
How This Truth Has Affected And Changed My Life?
Now, this is the reason I call it the sweet hardest truth. I'm loving the lady I'm becoming after the realization. The self discovering everyday of my life has been amazing for me and it's all thanks to my accepting the hard truth.
Of course, I hated the realization at first because it felt strange and scary but there's always a first time before a second time and I passed that first time successfully to becoming better and better with time, the second and the next after that will go well even more better because I'll keep growing.
You would have agreed with me if you could compare the me now and the me from years back. I'm super grateful for realizing the hardest truth that has become the sweetest truth in my life.
I only hope and pray that this truth will continue to change me for the better and also inspire lives around me.
Thanks for reading!!!
Do you know when my mom was still alive, she was the one to help buy my panties and bras and I thought I don't need to buy it myself until realization dawned on me when she died. No one to buy for me. I had to take the responsibility to myself with what I need. The thing is we shouldn't be too much relied on our family because of how they have exposed us to, a time would come we will be opened to the real truth.