When post partum depression hits you that bad, you can think of any unusual things to do. All the hurtaches and pains you've felt before will eventually come back one by one. So, to all the moms out there, feeling not themselves lately, you have to divert your attention to good or positive things. Do something that will lift up your mood because the more you think about that pain, the more it will eat you. Instead, watch a movie, specially comedies or any shows that will lift your spirit. Don't let depression take you down, you have a daughter or son that is really dependent to you. Think of them instead of self pitying. I've been there before, what happened to me is I cried and cried even though there's really nothing to cried for. I hate my husband so much that even the little things he do makes me disappointed and annoyed up to the extent that I'm gonna block his number. But after how many minutes of crying out alone, I felt a little better. I've no one to talk to that time because I don't want to worry my parents. I've kept it all alone by myself, and it's really hard. So, just an advice, you need to fight it, that feeling of so much sadness, anger, guilt and loneliness. Think of your kids. You are their life, they need you more than anyone else. So keep on fighting and always pray to God.💕💕💕