@Lunah
I Don't Have Real Friends
Hello to all. Happy Friday! Today is July 30,2021. I take the challenge of @whitney123 on her article about International Friendship Day **even, I don't have real friends. hehehe.** You know, before, When I was in Highschool. I have many friends. But, NOT literally the real meaning of friends. They want me to be their friends because, they need me for academics. I can't say that I'm a smart person. But, I can sense that they take advantage to me because of having a nice grades. Even, I sense it. I just say to myself that. **"It's okay, because soon, when the right time will come. I will realized that its okay to be alone and know my worth".** Before, It's okay to me to be part of them. Even I'm not fitted in the circle of friends they have. **I always fit in to others, because, I want to feel having a friends. Having a person to talk to. I do that, because, I don't want to feel alone in the school. If I don't fit 'n to them and do what they want. I will always left behind, walk alone and eat alone**. I tried my best to socialize. But, I feel bad to myself of being lowkey person I am. During our moving up, they don't even let me join to their celebration, a year end celebration or farewell after quarantine. But, its okay. I just try my best to celebrate it with my family. When, I enter in Senior High School. I feel bad seeing their mydays and posts in facebook. Having fun , dance together and bond together. To be honest, I feel jealous to them, because, this year many of us turned 18 years old. But, they don't even invite me to their birthday celebrations. For 4 years of being a classmates with them. I feel happy those old days that even I tried my best to fit'n. They will treat me as their friends even just a plastic one. Hehe. **But, today they don't even remember me. They always chat me if they need me. They will always remember me if they need something to me**. HAHAHA. My parents saw me crying last night. Because, I do tell to them that. No one even remember me after what I did to them before, in order to help them in their academics. I just realize that even, You tried your best to do good things to them , to be kind and being helpful. But, if they don't like you or pass the vibes they wanted. You will always failed to fit in the group. My mom and dad told me that, **"Hon, you don't need a friends. You don't need a circle of friends. You have us, you need to focus on your career. Friends can ruin you. Trust me Hon. I hope you understand what we wanted to convey".** When I enter in Grade 11. Still, I don't have friends. Because, my classmates are very competitive. And I'm afraid also that they will take advantage to me. Hahaha. I have trust issues now. That time also, I received messages from my previous classmates that they need my help to make them understand what the meaning of their activities. But, you know. I don't replied to them. I just ignore them. The way they ignored me. I don't want to tolerate them to depend to others. I don't want also to be taken for granted by a plastic friends and classmates. I think, those tough olds thays makes me realize that, It's okay to be alone as I grew up. But, I'm so thankful to them. That even, they do that to me. Even I don't have real friends. It serves an inspiration to me to do my own best. To stand by myself. To be alone without a friends to talk to. So, now, I realized that when the people don't want me because, I'm so kind and innocent. Then, I will be alone. For 2 years of being alone by myself . I feel happy staying at home. Watching movies alone. And mind my own business. If there is someone that you feel that they take advantage you of being so kind and helpful. Please, avoid them. I tell to you that **"Being Alone, makes us realize how worthy we are" .** To all my friends here in read.cash. Even this is my fourth day here. I feel not alone anymore. Because, you welcomed me here. I feel happy to write and make friends in this platform. Thank you so much . I will always love you and cherish each one of you. God Bless Us All.
But, as a teenager. To be honest, I wish to have a good real friends and experience a sort of happiness in life. Hehe. That feeling that they will accept me even what status my life now. Hehe Thank you all for reading this article. I just feel emotionally right now. I'm so Sorry. hehe. **HAPPY INTERNATIONAL DAY** my dear friends here. Continue doing good and be the light into someones darkness. I love you! @Lunah
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mas maganda naman talaga mag-isa kung plinaplastic ka lang ng friends mo, Don't worry eventually magkakaroon ka rin ng true friends in the future, dahil hindi naman lahat ng tao ay plastic basta huwag ka lang din matakot makipag kilala hehe
Tama sis. Mas okay din minsan mapag isa. Mas walang problema. Hahahaha. Legit😅
hi po pwede makichallenge din hehe haha akala ko foreigner kayo hehe ang name niyo kasi pangforeigner hehe
Hala. Hahaha. 😅Nabigla ako sa pangforeigner.. Ikaw pa lang nakapagsabi sakin niyan.hehee. Opo. Pwede po. Open for all siya sis. Happy Frenny day sissy. ❤
hahaha ang sweet niyo pala hehe subukan ko ngarin hehe
naka usap na pala kita dati pa haha sorry baka iba yung tinutukoy ko haha
Salamat ate Zcharina. ❤ Hopefully this School Year sana magkaroon ako kahit isang friend lang. Hahaha. or baka sa college pa. Sarili ko na lang muna ngayon. K-drama k drama na lang..hehhe
uy mahilig din ako sa k drama dati nakaaadict kasi hehe
Hi sis. Thank you for taking the challenge. As I read it. Nakakaiyak sobra😥. You don't need to feel bad to yourself sis.. You know why? Because, hindi ikaw ang nawalan ng mga kaibigan. Sila, ang nawalan ng tunay na kaibigan. Napakabait mo para ganyanin ka nila. Di mo need maki fit in sa kanila. Okay? Tama ang parents mo. Minsan, ang kaibigan pa ang mas nakakasira sa atin. Be yourself lang. and nandito kami para sayo. ❤ I love you sis! Tama, know your worth.
Thank you ate whitney. Opo ate. Siguro, hindi lang talaga ako matured enough noon kaya nakiki fit in na lang sa iba para di maging alone sa school. hahaha.
Sorry for that, siguro iba tlaga ang emosyon ng mga babae sa lalake, kase ako hindi ako nakikipagsocialize, noong grade 11 ako dun lang ako gilid habang sila ansaya saya, may sarili akong mundo. Pinapakitaan ko lng ng kabaitan and hopefully, naging mabait naman sila saken, hanggang grade 12 nakabuo na kami ng circle of friends puro lalake kaya puro din kalokohan.🤣 Alam ko mahahanap mo din ung tinatawag na totoong kaibigan, hindi ung mga taong kaibigan ka lang pag may kailangan.❤
Thank you po kuya. Hopefully po soon. Iba talaga kasi basta mga girls. Napaka emotional😆HAHAHA. Pero okay na din maging alone. Basta may ginagawa lang. Buti nga nahanap ko tong dalawang site na to. noise and read. Nakaka gain ng friends and enjoyment. ❤
I salute you to have a courage to let them go. Tama ka, mas okay na Yung mag-isa ka kaysa may kaibigan ka nga pero puro fake Naman. At least you have your parents na always support you. By the way, welcome here at read cash😊
It's better to be alone than to be surrounded by those plastic people. For sure, you will find your true friends. I'm wishing that for you. :)
I felt emotional reading your article 😭😭. I have my real friends, but I can feel that pain. You don't deserve them Sis, and so proud of you conquering it. Stay blessed
Real and genuine friend is ourself, it's like only you, the one who knows more about... I wanted to be in a friend circle where I know I also belong, not longing. if not then better to be alone char..
You just have to choose better friends. It's okay to be alone but no man is an island as they say. We still need someone whether you like it or not. Keep helping others and being kind for it is between you and God anyway. I used to feel like that, that I don't need friends but I have learned to choose better friends. You don't need many friends. All you need are true, real, honest friends. They are the ones who will always be there for you and support you. You may have disagreements every now and then but you get to learn to understand each other better which makes your relationship grow.
I understand how much more difficult it is for young people, especially teenagers, to find real friends nowadays, even pre-pandemic. I think it is because of the prevalence of social media where you can meet and get to know people virtually, instead of actually doing this face-to-face. Admit it or not, there is an invisible screen that the Internet affords us, so we can mask and double mask ourselves while relating to people this way - even via videos. It doesn't help that many people on social media post anything and EVERYTHING about their lives, so this somehow elicits envy in others. It still is best to get to know someone by actually spending quality time with them because you will get a lot of insight about a person that way. And hopefully, you find life-long friends, even if they are just a handful.