What do you do
When you wake in the morning
And your eyes are too heavy to open?
I hear the crickets chirping
The howling wind of the night is fierce
It threatens to swallow every sound
Still I hear them
I can't stop listening
I envy their determination
It's dawn and I toss and turn
Silently cursing the sunlight
Filtering in through the curtains
What do you do
When your pen slide from
Your weak fingers and hit the floor?
I sit staring into space
My fingers are trembling
They look old and frail
They might break any moment
My eyes are unblinking
As I take them down to have a look
The blue veins are so stark
I can touch them
But my fingers won't move even when I try
What do you do
When you can't find those words
That keep you company each day?
I'm scared of my mind
Of the thoughts and of the words
For the first time in my life
I worry about what will come out if I
Put the contents of my mind into letters
When they'll look like
When I empty them on paper
The fear is becoming a chill
Crawling steadily up my spine
What do you do
When you want to stop breathing
When you wish to stop feeling?
I hug my knees to my chest
Rocking back and forth
Like a mother comforting a child
I'm so numb
I won't stop rubbing my arms
My eyes are huge in their sockets
They feel like they might pop
I want to go to sleep and never wake
I want peace for my restless soul
This healing process is perhaps more draining than you could imagine. I'm not sure I even want to try again. I'm exhausted. I want it all to end. It's all going round and round in circles. There's a moment when you go out, look at new faces, smile and forget for a while but it always come back, every freaking time. I think the breakdown part is partly over, but my body is still fighting back. Whatever happens now, I can only say that I'm here and will see it through.
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20 JOEBLACK STONE09 Aug
What a lovely and amazing poetic lines, every challenge will all roll away some day
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22 Sincere Helper09 Aug
Good lines deep meaning of every word and it's real poetry which anyone read or listen.
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17 PNPONLINE Official09 Aug
Oh dear.. I pray you over cone this soon.. the challenges of life sometimes way us down but we should not losse hope yet.. beautiful writting by the way
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20 Chinyere Vivian09 Aug
Amen. Thank you.
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18 Michael Gimba09 Aug
such a lovely and wonderful poetry, well crafted with nice lines
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14 Morgan Nwanguma11 Aug
Awesome piece of verse. I guess turning your emotions and yearnings into florid written expressions can be both therapeutic and enrgising. Keep it up, your're already erecting your mos