If you're wondering about the title, it's simply my age as of this Day. yeah so unfortunately it's my natal day. Yet it's not happy because this is the year and age of mine that I no longer have a mother in this world. Though my mom already gone a month ago. But her memories remain in our mind and heart.
I can't celebrate this 26th birthday of mine due to I'm not really happy. How can I enjoy if deep in my heart I'm sad and lonely without my mom anymore.
I know that I should be moving on. But I'm still in process of moving on. Though I accept that my mom is now in paradise and I know she's happy there. But there is a time I can remember and miss her. My mom is the one of my inspiration,friend,motivation and strength to all the things I did here on earth. So it's not that easy to forget her. I'm slowly recovering of her lost but step by step. I will not pressure myself to move on immediately because we grow up with only our mom is the one who sustain us for us to live.
My mother is a laundrywoman(her work since I born) , so we grow up that she's the only one who provide our daily needs. That's why I salute my mom for being so brave and warrior. Even on the times she suffered of her disease she's still fighting it everyday and on her last breath she's still fighting but God wants to took her, so I can't do anything with it.
Few people can relate this article of mine, coz they know that it feels when we lost our loved ones. It's painful and hurt and can't easy to move on.
This Birthday of mine today October 10,i just wish that God provide me more blessings,good health and more strength until my mission is accomplished here on earth.
Yet I have some illness already that need an urgent medications and therapy but I choose to not spend any money on it. Because I have lots of obligations to be priority than my health and also I don't have that much money to do all those test. So God only knows when He took me and it would be the most beautiful gift I have ever had. Because finally I can rest forever and no pain to feel.