Every time I try to be better, something comes up...
When I get over an addiction, another comes up..
When I try to love,.............you know what happens..
Now I'm tired.
Knowing if I try I let people down
So I act like I don't care.
I push people away.
I have so many digital friends but no actual one
I don't know if I'm cursed or something.
I've tried everything but gained almost nothing.
I feel like I've let my family down.
I'm not even staying with them any longer,
That's because I want to be someone they'll be proud of.
I miss them....soooo much but they have no idea.
I'm not perfect ..that I know.
I make mistakes I can't take back .
I try to cover them up but I make it worse eventually.
I once gambled with my school fees so I could have extra cash to get things I needed for school,it didn't end well.....lost it all.
I'm trying .....I'm scare I'll still never be good enough
If there is one thing I'm good at its music.
I'm a fair singer with a good ear for music.
I've been singing since primary School.
Wanted to take music as a career at a tender age but my parents said I needed to study , " why don't I study music " i said but they said it wasn't a professional course.
But now I find myself dabbling into the same music...
It gives me joy,it makes me a good person.
Although I have one track out I want to put more out for people to hear.I'm working on that but it ain't easy....lack of enough financial strength.
I'm gonna try harder....that I can assure everyone who reads this.
I'm gonna be better
I know I'm just human but......
So.....@Macronald this is all I have and I hope you enjoy it.
A little peak into my life.