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My Life Before

So I heard about this readcash in twitter where a person shared a link of this platform. I haven't heard about this platform in my whole life but I am interested to know how this works. I also read the post here that it should be 5 mins long which I think I cannot make it that long. I am Lewiss who likes to hike and I love reading comics, I also love to write articles and I think I can developed that here. I would really appreciate if you guys will guide and teach me in this platform. I'm a busy wannabe but likes to explore new things so I found out that I should introduce who I am, myself. But I honestly don't have much of to tell about myself so I find it plainly boring to write a long message about myself. Personally I don't like to write such a long information about myself but I would give a try. I am the eldest of my family and I would love to travel the Paris someday because it's my dream destination. I will share you a short story about my life where my friend betrayed me and replaced me after they moved into different school, my heart breaks really. We had been into a lot of trip, the kind of inseparable if people would describe us. We had a long friendship memories and always talk about each other's crushes. One should confessed but no one between us did that to our ultimate crush. We actually an idiot and sometimes we do cutting classes, sorry for that but it's actually the best thing we did. We cutting class then we go into hypermarts and went fun all day without thinking tomorrow we will be zero or worse suspended. Just like normal teenagers, we break rules just to do what we want and wanders into different places without letting our parents know about us. There was a time I remember when my mother wanted me to leave our house because I'm such a black sheep, yes I understand because I haven't done any good. Honestly, I feel such a failure to my parents but my little brother, a half brother is very adored by them. He is perfect and I am flawed with insecurities because I am like this. I don't know but I have my best friend so it won't even matter to me. But that was before my best friend or should I say my old friend betrayed me. I don't know why, it seems like what we have been is some sort of joke or it's just a movie scene. Hoesntly I don't like to share this here but I guess it's the best to let go and released of what I have felt yesterday. I have to think about my own life, I still have a life to live and a life without that old friend I used to know. I admit I have wished for that person to die like for no reason or in accident, that's how my anger went too far. But I don't do physical hurting, I am not that person I also have my morality. But it just kinda such 'coz I am a black sheep and my friend who told me the worth I have that my parents never told me, was gone. I don't know where I went wrong until now, I have so much questions about my personality. I know this is going too personal but I have to opened at the things I cannot opened to the people I know or even my family. I am sorry for that but I shouldered everything as always. It feels worse espescially when my friend betrayed me, there such a shallowed hole inside. I don't know if I can still find a friend but even though like that, my old friend is sti the best friend I ever had in life not to mention all the craziness we been. I don't know if anyone of you had been there, maybe you will know how I really felt all those things. But I forgive my friend for that betrayal, I have to let go of regrets and so much emotion but our memories are such a rainbow of paradise. So colorful and merrier but I don't why it all happened. Until now I don't know about my friend or what life it has. Never had any information in social media and anywhere. Maybe I was blocked or I don't know, maybe my friend changed its name. I really don't know. Maybe I can find my friend here, maybe my friend is also using this platform then hey how are you, it's such a long time since we did not meet. I know it's false hope but I had forgive you and you will always be the great friend of my life. This is so beautiful to recall everything we had in life and sometimes it still make me sad everytime something reminds me of. I know I'm dramatic but this experience has taught me so much to feel and think about. It changed my perspective in life. It made me into a better person than I am yesterday. I'm no longer a black sheep, I started a new life with a beautiful purpose and meaning everyday. I have to make my parents proud of me and soon my children too. Thank you so much for reading about a part of my life here in readcash.

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