@Krizzy

False Alarm Right now I already have 3 kids. My eldest is 12 yrs old,the second one is 8yrs old and the youngest is 2 yrs old. In my first and second pregnancy I never encounter such difficulty in having a morning sickness except for I didn't like the smell of perfume and anything that smells good. Except for that I am perfectly fine during the 9 months of pregnancy. Even in gaving birth. Yes it's painfuland I can't describe the pain I had encounter since they are both normal delivery but at least after having a 12 hrs labor I get to gave birth to both of them in normal and at home. I never pay anything and never had any false labor at all. Once it hurts I already know that it will come out soon. And I always stay calm and quiet until it hurts more than what you can imagine. But right now again,just like my third pregnancy I am having a hard time and again a false alarm. I already encounter it with my third child. I had two false labor alarm. We already went to the Lying In clinic to check if I am going to gave birth but sadly go back home because it's still not yet time for her to come out. It's a little bit frustrating but I don't have a choice since I really need to wait for the right time to come. Just like now,I only had 3 hrs force sleep since it's been aching starting 12 midnight until now at 12 noon. But the pain is still tollerable and I can still endure it. Although it's a bit frustrating since I really want to give birth already. It's already hard for me to walk properly or do things I want to do since my legs is aching like crazy. I also had this false labor alarm last July 18 but I didn't talk about it to my in laws since I get used to it from my previous experience in my third child. Even my husband only found out about it when he got back home from his duty. But now,again I am experiencing it and only my husbands knows about it. But he still went to work since the pain doesn't exceed to what I expect for someone whose going to give birth. It's been 12 hrs now but the pain is still the same. I hope that he will come out soon so that the troubles and worries will be gone and we all can relax already. Please baby,if you want to come out we are most happy to welcome you to the world. Please don't make me suffer more. We love you and so excited to see you Baby Asher,our little prince...

Getting Excited! Hello there,been busy lately that I didn't have much time to write an article here in read.cash. Who wouldn't get busy and excited if one of your dreams is getting come true? What is it? Well,it's my dream house! Yes,finally it is almost half done. Not full yet since they prioritize to finish the first floor of our house because the baby is coming and it will be hard for me to go up and down in the stairs. That's why it's needed to prioritize to be done first. It's fine and I'm still happy because they we're thinking about me and my baby. The dream house I've been dreaming is about to be finish without any participation or money involve from us. It's all courtesy of my in laws. See how lucky I am? Haha! My husband is the youngest and the only one who decided to have a family that's why he is the first one to have a chance to have his own house courtesy of his father. And I am so lucky to be his wife. About the house,the color and design is not really my ideal type but it's fine with me since it's free. A lot of his cousins get jelous of him and saying how lucky my husband is to have a father like my father in law. And I won't argue with that. Although he is sometimes temperal at least he have a good heart and using his retirement money not only for his own but also sharing for his family. I am really hoping that the house will be done before the baby comes out. And I know my baby is also waiting it to be done before he comes out. Actually it should be done already by now if not for the pandemic that made it posponed and also for the carpenters whose randomly coming to work. They only come when they want to. Mostly 4 days a week instead of 6 days a week. That's why the construction got delayed. But it's ok since they have their reason. But seeing how beautiful the house is I am most satisfied and happy to see it almost done. And getting more excited to live in it. To decorate it with the things in my mind and call it our home.😊😍

Stop and Fight for It! LET OUR VOICE BE HEARD LET'S STOP THE RAPE! Hi, I just want to share this beautiful poem that dedicates for rape victims from a friend's group of poems. I hope you all like it! (Dedicated to every girl everywhere in the world that has fought till death... We pray and love you) A trumpet of war is sounding Being blown by those that have fallen by the sword of abuse By the lips that once tasted bile And by the thighs violated Like a jaundice to behold Yet left with a scar A cancerous print in Life history The cold blood spilled are crying out for justice The lives driven to the graves are awake In an assembly to assemble before their supreme With no petitions but accusations Needing no witness to prove And the case can't be adjourned The moment is now! For the jury of the world has failed They failed us even when we only heard such news from afar We stood still till they allowed the evil far away to swallow us We entrusted our lives to the world But she has ruptured our lives And has planted our bodies forever Like tubers buried to rotten up Let He that has ears hear...! For the trumpet sounds... The feeble thighs screams for justice! And our blood have formed a tower reaching heaven And as if the jury is on a wheelchair vacation Or maybe asleep But they have been relieved of their duties henceforth For the flags of anger has been raised The war of the spirits have been declared open The hunter shall become the hunted someday But only the evil does the voice cries out against Because we are weak from crying And tears has even strayed from our eyes The strength to fight was taken away Our voices were hijacked And here in the graveyard Our homes were built unduly If the jury remains silent Our voices shall not go silent SAY NO TO RAPE... AND HAVE A VOICE FOR THE ABUSED TODAY... EVERY CHILD IS YOUR CHILD... CHANGE THE WORLD...

Potato Cheese Ball Hello everyone! I just wanna share my new recipe that my kiddos loves to eat. Actually it's my first time to try it but my kids loves it that after cooking it,in less than 5 mitues I was so surprise that they finish it all in a flash! I hope you all like it. It's simple but tasty and healthy! Ingredients: 1 big or 2 medium size potato 1/2 tsp salt A pinch of ground pepper Dized cheese Breadcrumbs 1 egg Procedure: 1.) Slice the potato then boil it until tender. 2.) Mash the potato and then put the salt and ground pepper. Mix well. 3.) Get a spoon of the potato then round it in your palm then flatten it and put the dized cheese inside then round it again in your palm. 4.) Dip the round potato into the beaten egg then dip it also in the breadcrums. Make sure that it is fully cover of the breadcrumbs then put it in the boiling oil in the pan. 5.) Wait until it's golden brown then take it out from the pan. 6.) Just repeat the procedure until all the mixture is cook. 7.) You can dip it into the catsup or you can eat alone itself. 8.) Serve and enjoy!

Suicidal Mind Is there ever a chance in your life that you feel like this? You feel that you don't want to live anymore? That in your mind you just want to stop everything and just end your life? I know a lot of you may say it's a crazy thought. But for me it's a no. Because I always have this feeling in me. Just hiding inside my head and keep on appearing whenever I'm depress. Eversince I was a child I had this. Yes,maybe a crazy thought for everyone. But for me it's a serious thought that I tried so many times in my life. I just don't know why in those attempt I never ended up dying. There's always a scenario that someone caught me doing it or sometimes I wake up in a realization that I am really afraid to do it or finish it. Maybe,sometimes it's because of the blood that I saw running down my wrist. Because I am afraid of blood maybe that's one of the reason I can't finish it sometimes. Or maybe I am just a lucky bitch that God doesn't want my life to end yet. But everytime I am depress I always have the same thought over and over again in my mind. Just like today if not for my kids. If not for the baby inside my womb. And if not for my son who who is stranger in this house I am more than willing to end all this! I am willing to finish this useless life that I have. Because I can't take it anymore! I am so suffocated and cannot breath at all! I want to scream! I want to cry out loud. But everything needs to remain in my head. I need to pretend I am okay. I need to let them see that everything is okay. That there is no problem at all. That I am happy even though I am not. It's really hard to pretend but maybe I just I have an artist side in me. Where I can laugh,smile and let them see that everything is fine. Even though my heart wants to explode anytime. No,I am not okay! I am not fine just like what you see. But how can I let them know this? If I am just stranger here in this house? If I don't have the right to complain and cry? People thought I am lucky. They thought I am just a happy go lucky one. That I can do anything I want. But that's not true. Because I am like a prisoner here in my head. Thinking of something that I should not. Wanting to end things even if I should not. Please help me oh God! Please help me clear my mind. I don't know until when can I keep it up. I don't know if until when can I hold on to the things that letting me have a sane mind...

Leche Flan Hi, it's been a while since I posted here. And now I am just excited to post my latest achievement in making my lecheflan not so perfect but at least it comes out looking good and tasty. And I used whole egg so that nothing goes to trash. So this is the ingredients and procedure. Hope you enjoy and like it! Ingredients: 6pcs medium size eggs 1 Big Can of Condensed Milk 1 Big Can of Evaporated Milk 3/4 cup white sugar for syrup Lemon Zest Procedure: 1.) Put the eggs in a large bowl and beat them. Not too much to make sure that there is no bubble. 2.) Then put the condensed milk at evaporated milk and slightly beat again until they mix properly together and then put the lemon zest and mix again. 3.) Set aside. Then make the syrup. 4.) For making a syrup heat the sugar in a pan. Make sure that it is in low fire. 5.) Once the sugar melt,mix it properly until it is in the desired slighlty brown color. 6.) Pour an enough amount in each Lyanera and let ot cool down. 7.) Once the syrup is cool down,put the mixture in the Lyanera. Make sure that the mixture is sift twice before transfering. 8.) Put the Lyanera with mixture in the steamer. Reminder again,make sure that the water in the steamer is already boiling before putting the Lyanera inside. 9.) Cook it in medium fire for about 30 minutes. 10.) Once the 30 mitues is over. Turn off the fire and let it rest inside for another 20 minutes to make sure that the Leche flan is cook well. 11.) You can now take out the Leche Flan and check it by using a toothpick to check if the inside is cook well. If the toothpick comes out clean. It means that the Flan is cook well. 12.) Let it cool down before transfering into the container and then put in the fridge for 4 hours or overnight. Then serve and enjoy! Actually it's not my own recipe because I also watch it in facebook. And tried it! And I'm happy with the result. Can't wait to eat it tomorrow!😊😁

Tama na,Please lang po! Eto na naman. Ang aga-aga nakakarindi yung bunganga niya. Daig pa ang babae kung makaputak! Ang sakit sa ulo! Nakakarindi na talaga sya! Simula nung isang araw hanggang ngayon mainit ang ulo niya. Di naman sya laging ganito. Ngayon lang sya nagkaganito na halos walang preno bunganga niya. Isa na siguro sa dahilan na wala na silang pera. Kulang na ang budget nila sa pagpapatayo ng bahay. At sa pang gastos sa araw-araw. Tapos yung mga trabahador pa na imbes na pumasok kasi alam naman na minamadali na yung bahay na matapos e laging pang absent at kung aabsent naman ay di man lang magpasabi kung ano ang dahilan. Kaya lagi na lang mainit ang kanyang ulo at lahat ng tao dito sa bahay ay dinadamay niya. Nakakakasawa ang ganito. Nakakaiyak na lang sa part ko. Wala akong magawa dahil sampid lang naman ako dito. Wala din namang magawa ang anak niya kundi tumahimik at wag magreklamo. Dahil kung magsasalita sila e hindi rin naman sila mananalo. Kaya lang toxic naman kasi masyado. Lalo na sa katulad kong laging masama pakiramdam dahil araw na lang hinihintay ko para manganak ako. Imbes na marelax ko sarili ko at wag mag-isip ng kung ano-ano e di ko maiwasan mastress ng todo. Araw na lang po manganganak na ako. Sana naman ibigay niyo na sakin yung mga araw na yun para sa konting katahimikan at konting peace of mind man lang. Pakiramdam ko kada makakarinig ako ng ingay ng bunganga niyo e sasabog ang utak at dibdib ko. Lalo na ngayon na masyadong emosyonal ang pakiramdam ko dahil nga sa dinadala kong apo niyo. Please lang po tama na muna. Konting katahimikan po muna. Ayokong maging bastos at maging walang modong tao. Kaya pinipilit kong manahimik na lang sa isang tabi. Kahit sa totoo lang e gusto ko ng sumabog o magwala ng todo. Para lang mailabas ko yung nasa sa loob ko. Pasensya na mga kaibigan. Dito ko lang kasi nailalabas mga nararamdaman ko. Laking pasasalamat ko talaga dito sa read.cash kasi yung mga hindi ko mailabas na sama ng loob sa ibang tao o sa facebook dahil ayoko rin gawin e at least nailalabas ko dito. Kahit papano nababawasan sama ng loob ko at gumagaan ng konti nararamdaman ko. Maraming salamat sa mga makakaunawa at please lang po no bashing. Isa lang po akong buntis na emosyonal kaya nagkakaganito.

E Ano,Sino ba Kayo? Alam ko di akong perpektong tao. May mga pagkakamali ako at pagkukulang din sa ibang tao. Pero never akong basta na lang nanghuhusga ng kapwa ko. Kahit sino handa kong iplease kung para naman sa ikabubuti ng nakakarami. Pero kung talagang ayaw sakin anong magagawa ko? Alangan namang ipagsiksikan ko sarili ko para lang magustuhan niyo ako? Di naman tama yun. Oo,sa una gagawin ko kahit anong posible para lang matuwa sakin ang tao. Handa akong maging mapagbigay,maunawain at mabuting tao para lang maiplease ko kayo kung talagang kailangan. Pero naman,lahat ng bagay ay may hangganan. Ginawa ko lahat para matuwa kayo. Para tanggapin niyo ako. Pero anong napala ko? Naging masama pa kong tao sa iba dahil sa kagagawan niyo. Kailangan niyo pa kong siraan para magalit din sakin yung ibang tao? Ano bang kasalanan ang ginawa ko sa inyo? Wala naman akong pinakitang masama sa inyo ahh? Para husgahan niyo ako at di maging maganda ang inyong trato. Kada magkikita-kita ang pamilya dinededma niyo ako. Ramdam ko ang mga irap at talas ng mga mata niyo. Ang mga simpleng pagtawa at pagkutya niyo sakin ay alam ko. Di naman kasi ako manhid na tao. May damdamin din po akong katulad niyo. Lahat ng pagtitiis ngayon ay ginagawa ko. Alang-alang man lang sa pagsasama namin ng asawa ko na kamag anak niyo. Sige,ayaw niyo sakin? Di niyo ako gusto? Okay lang,sanay na ako. Kung sa sariling kamag-anak ko nga mas higit pa naranasan ko. Pero di ako sumuko at lumaban ako sa pahirap ng mundo. Kaya kahit ano pang mangyari handa akong magtiis. Sino ba kayo para husgahan ako? Oo,kamag-anak kayo ng asawa ko pero hindi naman kayo mismo mga byenan ko. Kaya kung ayaw niyo sakin e ayoko na rin sa inyo. Ang importante lang ay tanggap ako ng magulang ng kinakasama ko. At pabor din sakin ang mga kapatid niya kahit hindi nila masyadong ipinapakita. Okay na sakin yun. Mas importante sila kesa sa inyong makikitid ang utak. Na walang alam gawin kundi manghusga at magmataas sa kapwa. Hindi ko kailangan ang mga katulad niyo. Dahil hindi rin naman kayo ang bumuhay sakin dito sa mundo. Salamat na lang kahit na papano. Nalaman kong marami talagang katulad niyo sa mundo.

My Second Raffle Draw Remember the one I wrote before about my Raffle Draw? The excitement before helps me to make another one. And it is also a funny and exciting one. I choose the prizes which the joiners will like. Well,I thought they will really like though. But when I posted it they request a different one so I need to change it for them to join again,,hehe. So I decided what my joiners like for them to win. And those are : For the grand prize I choose Blender,for the first prize is again the 3 Layer Steamer and for the second prize is Electric Kettle. The numbers start from 1-35 and they need to pay 60 pesos per slot. I choose until 35 numbers only to make sure it will be filled faster. That's what I thought again. But sadly the numbers didn't get filled or not all the numbers got bought. Seven numbers still left and I had no choice but to finish it up by filling it in with my family's name. Just to start the raffle. And since the numbers hadn't bought all. I didn't gain anything from it so I told the joiners that once one of those numbers came up or be pick in the raffle draw, I had no choice but to get the prize for my own. So that at least I gain something from the raffle I made. And I think they agreed to it because no one refused. Or it's just that they have no choice since it's my game,,haha. And then I started the live raffle draw. Everyone is excited. Me,my husband and the people in the house are excited also. And then I call the number that my husband pick. But sadly the first one he choose is the one who didn't pay her number so I have no choice but to raffle it again. And then someone won the second prize which is the Electric Kettle. It's funny because she said that she wish she could at least win in my raffle since she tried a lot of raffle draw already online. And never won. After saying that I also told her that I wish too. And she did! I got an angelic tongue,hehe. So we continue with the draw. And to my surprise the first prize goes to the number with my name on it. So I won the first prize! I am so happy and they cannot argue with that since I already told them the mechanics of unpaid numbers. I am so lucky to win that 3 Layer Steamer which is I should also won in my first raffle draw if I didn't gave the number to my mother in law. So it means that the 3 Layer Steamer is really meant for me. Not for the first time but also for the second time around. I am such a lucky preggy woman! Haha! And For the last and the grand prize draw? Well,I am also happy to announce that the winner is my friend who really like that Blender. She even wanted to get a blender from my online store but I told her I won't order her yet because maybe she could win it in my raffle draw. And to our surprise,she really got it! She won the Blender that she liked so much! She's so happy and us too. I am really happy that at least even I didn't earn any money from this raffle at least I got one from the prize and my friend got what she wanted too. Although I'm a little bit sad with our other friend who really like to have the steamer but never had the chance to have it. Well,there is still next time and I hope they won't get tired of joining my raffle draw. Because I am happy doing it to help and to gain. Maybe my third batch will be after giving birth. I need to prioritize my tummy now since most of my responsibilities are done. But I am still excited to have the soon to be next batches of raffle draws. Thanks for reading!😊

Getting Ready! I woke up too early in the morning which is not really my type. I woke up 5:30 am today which is not my usual hour of waking up because I usually wake up earliest is 6:30 am and the late one is 9:00 am. But today is unusual day because I felt something in my stomach down to my legs. It is starting to feel pain. So I get up fix the things I need in case the pain won't stop at least I am ready. I texted my husband who is on duty at work that be ready anytime when I need him. And he agrees at understand what I mean. The pain sometimes stop. But after a few minutes it will hurt again. I'm not mentioning anything to my in laws because I don't want them to panick specially if it is just a false alarm just like from my previuos experience in my baby girl. So I also didn't panick and just wait for it to be more painful. Hour by hour I've waited while just relaxing and chatting with my friends to make myself relax and not thinking about the pain. All the things I need were all packed and ready. But the pain didn't increase. It remains just a pain every 30 to 1 hour interval. So I think he's not ready yet to come out. Until now that the day is almost ending, I still feel the pain but not that much to panick. I don't know when or what time he will decide to come out and see the world but I am hoping that he will not let me suffer in so much pain. We are excited and at the same time is scared since the covid cases in the hospital is not to be ignore but we don't have a choice. It's hard to be a CS Mom but I am ready to sacrifice all just for the safety of my little one. So baby don't be shy anymore and let us see your cute,angelic face. We are excited to see you and I am always ready for you!

Pagmamahal o Respeto? Katulad ng mga ordinaryong araw lang ang nagaganap samin kanina. Yung baby ko nangungulit habang naglalaro at pinapanood namin sya ng mga byenan ko. C hubby naman natutulog sa kwarto. Nagpapahinga dahil sa pagod galing sa trabaho. Nagulat ako ng bigla na naman akong tanungin ng byenan kong lalaki tungkol sa parents ko. Kaya ko nasabing na naman kasi sa totoo lang ilang beses na ko niyang tinanong tungkol doon. At ilang beses ko na rin naikwento sa kanya ang istorya ng buhay ko. Sa totoo lang baka nagsasawa na yung byenan kong babae marinig ang kwento ko. Ganun siguro ang tumatanda. Nagiging ulyanin na sa mga bagay-bagay. At since makulit c Tatay sinagot ko ulit mga katanungan niya. Nasaan daw ba ang Mama ko? Di ko daw ba sya namimiss? May kontak pa raw ba ako sa kanya? At syempre ang laging sagot ko,hindi po. Nasaan sya? Nandun sa pangalawa niyang pamilya. Di ko ba namimiss? Hindi, kasi nga kami hindi niya namiss kahit minsan kaya bakit naman namin sya mamimiss di ba? May kontak pa ba kami? Wala na,sya ang pumutol sa komunikasyon namin kaya bakit pa ko mag eeffort na kontakin sya? Ilang beses kong sinubukan na kontakin sya at kada makakausap ko sya ay di sya nawawalan ng dahilan para di kami makita. Way niya para maiwasan kami. Kaya bakit pa ko gagawa ulit ng paraan di ba? E yung Papa ko daw nasaan na? Bakit daw kami pinabayaan na lang? Ilang beses ko na rin sinagot yung tanong niya na to. Sabi ko matagal na pong patay ang Papa ko. Anim na taong gulang pa lang ako nung mamatay sya sa sakit na cancer. Siguro kung di sya namatay di kami nagkahiwa-hiwalay na magkakapatid. E saan daw kami lumaki? Sinagot ko ulit ang tanong niya. Sa mga kamag anak po namin kaso di kami tinuring na totoong kapamilya. Tinuring kaming katulong,utusan o mutsatsa. Kaya po wag kayo magtaka kung bakit ayaw namin silang kontakin pa. Kasi nga walang kwenta tingin nila samin kasi wala kaming pera na katulad nila. Kada maririnig ng byenan ko yun tumataas ang dugo niya. Sa kanila kasi importante ang kapamilya. Maganda ang samahan nilang magkakamag anak. Alaga nila mga pamangkin nila. Tinuturing nilang pangalawang anak nila. Kaya sabi niya sakin hindi pwede yung ganun. Parang hayop naman daw ang tingin samin ng mga kamag anak namin. Kung gusto ko raw susugurin namin sila at kakausapin niya. Natawa na lang ako pero natutuwa ako kasi kita ko ang concern niya samin ng ate ko. Pero sabi ko na lang sa kanya ayos lang po samin yun. Sanay na kami sa mga kamag anak namin sa side ng Mama ko. Matataas ang tingin nila sa sarili nila porket may mga kaya sa buhay. Buti pa sa side ng Papa ko na kahit di ganun ang estado sa buhay. Kahit yung iba medyo gipit din at least itinuturing kaming kamag anak nila. Sapat na samin yun. Mas may respeto pa kami sa kanila. Mas minahal pa namin yung poor side ng Papa ko kesa sa rich side ng Mama ko. Respeto? Pagmamahal? Pwede mo lang yun ibigay sa mga taong karapat-dapat tumanggap nito. Pano mo irerespeto yung mga taong basura ang tingin sayo? Pano mo mamahalin ang mga taong sa una pa lang e di na makatao? Kaya sobrang thankful ko sa mga in laws ko kasi kahit may kaya sila sa buhay at alam nila yung sitwasyon ko ay tinanggap nila ako. At tinuturing na ring parang anak nila. Di ko man sila tunay na magulang pero yung respeto ko sa kanila ay napakalaki. Yung pagmamahal na di ko naibigay sa mga magulang ko ay sa kanila ko na lang ibibigay. Di man ako lumaki na may gabay pero lumaki naman akong tapat na tao. May takot sa Diyos at alam kung pano rumespeto. Kaya sisiguraduhin kong iaapply ko yun ngayon sa pamilyang binuo ko.

Once Upon a Time.. Once upon a time in my teenage days, I met this girl who is nice and a friendly one. I was in my fourth year highschool that time. She approach me and wanted to be friend with me. So I said why not. I just can't ignore her cute smile. But beside her friendly gesture she has a remarkable attitude in class. What is it? Well,she always fall asleep during our class. And even in a breaktime she always take that time to take a nap. That's why our classmates is calling her sleeping beauty. They always tease her and wake her up during her nap. But she's just ignoring them and continued her nap. One time, I ask her why is it that she is always sleepy. Doesn't she get a good night sleep at home? At first she was hessitant to response to my question. But since I am her friend and she trusted me she told me her deep sad story. She's working at night while studying the whole day. Since our class start's at 6:00 am and end in 5:00 pm she doesn't get much sleep. Because her work start's at 8:00 pm and end in 5:00 am. But the sad thing here is what she really do at her work. She said that she is working in a bar as a bar girl. When a guy choose her, she needs to sit beside him and have a ladies drink. They earn money by drinking ladies drink. So if they drink a lot,they earn a lot. That's why when she goes to school she's always sleepy because she's drunk. I felt really sad after hearing her deep secret. So I decided to help her since it's not appropriate for her age to work in that kind of job. I offer her to work in my part time job. Because that time I am also working at night but it's a decent one. I used to work in a canteen. It's a 24 hrs canteen since the location is beside the road and in front of a factory. The factory name is Nestle. So we have a 24 hr customer. But not much at night that's why I still can have a nap when there is no customer. I offer her to work with me. I said I will talk to the owner for her. Even my salary is not that much it still can help me with my study. And beside I have a free meal since I am also stay in that time in the canteen. But to my surprise she declined my offer. She said she likes to work in that bar since she is earning a lot. And since she doesn't have any family with her, she can do whatever she wants in her life. I felt sad but respect her decision. Maybe that is what she really want and I need to just understand and respect that. She's a good friend afterall. Most of the time she treat us to canteen and give us some gift. She really is a friendly person and I don't critisize her. After our graduation in highschool we never see each other again. She never contact us again. The last thing I heard about her is that she's going somewhere and will stay there for good. Until now I can still remember her. I am hoping that she is in good condition and working now in a decent job. And maybe finally have her own family. A happy family who can accept her past. And don't critisize her. If I can see her again,I would be glad to meet her and have a little bonding with her. Have a chitchat of what happen to our life and what happened after we depart. Life is not really easy. We can encounter a lot of hardship before we can have at least a better life. I am happy and contented now in my life. I can't say it's perfect but still I can say it's a happy and a good one.

Bakit Kaya? Bakit kaya andaming epal sa mundo? Yung tipong kahit hindi mo naman kilala e pinakikialaman ka sa mga ginagawa mo? Parang katulad na lang ng mga tsismosa. Ang hilig ay makialam at itsismis ka sa iba. Bakit kaya hindi na lang nila pakialaman ang mga sariling buhay nila? Sa ginagawa ba nila e tingin nila aasenso sila? Di ba nila maisip na di sila nakakatuwa? Na minsan nakakasakit na sila ng damdamin ng iba. Sa 32 years ko dito sa mundo. Di ko lubos maisip kung bakit may mga ganitong klaseng tao. Akala mo naman mga buhay nila ay perpekto. Na walang mali at pwedeng maipintas sa kanila. Ayokong magsalita,ayokong mag-isip ng masama sa kapwa. Dahil hindi ko gawaing pakialaman ang kapwa ko. O itsismis ang ibang tao. Kaya sana naman yung mga gumagawa nito. Maisip nila na hindi na maganda at nakakaperwisyo na sila. Na maraming ibang bagay na pwedeng pagkaabalahan. At hindi lang ang sa buhay ng iba ay makialam. Napakaraming magagandang bagay sa mundo. Ang pwedeng pagkaabalahan ng ibang tao. Mga may kwentang bagay na pwedeng libangan. Or pwede rin namang pagkakitaan. Kaya sana naman sa mga taong walang maisip na gawin. Kundi ang pakialaman buhay ng iba. Ay maisip nila na may mga ibang bagay pa ang pwede nilang gawin sa mga buhay nila. Nang sa ganun ay magkasilbi naman sila. Dito sa ating magulo ng lipunan na dinadagdagan pa nila ng problema..

Minsan Minsan sa aking buhay, Ako'y umibig ng tapat sa isang taong, Di ko naman lubusang kilala. Refrain: Saglit ko lang syang nakita, Saglit ko lang syang nakasama. Ngunit ano itong nadama? Damdamin na kakaiba. Bakit ba? Nagkaganito ang aking buhay? Bigla na lang nagbago, Simula ng makilala sya. Kay hirap naman, Kay gulo-gulo naman. Bakit ba ganito,nakakalito.. Chorus: Sana'y malaman ko ohhh... At sana,malaman ko agad, Para naman alam ko ang aking gagawin.. At sana,pag nalaman ko ito, Ay hindi pa huli ang lahat-lahat sa amin... Go to refrain then repeat chorus.... Actually this is a simple song na ginawa ko nung highschool para sa crush ko na gagraduate na. I'm only in my 2nd year and he is in his 4th year,hehe. Don't know kung magugustuhan niyo. Pero until now di ko pa nakakalimutan tong kantang to. Simple lang at madaling kabisaduhin..😁

Raffle! It's been a trending now to some people in the online world. Most of the online seller is doing it right now for some fun and a little earning from it too. So I got a little curious and thinking why should I not try to do it? And then I ask my friends if they think it will click. And when they say yes. Finally I decided to try it. I choose three items from the things I sell online that I think is trending and most housewives will like to have and then I posted it and pick which is the 1st,2nd and 3rd prize. I decided the Samgyup Grill for the first prize. A 3 Layer Steamer for the second prize and an Electric Mixer for the third prize. I put the numbers 1 to 50 for their choice of number and each nunmber cost 50 pesos each. At first I had some doubt about this raffle that I started. But I'm thankful to have a supportive partner who help me to finish it and make sure that all the numbers will be paid. And when its full and all the members had paid. I started the raffle in the afternoon the next day. I'm a little bit nervous and don't have much idea on what to do. But since my partner is with me,he help with the live raffle. We choose the numbers and announce the three winners. While doing that raffle I felt so nervous but excited also. It is really exciting and I am so happy for the winners. I never got lucky in any raffle but knowing I made some people happy with my raffle. I am happy too and felt contented. Now I want to do it again and I'm hoping that the people who joined before will join again and support me. It is a nice feeling to make some people get what they want in a simple and fun way like this raffle of mine..

Ganito Ba Talaga? Ganito ba talaga kapag malapit na? Hindi ko ito first time pero bakit naninibago na naman. Kada na lang mangyayari ito ay tila parang laging first time. Kahit hindi naman. Pang apat na supling na syang malapit ko ng isilang. Hindi una at hindi ngayon lang. Pero yung pakiramdam ko ay laging bago. Ganun din ang nangyari sakin sa ikatlo. Lahat ng first time sa kanya'y naranasan ko. Dito naman ay meron ding bago. Ang pagiging masyadong emosyonal ko. Konting bagay,konting problema. Konting pagkakamali,konting reklamo. Lahat yan ay agad dinidibdib ko. Lahat ng konting yan ay iniiyakan ko ng todo. Sa ayaw ko man o sa gusto ngunit kusang tumutulo mga luha ko. Masyadong emosyonal,masyadong magdamdam. Ang sakit sa ulo,ganun din sa dibdib ko. Kapag hindi iniyak ay tila sasabog hindi lang ang utak ko kundi maging dibdib ko. Ilang linggo pa akong magiging ganito? Hanggang sa lumabas ka o mahal ko. Nahihirapan man sa pagkilos at sa nararamdaman,handa akong tiisin basta maging ligtas ka lamang. Naninibago man ako sa aking nararamdaman. Sige lang,dahil siguro ganito talaga ang isang inang excited ng makita ang magiging sanggol niya.

Nakakapagod Na! Sa araw-araw na lang na ginawa ng Diyos ay paulit-ulit na lang ang nangyayari. Gigising ka sa umaga. Maghahanda ng almusal para sa pamilya. Mag-aasikaso ng mga anak. At iintindihin pati ang asawa. Mag-iisip kung ano ang uulamin sa tanghalian at maging sa hapunan. Mamamalengke,magluluto at maglilinis ng tahanan. Araw-araw kailangan makisama. Kailangan magpanggap na okay lang kahit hindi na. Kailangan kumilos kahit pagod na pagod na. Dahil walang ibang gagawa nito para sa iyong pamilya. Pero ang tanong naaapreciate ka ba? Lahat ng effort at pagod mo para pamilya ay napapansin ba? Nakikita ba nila kung gaano mo pinangangalagaan at inaasikaso sila? May silbi ba lahat ng sakripisyo mo para sa kanila? Sino ba tayo bilang isang Ina para sa kanila? Isang ilaw ng tahanan o isang kasambahay lamang? Andaming tanong saking isipan. Kahit anong effort ko. Kahit anong gawin ko. Lahat ng sakripisyo ko. Parang balewala lang sa kanila. Nakakapagod mag-isip. Nakakapagod magsalita. Nakakapagod kumilos para lang sa kanila. Lalo na kung ang lahat ng ito ay tila balewala lang at walang kwenta. Hindi madaling maging isang ina. At ibuhos lahat ng atensyon mo para sa pamilya. Yung halos buong mundo mo ay umiikot para lang sa kanila. Pero bilang isang Ina,may choice ba tayo? Pwede ba tayong mamili ng gusto natin? Pwede ba nating sabihin na tayo'y pagod na? Pwede bang kahit minsan lang ay piliin natin yung choice na para satin? Hindi pwede di ba? Dahil ang gawin ito ay pagiging selfish na. Magiging selfish tayo sa paningin ng iba. Wala tayong karapatang magreklamo. Wala tayong karapatang maging selfish. Dahil pinili natin ang buhay na ito. Ang maging isang Ina at ilaw ng tahanan niyo. Oo,nakakapagod! Nakakasawa na rin kung minsan. Ang sarap magreklamo! Ang sarap ipagsigawan sa mundo ang nararamdaman ko! Pero hindi pwede,hindi maaari. Dahil pinili ko ito,kailangan panindigan ko. Pero sana kahit minsan lang. Kahit isang beses man lang. Makita nila yung effort mo. Makita nila yung halaga mo. Makita nila kung sino ka ba sa pamilya niyo. Yung worth mo sa buhay nila at sa pamilya niyo. Nang sa ganon kahit minsan lang gumaan ang pakiramdam mo. At mabawasan ang bigat sa dibdib mo. Dahil tao rin tayo. Napapagod at nagsasawa rin sa hirap ng mundo...

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Fake People How can you determine a fake people? How can you say if the person is fake or the person is real? Can it really distingiush or not? It's really hard to tell whether a person is real or not. Fake people knows how to pretend that they were real. They know how to manipulate you in their hands. They know very well how to make you believe in them. Most of the time those fake people is just around you. Surrounding you and manipulating you. Because most of the times those fake people is your friend. Yes,fake friends! Fake people,fake friends,fake faces,fake smiles,fake promises, fake relationship and in the end fake world! You can never find out a fake person if you are blinded by their words. If you are blinded by their gesture. You will really believe that they are real to you since it is how they are manipulating you. But sometimes it is easy to see those fake people. Sometimes just by looking at their eyes,seeing their gestures can determine if they are fake or real. Because not all people are good in pretending. Sometimes you can easily see what is their true motive. What they really want and why they are trying to cling on you. It is scary to be surrounded by these fake people! But if you know how to determine who is real and who is fake,you won't get easily fooled by them. I've been surrounded by these fake people or so called fake friends eversince. I once also get fooled by them. Trying my best to give them what they want. Trying my very best to pleased them. But in the end, I am still the one who suffered believing them. Getting experience with this kind of people can make you more stronger. Can make you more wiser in the future. So don't be afraid when you encounter them. Be strong and be wise! Because fake people are always there. And are always ready to fool someone!

Open Relationship Ano nga ba ang ibig sabihin ng in an open relationship? Bakit may mga tao na mas gusto ang ganitong klaseng relasyon kesa sa seryosohan? Nainspire akong isulat ang article na to about sa open relationship matapos kong mapanood kanina ang pelikulang "Open" na pinagbidahan ni Arcy Muñoz. Ito ay tungkol sa dalawang taong nagsasama o magkalive in partner. Matagal na ang relasyon nila. Since highschool days ay sila na at hanggang sa nakatapos sila at nagkaroon ng kanya-kanyang trabaho. First love din nila ang isa't-isa. Kumbaga first boyfriend and first girlfriend sila. Ang relasyon nila ay umabot ng 14 years. Ganun katagal! To the extent na parang naging habit na lang nilang dalawa ang magkasama sila sa lahat ng bagay. Kumbaga naging kampante na sila sa isa't-isa. Pero dahil sa bagay na yun nagsimulang magsawa si Lalaki at naakit syang tumingin at tumikim ng iba. Ngunit hindi dahil sa hindi na niya mahal si Babae kundi parang gusto niya lang makatikim ng ibang putahe. Kaya nagkaroon siya ng ideya na gayahin ang isang kaibigan nila na in an open relationship. Nung una ay hindi pabor si Babae since mahal na mahal niya si Lalaki. Pero since mapilit si Lalaki at ayaw niyang mawala si Lalaki sa kanya ay pinagbigyan niya ang kahilingan nito. To make the story short naging in an open relationship nga sila. Sa una akala ni Lalaki ay magiging masaya siya. Pero sa huli ay pagsisisi lang ang nakamit niya. Sapagkat sumira siya sa usapan nila at pangako sa isa't isa. Sinira niya yung rules ng open relationship nila na ang naging ending ay tuluyang nawala sa kanya ang babaeng pinakamamahal niya. I used to be in an open relationship din before. Nagkaroon ako ng lalaking nakarelasyon ko na open kami sa isa't isa. Pwede syang tumingin sa iba at pwede rin akong tumingin sa iba. Yun ay kapag di kami magkasama. Since he lives abroad madali lang yung set up namin na yun. Kapag nandito sya,kaming dalawa. Kapag wala sya e hindi kami. Nakakatawa di ba? Pero yun ang gusto niya ehh,at ayos din lang naman sakin. Two years din ako sa set up na yun. Bago ko nakilala ang forever ko. O di ba? May pa forever ang peg. Masasabi kong ayos lang naman ang in an open relationship kung parehas kayong open minded ng partner mo. Walang masama dun basta masaya kayo at walang inaapakang tao. Aaminin ko,marami din akong naging boyfriend since highschool days. At wala akong seryosong naging karelasyon noon. Lahat ay flings at dyowa-dyowa lang. Malandi na kung malandi ang tingin niyo sa ganun. Pero at least kahit ganun ako di naman ako basta bumibigay to the point na ialay ko na sarili ko. Nakikipagbf lang ako para libangin sarili ko. May taga libre sa sinehan. Taga libre sa kainan. May taga paload at meron ding taga bili ng cellphone. O di ba astig! Haha! Well,di niyo ko masisisi. Sila lumalapit ehh. Sino ba naman ako para tumanggi? Pero hanggang ganun lang naman. Dahil no string attach e no touch din. And sobrang honest kong tao! Promise! Kasi sinasabi ko sa kanila kung ilan sila at pang ilan silang karelasyon ko. O di ba,taray?! Pero mostly kasi ay thru textmate lang naman. Di naman talagang nakikita ko silang lahat. Uso pa kasi noon ang textmate ehh. At yun ang way ko para malibang sa masalimuot kong mundo. Di ko na ieexagerate kung anong klaseng masalimuot yun ha. Since di naman kasama sa topic yun. At yun nga ang karanasan ko sa in an open relationship. Siguro maraming huhusga sakin dito. Okay lang,sanay na ako. Basta aminado akong di ako perpekto. Tao lang din ako na may mga kalokohang nagawa nung kabataan ko. Sa iba ang in an open relationship ay para lang libangin ang sarili nila. Meron namang kaya gusto ito is takot sa commitment. Meron ding di lang talaga seryoso o di naniniwala sa forever. Ganun din naman ako noon. Di ako naniniwala na may tao talagang nakalaan para sa atin. Na waoang forever. Lalo na sa mga taong bitter! Pero kung papasok ka sa ganitong klaseng relasyon make sure lang na wala kang pagsisisihan sa huli. Siguraduhin mong laro is laro lamang. At wala ng higit pa dun. Nang wag kang magaya sa karakter nung Lalaki sa "Open" na huli ay pinagsisihan niya ang naging desisyon niya. Na imbes na nasa kanya na ang kanyang forever e pinakawalan niya pa dahil sa kanyang di pagiging kontento sa isa. Be carefull of what you choose and decide,for you not to regret everything and let it become just a past...

My Soon to be Prince Di na ko makapaghintay na ikaw ay masilayan. Bawat kilos mo at kimbot sa aking tiyan. Ilang buwan kitang dinala sa aking sinapupunan. Ngayon ay ilang linggo na lang ang aking ipaghihintay. Lahat ay excited na at hindi mapalagay. Panay ang tanong,ikaw ba'y ayos lang? Hindi man plinano ang ikaw ay agad mabuo, Ngunit pagmamahal ko sayo'y buong-buo. Hindi man ikaw ang unang naging supling, Sisiguraduhin ko naman na pagmamahal sa inyo'y pantay-pantay pa rin. Katulad ng sa kuya mo,at maging sa ate mo. Pagmamahal ko sayo'y solidong-solido. Kaya wag mag-alala o mahal ko Sa paglabas mo lahat ay makukuntento. Na masilayan ka at mahawakan munting mga kamay mo. At maibuhos sayo lahat ng pagmamahal namin. O my soon to be prince, my little Eldwayne...

In Laws Most feared by couples are to be introduced to their future in laws. Specially if they found out how strict they can be. Most of the in laws are very strict when it comes to their sons or daughters. Specially the daughter's. Because they know how special they treat them and how they take care of her from being a toddler until she grew up. And they want the best for her. In my situation it's the opposite. Since I am a woman and had a child from the past they can't just accept me for their son. He is the youngest and the favorite in the family. And they never expect him to fall in love with a woman like me. A single mom to be exact. He's a treasure for them that should choose a better and have higher standards when it comes to woman. That's why when he introduce me to them I can clearly see the disatisfaction in their eyes. And because they don't really agree with me I had this memorable experience in the past when we we're just in a relationship. It was my son's birthday and I invited him to come over to my place because we are having a simple celebration with my son and my sister's family. And because it's a small celebration. Drinking alcohol is un-avoidable. We had a few drinks but made him drunk and doesn't want to go home. But because of that her mother keeps on calling to his mobile phone. And when I told them that his drunk and want to sleep over, I was really shock after that phone call. My neighbor knock on my door. Calling me and telling me that someone is looking for me. So when I went outside to check who it is. To my surprise I saw his parents outside with their car and asking for their son. They came to pick him up. It's a big humiliation on my part. I felt so shy seeing my neighbors looking at us and maybe laughing inside their mind. It was the most embarassing moment of my life. And I can never forgot about it until now that we are already together and living in the same house. Yes,his parents are so strict like other parents are. Before,I can't understand their attitude towards their son. But now that I am staying next to them I slowly understand them. It's not only my husband that they are very strict. They are like that towards all their son's and daughter. Regardless of their age,they don't have a choice but to obey their parents. That's how they respect them. And now I cannot argue with that. I also respect them and follow their rules in the house. Maybe most of us don't understand our in laws. And why they are like that to us or how they treat us. But this is some advice I can give base on my experience. They will treat us base on how we treat them. If we show them that we respect them. They will respect you also. If you show them that you treat them like a real parent,they will also treat you like their own. Parents are just being annoying if they want their child to grew up in a good environment and have good attitude towards life. My husband used to be a spoiled son. But now he's learning things from me and becoming a good husband and a father to our kids. And my in laws supports us now in our relationship. They accepted me already and treat me as their own. Specially that I gave them a precious granddaughter that they love so much. And they are happy also with the result of how their son is changing into a responsible man. And even in my son,they accepted him and treat him as their own grandchild. They have a big heart and I am happy to have them as my in laws.

Motherhood Being a mother is the greatest thing that ever happened to me. Specially when I gave birth to my one and only daughter. I have son's too but my daughter is my precious one. Don't get me wrong by thinking I have my favoritism or special treatment to my kids. It's not that at all. It's just that I have been wanting to have a daughter eversince. And now that God gave me my wish I won't ask for more. All my kids are precious to me. I love them equally and unconditionally. I belive in saying that "Being a mother is a choice that you decided on your own and should take the responsibility that affiliated in it". They said motherhood is a choice you make everyday to put someone else's happiness and well being ahead of your own. It's a choice you make to give them everything they need and to teach them the hardest lesson to make sure that they will do the right thing and the right decision in their life as they grow. The attitude you show as a parent is what your kids will learn from more than what you tell them. That's why we need to be a good example for them. [Sponsor] It's not easy to be a mother. You need to do everything for your kids to secure their future. For me mother's are like a superhero without superpowers. They can do anything and everything! And even how hard things are to them they never give up specially if it's for their family and kids. And that is also me to my kids. I salute all Moms! Remember,all thing's grow better with a mother's love!

Family When you heard a word family,what is the thing that sink into your mind? Is it a blood relative,your mother,father,sister,brother or cousins,aunts and uncle? Or is it your grandmother and grandfather? Yes, we all call them our family. Or family member. Even our relatives are part of the family. But is it really the only definition of what we call family? To be exact, I grew up in a broken family. My father died when I was six years old. My mom is nowhere to be found at that time since they already split up since I was born. I never had a mother's love. She abandoned us and left us to our father who is an alcoholic and a gambler. My father died when I was six years old because of a cancer cause by his nonstop drinking of alcohol. But even though my father is like that he still pour us with his love and affection. He never let us feel unlove. That's why I never blame him in anything at all. When my father died, me and my siblings got separated with each other. They sent my older sister to our relatives in the province. While my older brother stayed in my Grandfather's care. And as for me,they sent me to my Uncle in the city. We all grew up separately without communication at all. But when my sister reach her right age. She took me and take care of me and stand's as my mother. We never seek help from our relatives even in our hardest time because we know that they won't help us even if we reach for them. That is the real color of our relatives. You see,even they are our family we still can't consider them as one since for them we also doesn't exist. Yes,we grew up with some of our relatives but they really didn't treat us well. They treat us as their housemaid,all around helper and not a family member at all. For me,my only dream before was to have a complete family. To have a loving mother,a caring father and a sweet and nice brother and sister. But now it's all just a dream. A dream that I had kept in the deepest part of my broken heart. Now that I am old enough, what I just want is to make a family of my own. The one that is not broken. And the one I can take care and make sure to be build with lots of love,care and happiness. I will make sure that even though I am not perfect but at least I can have a family that I can call my own!

My Secret Crush Lahat naman siguro tayo dumaan sa pagkakaroon ng crush. Simula elementary to highschool to college and even when we became adult nagkakacrush pa rin tayo. Hindi yan nawawala sa tao. At natural lang yan sa atin. Well,crush lang naman ehh. Walang masamang magkacrush. Sabi nga nila, "Crush is paghanga sometimes nawawala,sometimes lumalala",haha. Pero itong secret crush ko,sobrang tagal na. As in inamag na ng panahon pero until now di pa rin sya nawawala. Pero hanggang dun lang naman yun. Hanggang crush lang. Hindi naman sya lumala to the extent na main love ako dun sa tao. Hanggang crush lang talaga. Period! It's all started when I was in highschool. First year highschool ako ng una ko syang makilala. Anong nagustuhan ko sa kanya? Well, he's kind of cute. Tall,white and handsome kumbaga ang peg. The traits na gusto ko talaga sa lalaki. I like his smile,and kapag tinataas nia yung hair niya kasi may bangs sya. Ay shemay! Ang cute ng noo nia na heart shape at sobrang puti dahil laging natatakpan ng bangs niya. Sa unang araw ko pa lang sa school ko na yun ng highschool ay isa na sya sa unang nakilala ko at nakagaanan ng loob. Can you imagine na dahil sa isang simpleng biruan ay naging matalik kaming magkaibigan? Yes,we became bestfriend. At ano yung biruan namin na nagpasimula ng aming pagkakaibigan? It started with a confession na naging isang biro na lang samin. Yes, I confess to him and to my surprise he confess also. To make it simple? Sinabi ko sa kanya na crush ko sana sya kaso mayabang sya. And he replied back na crush din daw niya sana ako kaso mayabang din daw ako. Period! Yun na yun! After that confession nagtawanan na lang kami and then we became bestfriend. A girl and boy bff. Nung first year namin sa highschool ay magkaklase kami. Magkasangga sa kahit na anong bagay. And even nung second year namin na nagkahiwalay kami ng section ay di pa rin nawawala ang aming pagiging matalik na magkaibigan. But in my third year,nawalan na kami ng total communication. Dahil nagtransfer ako sa province in an unavoidable situation. Matagal din na panahon bago kami muling nagtagpo. Wow,lalim di ba? Nagtagpo talaga,haha. And that is thanks to facebook. We are adult now. It's been 17 years bago kami ulit nagkaroon ng communication. Oo,ganun katagal. At dahil yun sa social media. Sabi nilang mga friends ko sa same school noon,antagal daw nila akong hinanap nung nagstart magkafacebook. Pero since di ako ganun kaactive sa kahit na anong social media ay natagalan silang mahanap ako. At yun nga,nung nakita nila ako. Inadd sa fb friends nila nagdecide kami to make a small reunion. Nakakatuwang makita ulit ang mga matagal mong di nakitang mga kaibigan. And ang makita muli c bff/crush. Oo,ng magkita kaming muli I realize na I still have a crush on him. But that time he is in a relationship. So,keme lang ang peg. Quiet lang ako at tahimik na nagmamasid. Pero I'm still happy na sa tagal ng panahon e bff pa rin pala ang tingin niya sakin at masaya rin syang nagkita kaming muli. Dun na ulit nagstart ang communication namin. Although magkalayo kami ng lugar kasi yung reunion namin ay naging parang farewell party niya na rin dahil paalis sya ng bansa to try an opportunity abroad. Yes,umalis sya ng bansa pero di na nawala ang communication namin. Isa ako sa naging sumbungan niya,hingahan niya ng problema at chat mate kapag bored sya. And it's okay for me kasi kahit matagal na ang lumipas he is still my bff pa rin sa isip at puso ko. Until now na nakabalik na sya ng bansa paminsan-minsan nag-isstalk pa rin kami or maybe ako sa mga fb wall namin. We like each other's post and comment paminsan-minsan. We can't have a relationship more than a friend kasi he have a live-in partner now and I also have mine. Pero okay lang sakin yun. Gaya nga ng sabi ko I only have a cruah on him pero hanggang dun na lang yun. No more,no less. I'm happy with my partner now and I can see na masaya rin naman sya. We can be forever bff and no more than that. That is I can guarantee. True friends are priceless and hard to find in this big and scary world di ba? Kaya I want to keep my friends na alam kong true sakin. At yung secret crush ko. Ibabaon ko na lang yun hanggang sa huli. I will never admit it again to him to ruin our friendship. Kayo,anong kwento meron sa secret crush niyo?

Pospartum Depression Ano nga ba ang pospartum depression? Marami ang hindi nakakaintindi kung ano nga ba ito at ano ang maaaring idulot nito sa isang Ina. Ayon sa Psychiatrist ang pospartum depression ay maaaring maranasan ng isang bagong panganak at hanggang sa umabot na sa ika-pitong gulang ang kanyang anak. Meaning hindi lng buwan o isa,dalawa o tatlong taon ang bata pwede maranasan ng isang ina ang depression na ito. Ito'y pwedeng maranasan hanggang sa ika-pitong taong gulang na ng ating mga anak. Ano-ano nga ba ang sintomas na merong pospartum depression ang isang Ina? Or kung dumaranas ng prospartun depression ang iyong asawa o ang isang Ina? 👉If madali kang magalit or madaling mairita kahit sa isang maliit na bagay na hindi mo gusto at feeling mo hindi ka naiintindihan NG ibang Tao.. THAT'S POSTPARTUM 👉If hindi ka makatulog the whole day kahit wala kang ginagawa at buong araw ka nang nakahiga.. THAT'S POSTPARTUM 👉If may iniisip ka na matagal pa mangyayari pero excited ka nang gawin ito at marami ka nang naiisip na output nito..THAT'S POSTPARTUM 👉 OVERTHINKING, INSECURITIES, JEALOUSY... THAT'S POSTPARTUM 👉Pinaka hate mo sa bahay ay si Mister. Specially kung hindi ka pinakikinggan,ayaw sumunod,mga decision na conflict sa gusto mo at hindi ka na iimik, nagdadabog kana, ayaw mo nang makinig sa mga sasabihin ng asawa mo.. Dahil yung brain at body mo raw ay ayaw mag communicate.... Dahil nung manganak ka lahat nang nutrients mo ay down.. (Para kang nag shutdown)..THAT'S POSTPARTUM 👉Overwork sa bahay,kahit anu nalang maiisip,dahil feeling mo na bored ka na,feeling mo ang dumi ng bahay kahit hndi naman.. THAT'S POSTPARTUM 👉PANNICT ATTACK...kahit napakaliit na problema at kayang-kaya namang solusyonan pero nagpapanic ka.. THAT'S POSTPARTUM 👉So mula nang manganak ka,1 year ang recovery,pero possible nga always syang nasa saiyo kung di mo kayang e relax sarili mo, swerte ka kung hindi sakit ng ulo asawa mo, dahil sya ang papalit sa responsibilities mo, UNDERSTANDING ang pinaka the best na meron ang hubby mo dahil sa panahon na di mo kayang mag-adjust ay siya ang gagawa nito, dahil hindi ito natatakasan. Wag bibigyan ang bagong panganak ng mga bagay na di niya gusto dahil kahit gusto nyang intindihin yun,yung puso't isip nya hindi magkasundo. Maging maunawaing asawa sa lahat ng oras at bagay. ☝️Tandaan: Wag gawing biro ang Pospartum Depression. Hindi ito isang simpleng bagay lang na pwedeng baliwalain o ipagsawalang bahala lang. Maraming Ina ang nakakasakit ng mga anak nila kahit ayaw nila. Laging inaaway ang asawa nila kahit di nila gusto pero di nila makontrol ang sarili nila. At maraming Ina ang nagpapakamatay dahil sa depression na ito. Kaya sana kapag nakakita kayo ng ganitong senyales sa inyong mga asawa or sa sarili ninyo ay wag itong iagsawalang bahala lang. Kumunsulta or maghanap nag paraan para ito'y maiwasan.

My Sister,My Bestfriend Marami din naman akong naging kaibigan. Maraming tinawag na sis,girl,besh,beshtie,friendship,cheekie and beshy. Ngunit sa lahat ng mga naging friendship ko walang tutumbas sa Ate ko. Nag-iisa sya sa mundo! Simula pagkabata kapag may nang-aaway sakin lagi syang to the rescue. Makita niya pa lang akong umiiyak habang papalapit sa kanya ay alalang-alala na sya at tatanungin agad ako kung sinong nang-away sakin. Well,tampulan kasi ako ng tukso nung bata pa ako. Dahil nandyan c Ate,di ako marunong ipagtanggol ang sarili ko. Ate's girl ehh,hehe. Hanggang sa paglaki namin kaming dalawa pa rin ang magkakampi. Wala naman kasing ibang tutulong saming dalawa kundi kami rin ehh. Dahil lumaki kami sa broken family. At ngayong malaki na kami ako naman ang tagapagtanggol niya. Kung dati lagi syang to the rescue sakin kapag may nagpapaiyak sakin. Ngayon naman ay baligtad na. Ako naman ang sumasaklolo sa kanya. Masyado kasing mabait ang ate ko. At dahil sa kabaitan niya lagi syang inaabuso. Laging sinasamantala ang pagiging mabuti niyang tao. Na pinapagsawalang bahala niya naman. Subalit sakin ay hindi uubra ang ganun. Di nila pwedeng apihin ang mahal kong Ate. For me she's the best in everything. Kaya kaming dalawa ngayon ang in tandem. Ako ang nagtatanggol sa kanya subalit sya naman ang tumutulong sakin sa oras ng kagipitan ko. Tulungan kumbaga. Ganun naman talaga ang magkakapatid di ba? At alam kong hanggang sa pagtanda namin ay walang iwanan. Sya ang pinaka the best of bestfriend sa buhay ko. My Sister,my bestfriend!!

Ang Aking Munting Prinsesa Siyam na buwan kitang dinala sa aking sinapupunan. Sa unang limang buwan mo sa aking tiyan, Ako'y iyong talagang pinahirapan. Ayaw mo ng ganito,ayaw mo ng ganoon. Mapili ako sa pagkaing aking isusubo. Kahit anong pagkaing na aking titikman, Tila ayaw pumasok sa aking kalamnan. Puro prutas at gulay,ayaw sa karne at isda. Mas pipiliin pa ang manggang hinog at kanin sa hapag. Kung ang iba ay tatlong buwan lang maglihi, Ako ay inabot ng lima hanggang anim. Lahat ng pagtitis ay ginawa ko na, Para lang sayo at nang manatiling malusog ka. Nung ika pitong buwan para malaman ang iyong kasarian. Kami'y pumunta sa clinic para magpaultrasound. Laking tuwa ko ng aking malaman, Isang munting prinsesa pala ang nasa aking sinapupunan. Kaya naman pala ako'y napakaselan, Sa lahat ng bagay na kakainin at gagawin. Sa ika-siyam na buwan ng ika'y palabas na. Muli at muli ako'y iyong pinahirapan. Ayaw mo lumabas,ayaw mong magpakita. Kaya mga doctor,aking tiyan napilitang mahiwa. Cesarian Session,first time kong naranasan. Malaking karayom na tinurok sa aking likuran. Lahat ng nagaganap sa emergency room, Tiniis at inisip ko ayos lang basta mairaos ko. Ang mailabas ka ng walang problema't komplikasyon. After ng operasyon,24 oras na walang kain at inom, Ang pinakamahirap sa lahat ngunit kinaya ko. Alang-alang sa kaligtasan nating dalawa mahal ko. Lahat ng hirap at pagtitiis ay naging sulit talaga, Nang aking masilayan o ikaw aking prinsesa. Ang iyong maliliit na kamay at mapupulang labi, Makulot na buhok at maumbok na pisngi. Ang paglabas mo ang pinakamasayang sandali, Nang aking buhay o mahal kong marikit. Ngayon ay unti-unti ka ng lumalaki, Sa dalawang taon mo dito sa mundong ibabaw, Ang pag-aalaga at pagpapalaki sayo, Ay isang regalo sakin mula sa Panginoon. Ang iyong ngiti,halakhak at pangungulit, Ay tila musika sa aking pandinig. Ngunit ang pag-iyak o iyong pagtangis, Ay tila masong dumudurog sa aking dibdib. Alam kong marami pa tayong pagdaraanan, Marami pang sakripisyo at pagmamahalan. Handa akong ibigay saiyo ang mga bituin at buwan, Kahit ang buong mundo basta laging maayos ka lamang. Ikaw ang pinakaimportante sa aking buhay, O aking munting prinsesa,pinakamamahal na tunay.

Remembering Someone It's been five years since we last met, But I can still remember everything we shared. It's the time when my life is in it's upside down, You approach me with a smile on your face. I had never imagine that simple gesture, Can make a big changes in a life I have. You gave light in my darkest hour, You are like my guardian angel that came from above. We shared a lot of happy memories, We travel and try new things together. You teach me things I never know, And I let you know some of my secrets too. We had so much fun in Island hoping, Traveling from here to there like we never get tired. We go on swimming and hiking, Eat on different restaurants and tried different cocktails. We even tried to walk through the whole Island, That was tiring but a funny experience one. I love how you introduce me to different things in life. And open up my blinded eye. I will never forget the whole one month, That we stayef together and had so much fun. The beach and Island where we stay longer. The low tide in the beach where it leaves some small pool. Then we go for a swim back and fort. And when it's high tide you go on your surf board. And I will try to catch a good nice picture of you with the surf board. I can even remember when you laugh so much, When I tried to catch those poor crabs. And we even enjoyed picking up the shells, As for me to bring as a souvenier. I still have those on my memory items. Never ever tried to throw it away. As it still brings back the memories we had shared. I miss you so much and those memories we had. Those are the most happiest days of my life. I don't know if we can still meet again. But I do hope to see you again. And I hope that you also still remeber me, And the days and memories that we had shared. I will treasure you and our memories. I hope you are fine wherever you are now. And won't forget my reminders to you. To always take care of yourself and your health. You are the best travel buddy, The best tour guide. The best of friend that I ever had..

My Homemade Pizza Hello there! I just want to share my homemade pizza. You can do it for snacks or even for small business. It's easy and simple. Please be kind to me since I only used fry pan for doing it since I don't have an oven at home. But I hope you'll like it! So here's the engredients and procedure! Ingredients: For the Dough: 1 and ¼ cup of apf ½ cup warm water 1 tsp sugar ½ tsp yeast 1 tbsp oil Pinch of salt Procedure: 1. In a mixing bowl, combine flour, sugar, yeast and salt. Mix until blended. Then add oil. Add warm water, half water first until the flour absorb the warm water. Mix thoroughly. Then add again the other half. And mix again. 2. Then start kneading the dough for 10 minutes to become smooth and nice. Then put the dough in a bowl and put some oil on top and let it rest for at least an hour. 3. After 1 hour you will see that the dough gets double it's size. Then knead again and cut it in half to make two portion. Make it round with the rolling pin to make it like the pizza crust then put it in the pan and cooked it. 7 mins for the front and 7 minutes for the back. It takes 14 minutes cooking for low fire. For toppings: Italian pizza sauce Bell pepper Tomato Eden cheese/shredded Cooked Corned beef Okay, so here we are to make the part with the pizza crust. First,put the sauce in the crust. Then add the cooked corned beef. And then put the bell pepper and tomato. Lastly put the shredded cheese as the last topings. Cook it again for at least 3 mins until the cheese melt. Now it's ready! Sorry for the manual procedure since I only used the frying pan instead of an oven but I hope you enjoy and like it!😊