Goodbye Friends

July 31, 2022 Sunday

"As long as there is love and memory, there is no true loss."

-Cassandra Clare

I woke up with dizziness because I only had a little amount of sleep. Yes, having to heard the news early makes me feel so saddened and wants to cry all alone. When half of the world was sleeping, I was still wide awake and wants to feel the sadness alone.

People come and go. Friends that we consider our next family gives us memory to cherish.

My friend, our colleague, is a father who stills low profile and approachable. He is with us for more than a decade. Even if he was promoted he never treat us lowly. He is friend but we focus when its work and act properly behave.

When there are occassions or some events, we do have bonding moments that made us smile and laugh after all these years. When someone needs help, he never turn his back. He listens and understands us in all possibilities.

A month ago, we notice he was not feeling good. He feel pained all over his body and yet he goes to work. He thought it was just a normal body malaise and sometimes ask a few hand massage. Then there are more symptoms showing up that let him see the doctor the soonest.

I saw his shoulder so heavy as he walks and so silent (not the typical him) during his last of work. Then he starts his sick leave and medication. He had many laboratory test and the results was not good. He was given a month to rest and have his medication. We knew it will be hard but we hope he can come back to work after a month.

Though before it turns a month, he is very ill and was rushed to the hospital. Then we truly confirm that he was diagnosed with stage 4 liver cancer. Some have the chance to visit him and so sad to see his state. We are so saddened by their stories because the doctor already told the family that he is in the final-stage.

Just as my Saturday is about to end, the news broke and he passed away. I feel the pinched in my heart. I wanted to cry because everything seems so fast. Messages floods on my phone, social media post in my feeds remembering his kindness.

Today I got the chance to see his coffin as the vehicle paused in front of our company to let him bid goodbye to all his friends. We were in tears, we cannot help but cry. Our hearts was shattered more as we saw the vehicle slowly leaving.

Only God knows...until when we live our lives on earth...

We all knew we have to say goodbye someday. We never knew when because only God knows when. But for now, ww have to slowly heal and move forward. Goodbye might be the saddest word today, though a friend is always a friend. We need to say our goodbyes though our heart knows he still lives on in us.

Goodbye Friend...

No more pain then.

Our hearts will always remember you.

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