It was just a normal day last Friday, September 03, 2021 when I felt a light headache and body pain while I am at work. I didn't give much attention and just drink some medicine when I got home in our staff house (provided by our company). The next day I felt a little discomfort on my nose which is normal for me since I had an allergic rhinitis. It was Sunday evening when I read a message in our group chat that one of our colleague assigned in branch has died due to covid-19. What make me worried is two of my colleague here had a closed contact to our co - worker who had the same branch assignment where one of our colleague died.
It was Monday afternoon, September 6, when my Boss decided that I should undergo swab test along with my four housemates who are not feeling well.
I kept on telling my it would be okay even my result would be "positive" but the moment I saw from the test result that I was infected my mind went blank. A lot of things keeps on running into my mind like " what if I won't survive? I am alone here in Manila. I don't want to go home to my family inside a "JAR". However I did try my best to hold back my tears. I don't want anyone to saw weak side. I immediately went into my room to isolate myself, but then I wasn't able to sleep that night. I guess it was because of anxiety.
On the second day, as I learned that some of my housemate already lost their sense of smell and taste plus, they experienced body pain plus I was left alone in the house, I broke down. I cried a lot, thinking what if something worst will gonna happened?
All of my housemates who were tested Negative was pull out and transferred to one of my Boss condo units for safety precautions and since I am the only female who got infected I was left alone in this house.
I was thankful to some of my friends who keeps on cheering me up and keeps on telling me that it should be " Mind over body". I should not overthink and need to fight this anxiety. So I get up and think of the things I need to do.
I contacted my bestfriend and was thankful she is just near my area, she bought me some food supplies and had it delivered via "tok-tok". After that I prepared some lemon water with honey and prepared my meal. I also ensure have "suob" as for as they say this is effective way to kill the bacteria. I also kept on monitoring my oxygen level as well as my body temperature from time to time.
Yes, I need to help my self if I want to live, I don't have anyone to take care me here so I need to be emotionally strong. I need to fight and motivate myself to overcome this battle.
Musta na po pakiramdam mo?