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The ramp is lowered, the blockade, everything is broken in half, the walls, closedness, alienation, loneliness, waiting, "it will be better"- someone says, weak borders, silence, misunderstanding... Where is the ease of existence and when did everything get complicated? Let these words be drwn in separate bubbles like in a comic book with my caricature on the forehead. Next time i'll be a clown, when curtain rises again, or i' ll wait for a fairy tale. Instead of a…
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Some time ago, an action of awarding free ash seedings was organized under the name "Plant your shade". The most responsible minicipalites, 160 of them, applied, and my city is not among them. Obviously, the mayor does not listen to something that everyone needs, and that is oxygen, a natural respirator. Instead, they cut down trees in many streets. Maybe they think it's enough for us to have a few nature parks. If the city leaders had given money for free, they would have…
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Attention, attention! It was quite an ordinary and boring night and there was nothing to indicate that a miracle would happen. We all looked at the sky, kept silent and waited for something to happen without having more topics to talk about. And suddenly he appeared, small yellow glowing unidentified object. He watched ours from above with his shining eyes and we had the honor of being visited by a creature from another planet just after eating a couple of lizards in the…
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When plan A is not going, very quickly go to plan B, C, D ... I am currently on plan W and from that distance I can see the bigger picture better. I expect this W plan to successfully push my problems under the rug, and I pretend they don’t exist. When it becomes unbearable, I always have the option to cry. After that I go from the beginning of plan A. That circle seems impenetrable and the real fun begins when my plans quarrel with each other. They say that the truth is in…
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I dreamed that everything digital on the internet is gone, everything is written down, and I have nothing on paper. And it didn't last for several hours, but disappeared forever. Yes, I am from the last century, but somehow I got used to this digital age as well. It's as if someone returned everything to the factory settings, where we are left with only names and residential addresses. And libraries. Luckily I have a good memory so I don’t need anything but developing images…
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Today, I am not in the mood to lie down on a couch called Noise and announce my diagnoses or write a diary of movements and events. Yes, something happened, because of the wind, the laundry from the wire on my terrace went to Topola, a town near mine. I was looking for the wind in my back and not for the laundry. Someone will pick it up there so I don't have to. The international theater festival Joakimfest starts tomorrow, I have tickets, but I'm not in the mood to go. A…
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Postoji jedna pesma sa kojom sam htela da vratim ono sto je bilo izgubljeno onda kada nije trebalo, i za cim sam zalila jer nisu bile obrnute uloge, jer je on ostao da truje. Nisam znala da ce necija fikcija biti inspiracija za iste slike i traume koje sam danas videla u filmu Toma. I dalje sam nemocna da pomognem, i dalje suze teku same i ostao mi je urodjeni instinkt "spasioca" iako ni sebi ne mogu da pomognem. Nije te vratila pesma ali te vidim kroz snove u losem izdanju.…
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The Joakim fest international theater festival started two days ago and will last for seven days. The first play was based on the novel of the same name by Aleksandar Tisma "The use of man" in cooperation and production of three countries from the region, Serbia, Montenegro and Bosnia and Herzegovina. The play speaks about the arrogance of today's society and the necessity to learn through books what the real values are, which should be written more often nowadays.…
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Again in a place where there is no noise, altrough i like murmurs, crowds, loudness and various other sounds that are classified as pleasant, regardless of the fact that noise is often considered an unwanted and harmful sound. There is silence here, only the colors overflow and as such inspire the verses with which you have a desire to swallow some letters because they indicate pain. I spilled a glass of wine on this natural sun canvas to smudge those colors. Steal my glass…
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Odlaze ljudi a ja sam srecna jer je moja drugarica izasla ziva. Doktori su rekli da je Bog spasio. I evo pijemo kafu svaki dan, zaboravljajuci sve ono sto nas je razdvajalo godinama. Ja sam znala kada su mi rekli da nema nikakve sanse da se izvuce, da ce se spasiti jer je uvek bila jaka i pozitivna. Sa tom verom sam se molila Bogu da je spasi. Bliskost i intimnost, podrska, paznja, treba da bude svakome na umu u odnosu sa drugima jer imamo samo ovaj zivot. Izbrisala bi sve…
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My perfect image is the rays of the particles of the sun through a half closed window with bars, where i sit under it. It would be a realistic picture, the imagination is something else and it seems unreal against it. Growing up requires a lot of gentle words, a few apologies, the necessary support, care, and compromise. My adult self talking yestrday.
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People keep old photos and until recently I had an unfinished film from a camera that was standing in the freezer. There were pictures from two concerts reflected in Zemun at the football stadium, in 1990 and 1991. The first was a concert by Tina Turner and the second by Bob Dylan. I did not know at that moment that there would be significant concerts, although the country had been in a kind of blockade for years before that, as far as the concerts of performers from the…
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One nice piece of news from my city that deserves praise. In addition to the already existing 5 shelters for dogs, a shelter for cats will be opened at the initiative of citizens with help of donations from the city assembly, individual aid and membership fees from people in the association. The contract has been signed and a location for accommodation will be found in the coming days. All street cats will be taken to the shelter. It is still disorganized enough, everything…
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I stand like that and look intently at the pictures, i forget about time and that there are other pictures. Somehow they come to life as i watch them, and i stay frozen in the moment, without thinking about what they should represent. They seem to be made with ease, they seem abstract, on the paper, as a drawing, watercolor, with parts of collages, newspaper clippings. Painted by a local professor of fine arts, and they exhibited in a art salon.
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The day is ideal to spend in my thoughts and dreams in front of a cafe in Paris, in the garden, the most ordinary, but beautiful enough because it is surrounded by even better architecture of the city. After that, a walk through Montmartre, and trampling on freshly fallen leaves. Nicely arranged bookstores attract my attention, narrow streets make me get lost, and the river makes me find myself. I'll let you know what happens when I wake up je t'aime c'est la vie
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For a long time, there were no interesting facts from a surreal country full of illogicality, gaffes, eternal satirical inspiration, but with the goal of irreversibly destroying every spirit or life of its citizens. The latest is the possible introduction of a verbal offense for expressing opinions, criticism, which results in their amendment of the Criminal Code, a sentence of one year in prison. Freedom of opinion is guaranteed by the Constitution, but in this case there…
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Where are the blocked enthusiasts going? To heaven or hell? What are their sins? There is no one to answer these and many other questions because we do not have access to those responsible for our (self) murder. We weren’t perfect maybe, ah yes, every word that killed us was measured. I didn't know it was a sin to retaliate. Who knows how many sins I have, but I am not told that, it is solved by pressing one button off. Every effort in the previous months was thrown into the…
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I attended a funny sporting event today in my city. At the urging of my sister and nephew, we watched the football match Radnicki - Crvena Zvezda. I remembered when i brought my son to the same stadium when he was child to watch Partizan and with what enthusiasm he enjoyed the matches. The match was boring, the expected victory of Crvena Zvezda 0:3, but the funnier part was listening to the spectators while swearing, talking to themselves, arguing with the referees, players,…