@Lusipir 15 April 2021 more from that month

Last wish

“Are you feeling well?”I asked Nate, my voice was disturbed. It slowly rose to the bed I immediately get his back because it's struggling to get up. “I’m fine babe.”simultaneously smiled at me. Why do you smile even when you're tired? I know you want to give up but, don't go first, please Nate just please don't leave. I think so. I sat on the edge of his bed and grabbed his face, which was very pale but did not diminish his nice look. “I pray everyday Nate to God that he would heal you. I am very confident that you will be healed.”I prayed as I stared into these tired eyes. “Don’t cry babe, I’m not dead yet.”he wiped my tears, I was crying. You just don't know Nate that when you sleep, what I always do, weep. I don't want to lose you. I can't handle that. He's Nate. He has a heart disease, and to this day no donor has been found. It's been a month that he's here at the hospital. He's my boyfriend for two years and counting. .......... “If I die today, tommorow, next week, c-can you grant my last wish babe?”he stuttered in his words. He just staring at me as if waving all the angles of my face, as if he were going to disappear. I nod as I weep and hold back. “Please take care of yourself. Eat at the right time, when I'm gone there's no one to cook with you, you sing to me even though I don't like that. Your antics, your laughs, your kisses I won't have fun with, you can tie hair. Be careful always, without me, just keep yourself. You promise?” I couldn't help but cry, moan, know that? I do not want more. It hurts. I heard the cries of it. I could feel the pain in its voice. “P-promise.”I fell into his chest and cried. He hugged me. I still want to be with him for a long time. “I love you babe. Goodnight. Can I sleep now?”he said, I settled down. “you're like going to somewhere that would never come back, are you saying this is the end? Is this a goodbye?” He nodded. My fear was diminished. “O-okay you can now sleep.”I said. “Don't cry when I'm gone.” I just nodded. I waited for him to fall asleep. I came out. I held onto the wall suddenly, and wept. Why do I feel, that's the last one. I was shaken. “Wake up.” I was excited to visit him at the Hospital when I was cooking his favorite dish earlier. I greeted everyone a good morning. I'm in the mood right now. Because I'll see him again. But as much as I was in good mood it eventually change when I saw Nate's room with doctors. I came. The doctor came out and the father of Nate. “I’m very sorry Deyna, but Nate is...”he trailed off then turned me away, and wipe his eye. As if I knew. Nate is dead. Is this a joke? I'm just shocked. So last night was the sign of goodbye? ''Don't cry when I'm gone" I tried to smile at Nate's dad. I want to cry. But I don't want to disappoint Nate. “May I see him for the last time?”he nodded. I went in the room. I watched his body wrapped in a blanket. I sat beside him and held his cold hand. “Babe, it’s a p-prank right?”I looked at the ceiling because I knew what time my tears were dripping. “Babe please don’t do this to me.”I bite my lower lip and smile hard. The pain. “Babe please open your eyes, comeback” I can't stand on my cry. I moan. “You're so unfair.”I said as I embraced his dead body. “I love you Nate. Unfortunately I didn't even say 'you were alive. Don't worry I won't replace you in my heart. Wait for me okay?”I prayed and hugged his cold body while crying I miss you, my love. Nothing really can stop one's destiny. ............ 4 Years Later I fulfilled his wish for me, I realized until his last breathed I know he's still thinking of me. I finished school and got a job. I've been to everything I want to be. But I'm not happy yet. There is always something missing. Nate. THE END.